Antoher tired day for Jeano...zzzz..now sitting here waiting to reach midnight++ so that can bring in the dogs for tying up and tuck into bed.
This morning, woke at 10 and still feeling achish all over. I dunno what's wrong in terms of my sleep lately, having thse vivid dreams that are a little scary and makes me very conscious, and aware that i'm frowning in my sleep actually. I fell asleep at 2.30am in front of my lappie last night. Which is reasonable hour in Jeano books lah.
Pooped, pee, brush teeth, changed, asked sis how she doing this morning, back tracked and fed da Pins. Loaded up mum's stuff into car. Drove to her old east school, to give nephew's report book for appeal. Headed to redhill to move out mum's stuff coz she's leaving the current school to be re-posted next year. Loaded up on petrol at SPC, redhill. Parked, had lunch at the Redhill market, bought broom, mop, scrubs and candy (this one for office)..plodded back up the multi-storey to get the car (and mum didnt make sense when she made me carry all that up to level 5 to load in the car while she waited at the ground level exit. =S
Sis called, asked if i could be home before 3.30pm when they close. She needed a ride to the docs outside our home to get her MC. I figured. OK.
Next stop, Ion. Parked at Shaw again coz we took a wrong turn. Hunted for the LV shop...turn out the access is from Outside Ion! =S chose, the bag, made exchange and waited for all the double checks.
Said bye to mum, and only reached back my car at 3pm! Sis said she will go herself even though I was heading home. Got home, headed out on foot to the docs. Met sis in carpark, drove her car back. Unloaded mum's gazillion things again into the house. Contemplated movie, but had to coordinate with Duck, who was still napping!....had to take a breather, and cook sister's dinner (basic lah)...
Bought tix online, showered, fed dogs, clear bowls, pick poop, turn off sis' dinner, look for Cloudy -- coax her downt o eat dinner, drive out, pick up Duck, grab dinner, queue for tix and popocorn. After show, had time at the cold storage, so picked up some belated Xmas present. Bought some hot pies for sis supper. Drop off Duck, ended up talking to her in the car under her flat. Reached home at 1045pm. Cleared up leftover dinner, washed up, gave Red her daily apple, stocked the fridge, clean the home tortise, put in a fresh tub of water+Kang Kong+ peel a prawn...and came upstairs...
O__O
Today was peppered with sms and calls from 2nd sis that usually does not happen on lor..=S
Yawn...oh well...
I am alive..LOL
Now it's 12am++
Time to go back down and tuck in the dogs, come up and shower...what a day...ZZZzzz
Monday 28 December 2009
Classic Christmas...is childhood memories....
OOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooo...YAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!
I remembered and found my Disney Christmas show!! Man I loved this so much, it was like over and hour of pure christmas magic! I used to have one video tape of it when i was young. Recorded from Tv...!!
I would just leave it on..and laze in bed in an aircon room (the only few specials days, I won't get scolded for leaving the aircon on in the morning)..hee...they showed it in SG when i was 3!!
they don't make good ol' christmas cartoons like this no more...what a classic!
Can't imagine...I believed it all...all that happiness, all that joy..*beeeg smile*
This is just one part. 10 mins!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sk2AI0zPr3w&NR=1
Ge ah, this was broadcast in Christmas 1982 -- When you were born! Amazing ain't it? It's almost as old as you! =)
I remembered and found my Disney Christmas show!! Man I loved this so much, it was like over and hour of pure christmas magic! I used to have one video tape of it when i was young. Recorded from Tv...!!
I would just leave it on..and laze in bed in an aircon room (the only few specials days, I won't get scolded for leaving the aircon on in the morning)..hee...they showed it in SG when i was 3!!
they don't make good ol' christmas cartoons like this no more...what a classic!
Can't imagine...I believed it all...all that happiness, all that joy..*beeeg smile*
This is just one part. 10 mins!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sk2AI0zPr3w&NR=1
Ge ah, this was broadcast in Christmas 1982 -- When you were born! Amazing ain't it? It's almost as old as you! =)
Sunday 27 December 2009
Yest I was in vivo for dinner after the full afternoon doing bowl's wedding photo shoot.Whiel shopping for bandages for sis in guardian, i spotted the BK advert -- that they now have Angus beef burgers...*slurp*..made me think of the black angus dinner i had the day before on christmas day dinner..heee...Nothign like a good medium steak neh...*yums*...Lamb chops also can...drizzled with the right sauce...succulent and juicy...*smacks lips*
I apologise for making you salivate..hee...
Singaproe Idol finals is on TV now..final minutes..as usual dragging the suspense. I'm guessing the girl will win.
OMG...the guy won...I have nothing to say...she was so popular I thought she would win. LOL...and, possibly Singaporeans are tired of another male idol.
Last year when another guy won who was a Malay, (this is not racist)...the good thing was it showed, Singapore generally is racially harmonious. Bad thing is, SG Chinese can't sing ..LOL (finals was a chinese and malay male)
Now...anotehr one..HAHAHAHA...not a chinese competitor this time, but..she's hmmm...can't make out, probably half chinese?..hehehe...
Win lor...3 SG idol competitions -- and this?!..hahahha...*still speechless*
Congrats to the Suria channel, more talent! Go conquer the region guys! the chinese speaking countries can wait wait long long..hahahaha
Ok ok,...back to the intended post, woke up this morning aching all over, i had slept like a log but with vivid dreams. Aches came about from the tense driving session yest, because of the heavy rain and poor visibility with bad traffic. if there were traffic demons, they were against me man!!
It was an early mornign today, brought sis to see the sinseh in Upp Paya Lebar. Such places the earlier you go the better, because the crowd grows exponentially with time. Sis footie was real swollen, looked like mine, it was rounded and shiny! =P
Anyway, the doc said she had to go for Xray in case it was a fracture on the foot, so she used a marker and made some 'X' and 'O' with arrows....HAHAHA, when my sis came out, I said her foot look like a large piece of meat in the supermarket, being marked for cutting/ labelled for processing..hahahaha..like those round ham...LOL
I'm so evil, but she had to agree..heee...anyway, she in alot of pain. so she taking killers, this evening I did the groceries and dropped off my nephew's present finally. Drove big sis car (3rd time in my life) for all this, coz the cloudy had to tag along for her drive..Sis stayed in the car while i twaddled.
She's in worse shape than me lah...and she refuses to use the crutches coz uncomfy and awkward..MUahahahha...now she know why i dun like to use..hee...
so yeap...tired-er than ever man..tml antoehr day of errands..yipes..mum and nephew matters..haiz...
Anyways, time to go settle in liao..wonder what I shall watch tonite..hmmm...
I apologise for making you salivate..hee...
Singaproe Idol finals is on TV now..final minutes..as usual dragging the suspense. I'm guessing the girl will win.
OMG...the guy won...I have nothing to say...she was so popular I thought she would win. LOL...and, possibly Singaporeans are tired of another male idol.
Last year when another guy won who was a Malay, (this is not racist)...the good thing was it showed, Singapore generally is racially harmonious. Bad thing is, SG Chinese can't sing ..LOL (finals was a chinese and malay male)
Now...anotehr one..HAHAHAHA...not a chinese competitor this time, but..she's hmmm...can't make out, probably half chinese?..hehehe...
Win lor...3 SG idol competitions -- and this?!..hahahha...*still speechless*
Congrats to the Suria channel, more talent! Go conquer the region guys! the chinese speaking countries can wait wait long long..hahahaha
Ok ok,...back to the intended post, woke up this morning aching all over, i had slept like a log but with vivid dreams. Aches came about from the tense driving session yest, because of the heavy rain and poor visibility with bad traffic. if there were traffic demons, they were against me man!!
It was an early mornign today, brought sis to see the sinseh in Upp Paya Lebar. Such places the earlier you go the better, because the crowd grows exponentially with time. Sis footie was real swollen, looked like mine, it was rounded and shiny! =P
Anyway, the doc said she had to go for Xray in case it was a fracture on the foot, so she used a marker and made some 'X' and 'O' with arrows....HAHAHA, when my sis came out, I said her foot look like a large piece of meat in the supermarket, being marked for cutting/ labelled for processing..hahahaha..like those round ham...LOL
I'm so evil, but she had to agree..heee...anyway, she in alot of pain. so she taking killers, this evening I did the groceries and dropped off my nephew's present finally. Drove big sis car (3rd time in my life) for all this, coz the cloudy had to tag along for her drive..Sis stayed in the car while i twaddled.
She's in worse shape than me lah...and she refuses to use the crutches coz uncomfy and awkward..MUahahahha...now she know why i dun like to use..hee...
so yeap...tired-er than ever man..tml antoehr day of errands..yipes..mum and nephew matters..haiz...
Anyways, time to go settle in liao..wonder what I shall watch tonite..hmmm...
so far...
I'm reaching the halfway point of this long holiday break. Strangely, even though I haven't planned for any programme since the eve, I've been out for long hours since then, the past 3 days.
Footie's been holding up. In fact, not getting much worse. However, he aint' getting progressively better either.
Sis' recent fall was on the road to recovery on the knee...but little did she know, she sprained her toes (so we're guessin here) during the fall as well. So with her programme of runnign around since the eve too, christmas day was the last straw and her right foot gave up. It's puffy, and swollen like mine. -- and she still walking around lor...
So she was home the entire day. (except to bring her dog out for her drive...win lor...)
Anyway, coz she' in a worse state, I'm trying to do more, even though both of us are effectively penguins at home. Nothing major, just buying home food and heat plasters etc.
Probably coz it's late, but i sat here awhiel and wondered why footie is taking so long to receover. Like I said, almost reaching the hlafway mark of the hols and he's still behaving liek that...
='( ...kwhy....
haiz...ok..enough stupid thoughts..time to go settle into bed. early morning bring sis to see doc...or service...hmmm...oh heck...
Anyway, past fews days has been gootch, even with footie like that, I'm pretty much happy...
Pwessies I've given out all so far been positive, heee...fortunate lah...not everyone has a gift this year coz i couldn't find one bah...If i see something I know they'd love I'd get for sure..hee...=)
Tired...bed bed..calling to meee...
Footie's been holding up. In fact, not getting much worse. However, he aint' getting progressively better either.
Sis' recent fall was on the road to recovery on the knee...but little did she know, she sprained her toes (so we're guessin here) during the fall as well. So with her programme of runnign around since the eve too, christmas day was the last straw and her right foot gave up. It's puffy, and swollen like mine. -- and she still walking around lor...
So she was home the entire day. (except to bring her dog out for her drive...win lor...)
Anyway, coz she' in a worse state, I'm trying to do more, even though both of us are effectively penguins at home. Nothing major, just buying home food and heat plasters etc.
Probably coz it's late, but i sat here awhiel and wondered why footie is taking so long to receover. Like I said, almost reaching the hlafway mark of the hols and he's still behaving liek that...
='( ...kwhy....
haiz...ok..enough stupid thoughts..time to go settle into bed. early morning bring sis to see doc...or service...hmmm...oh heck...
Anyway, past fews days has been gootch, even with footie like that, I'm pretty much happy...
Pwessies I've given out all so far been positive, heee...fortunate lah...not everyone has a gift this year coz i couldn't find one bah...If i see something I know they'd love I'd get for sure..hee...=)
Tired...bed bed..calling to meee...
Sunday 20 December 2009
Jingle all the wwaaaaaayyyyyyyy.....
Last week the Meterologoical services warned of heavy monsoons of rain and wind to take place from friday till today. 3 days. Severe flooding of low lying areas are to be expected. Today is sunday. Where is the big rain!
=P
In all my life i've known of lour local weather man, he's seldom right. Hahaha...well, sometimes he's close, but can be quite off.. hahaha...So usually I think opposite to what he predicts it to be and most of the time it's been helpful.=P
If he's going to be off this time round, i pray it won't happen tomorrow when we're out in Batam, especially on the ferry ride. Nausea wouls definitely spoil the day.
Recent news on the cold weather affecting transport in Europe makes one thankful to live in this part of the world. (For the moment of course. Humans are never satisfied and would soon gripe)...hehehe...
Not by man made destruction, the movie 2012, depicts a different and highly likely end of the world scenario. Not by any of our doing but by solar forces. It was realsitic. But the close shaves were abit overdone. One can only be lucky that many times. However, the CGI is awesome. You should watch it if you can. and if you do, it has to be the home big screen tv k, not your puny laptop, unless your laptop is a 20" at least...hahaha..then you will feel the full effect of the END OF THE WORLD!
Aiyo, why such morbid topics? You must be wondering especially when Christmas is just so round the corner. Well, with the climate thoughts and grim reminder that all could go *poof* overnight. It's a reminder to love and enjoy this holiday. =)
This Christmas is more muted than ever for me. I dunno why, the festive bug hasn't fully bitten me yet, or may just never. I'm not complaining. Just noticing my feelings..hee..but am still brainstorming with ge what to get for the office and so far i think we're almost done except one or two and yes, boss. Am enjoying more than ever to notice that people are trawling malls to find something just to make someone else happy. And that is in itself enough to lift up one's spirits, that collectively, we're all thinking about others and not ourselves for a change. =)
Even if it's expressed in more often than not in materialistic ways. Hey, better than nothing right? =)
Gifts this year is harder for me. One aspect hampering me is my footie. When I shop for X'mas, I need to zip around fast one. Scan , scope, evaluate, note, move on, recap and then decide. Hahaha...
another reason is because, I kinda know what i wanna get for some, but but...I dont' see it around. It's one of those things that if you see, you know it's appropriate. =)
Whatever it is, I'm just happy my footie is well! hee...still bit limpy, but am moving around. Yeah! =D
=P
In all my life i've known of lour local weather man, he's seldom right. Hahaha...well, sometimes he's close, but can be quite off.. hahaha...So usually I think opposite to what he predicts it to be and most of the time it's been helpful.=P
If he's going to be off this time round, i pray it won't happen tomorrow when we're out in Batam, especially on the ferry ride. Nausea wouls definitely spoil the day.
Recent news on the cold weather affecting transport in Europe makes one thankful to live in this part of the world. (For the moment of course. Humans are never satisfied and would soon gripe)...hehehe...
Not by man made destruction, the movie 2012, depicts a different and highly likely end of the world scenario. Not by any of our doing but by solar forces. It was realsitic. But the close shaves were abit overdone. One can only be lucky that many times. However, the CGI is awesome. You should watch it if you can. and if you do, it has to be the home big screen tv k, not your puny laptop, unless your laptop is a 20" at least...hahaha..then you will feel the full effect of the END OF THE WORLD!
Aiyo, why such morbid topics? You must be wondering especially when Christmas is just so round the corner. Well, with the climate thoughts and grim reminder that all could go *poof* overnight. It's a reminder to love and enjoy this holiday. =)
This Christmas is more muted than ever for me. I dunno why, the festive bug hasn't fully bitten me yet, or may just never. I'm not complaining. Just noticing my feelings..hee..but am still brainstorming with ge what to get for the office and so far i think we're almost done except one or two and yes, boss. Am enjoying more than ever to notice that people are trawling malls to find something just to make someone else happy. And that is in itself enough to lift up one's spirits, that collectively, we're all thinking about others and not ourselves for a change. =)
Even if it's expressed in more often than not in materialistic ways. Hey, better than nothing right? =)
Gifts this year is harder for me. One aspect hampering me is my footie. When I shop for X'mas, I need to zip around fast one. Scan , scope, evaluate, note, move on, recap and then decide. Hahaha...
another reason is because, I kinda know what i wanna get for some, but but...I dont' see it around. It's one of those things that if you see, you know it's appropriate. =)
Whatever it is, I'm just happy my footie is well! hee...still bit limpy, but am moving around. Yeah! =D
Saturday 19 December 2009
Arh...he's back?...
Hmmm..Schumi will be back on the F1 track in 2010! With Mercedes.
Wah...the F1 management will be happy. Confirm ticket sales would go up next year because of this.
In addition, Alonso is still on track with Ferrari Scuderia.
WAH>...am sure the two of them are longing to have a competitive go at each other after their history too. hehehe...
More reasons to watch F1! =)
Wah...the F1 management will be happy. Confirm ticket sales would go up next year because of this.
In addition, Alonso is still on track with Ferrari Scuderia.
WAH>...am sure the two of them are longing to have a competitive go at each other after their history too. hehehe...
More reasons to watch F1! =)
Friday 18 December 2009
Sunday 13 December 2009
fear of french fries?
I was just reading up on the fear of clowns called Coulrophobia, as it's something i can't understand why there is such a phobia. I mean, most other phobias i know of I can understand, as they have some link to danger or possbile death.
E.g Claustrophobia, gives a sense of entrapment in a small space. Possible lack of air and then death.
Fear of heights...well, I suffer from that alittle if u make me climb up a shaky ladder that is 3 storys high!!! There's a possibility of breaking a neck!
Fear of insects and spiders etc. I feel is becasue of the unpredictability of such creatures...and they are creepy and crawly...so we get a sense of being invaded by them.
Like me...I don't like snakes. hate the way they stare at you and that they can move fast and almost through anything....and have inverse teeth such they when they bite, you have to push in further to pull yourself out. *yeeks*
So seldom you hear or phobias (apart from bad experinces) of larger animals like giraffes. LOL...but such a phobia does exist..I think. =)
Anyway, back to clowns. To me they are people with make up. BUT and this is a big BUT...i don't like those dolls or those life sized ones are the amusement park where they are distorted and have a evil look. Especially those with an over enthusiatic grin...*shudder*...clowns are weird and thier makeup is not funny. Only what they do is.
I was trying to think of a clown that is positively portrayed. the one in the simpsons is scary...LOL...they someone on a forum brought up ronald McDonald. Eeeps....I suddently pity those with Coulophobia and a Macs outlet opens near them.
To me the mascot of the golden arches is ok leh...not scary...hmm...I guess that what makes phobias irrational...
Of course on such a topic, I had to research on an old show i watched on TV when I was a kid. Those were one of the shows that left an impression on me for weeks. It was rated the scariest movie in the states back in the mid 90s. (Though these days you have the asian version of horror, which to me I think is the worst.)
The show was based on Stephen King's book called 'It'..........eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkk....I never saw clowns the same way again. They are terrible lah, to make such a movie. I started watching because it was intriguing. Later on, i was just shit scared..HAHAHA...
Hmmm..the dumb things you so when you're young eh. Like scare yourself. =P
E.g Claustrophobia, gives a sense of entrapment in a small space. Possible lack of air and then death.
Fear of heights...well, I suffer from that alittle if u make me climb up a shaky ladder that is 3 storys high!!! There's a possibility of breaking a neck!
Fear of insects and spiders etc. I feel is becasue of the unpredictability of such creatures...and they are creepy and crawly...so we get a sense of being invaded by them.
Like me...I don't like snakes. hate the way they stare at you and that they can move fast and almost through anything....and have inverse teeth such they when they bite, you have to push in further to pull yourself out. *yeeks*
So seldom you hear or phobias (apart from bad experinces) of larger animals like giraffes. LOL...but such a phobia does exist..I think. =)
Anyway, back to clowns. To me they are people with make up. BUT and this is a big BUT...i don't like those dolls or those life sized ones are the amusement park where they are distorted and have a evil look. Especially those with an over enthusiatic grin...*shudder*...clowns are weird and thier makeup is not funny. Only what they do is.
I was trying to think of a clown that is positively portrayed. the one in the simpsons is scary...LOL...they someone on a forum brought up ronald McDonald. Eeeps....I suddently pity those with Coulophobia and a Macs outlet opens near them.
To me the mascot of the golden arches is ok leh...not scary...hmm...I guess that what makes phobias irrational...
Of course on such a topic, I had to research on an old show i watched on TV when I was a kid. Those were one of the shows that left an impression on me for weeks. It was rated the scariest movie in the states back in the mid 90s. (Though these days you have the asian version of horror, which to me I think is the worst.)
The show was based on Stephen King's book called 'It'..........eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkk....I never saw clowns the same way again. They are terrible lah, to make such a movie. I started watching because it was intriguing. Later on, i was just shit scared..HAHAHA...
Hmmm..the dumb things you so when you're young eh. Like scare yourself. =P
Friday 11 December 2009
After all the effort...to park and penguin over...
NO PEPPERMINT MOCHA!!! *shakes fist*
Just came back from picking mum up at the airport. Landed at 0230h...by the time she came out it was 3am....then drop off her fren...zzzzz...
The T2 decor is cute..giant bows..though abit plain.
Got 24 hour starbucks, so bought ice choc for sis and had to opt for caramel macc. The discount card price went up hor...$33...up by $3. Not as much savings now orh...
So here I am sipping kopi at 4am in the morning...=O hahahaha...
I seem to be visiting the airport at wee hours now. Week before, picked Sharon up at 0300h at the budget terminal. It's interesting to see the 'dead' terminals..hehe..today T2 was empty and only the lifts worked. Half the people at the T2 starbucks were asleep.
Now waiting to bathe...the peace has ended with mum back..lol...sis took her ice choc from me and scuttled back into the room to hide..hahaha
Just came back from picking mum up at the airport. Landed at 0230h...by the time she came out it was 3am....then drop off her fren...zzzzz...
The T2 decor is cute..giant bows..though abit plain.
Got 24 hour starbucks, so bought ice choc for sis and had to opt for caramel macc. The discount card price went up hor...$33...up by $3. Not as much savings now orh...
So here I am sipping kopi at 4am in the morning...=O hahahaha...
I seem to be visiting the airport at wee hours now. Week before, picked Sharon up at 0300h at the budget terminal. It's interesting to see the 'dead' terminals..hehe..today T2 was empty and only the lifts worked. Half the people at the T2 starbucks were asleep.
Now waiting to bathe...the peace has ended with mum back..lol...sis took her ice choc from me and scuttled back into the room to hide..hahaha
Happy Feet!
My Right footie has slimmed down! It is very wrinkled, pale, cold and dry now....PERFECT! HAHAHAHA....
Swelling now is minimal except at the pained joints. These joints are still painful coz of the crystals pressing against and restricting movement.
I must be patient with it in my final stages. Last night I was itching to rush it. Arghhhhhh.....
mai gan cheong...
hee...thought to share with you a good photo for a change eh..instead of the bad swelly ones...=D
stupid chinese meds..waste my time..and so much pain and heartache....raaaarrrr....*hissss*...
I had to stop my westen meds for a day..i reached my limit for the time being.
Tuesday 8 December 2009
me back up phone
Getting quite used to my basic phone. =) So far nothing out there has enticed me enough to cough out the cash to pay for a more 'to-date' phone...hehehe...
the few cons of my phone is that I can't increase volume when I'm talking...so no option to hear the otehr party louder, other than to ask them to TALK LOUDER..hahaha...
Also, with the slow processor, smsing can be irritating when i type faster than it reacts..LOL...
the cool thing i like about it is the alarm functon. When it goes off it says in a female voice: It's time to get up, the time is ___!
The snooze can go on for an hour...just that the interval can't be controlled. Sunno why, some days it's 1min, other days it's 5 or 10 mins....weird....
Like it lah...drop it also heart won't pain..hehehe...and when i grip it hard, the plastic begs for mercy as it creaks and strains! it's strangely shiok...
the few cons of my phone is that I can't increase volume when I'm talking...so no option to hear the otehr party louder, other than to ask them to TALK LOUDER..hahaha...
Also, with the slow processor, smsing can be irritating when i type faster than it reacts..LOL...
the cool thing i like about it is the alarm functon. When it goes off it says in a female voice: It's time to get up, the time is ___!
The snooze can go on for an hour...just that the interval can't be controlled. Sunno why, some days it's 1min, other days it's 5 or 10 mins....weird....
Like it lah...drop it also heart won't pain..hehehe...and when i grip it hard, the plastic begs for mercy as it creaks and strains! it's strangely shiok...
Monday 7 December 2009
fly on wall
I pray my foot gets better soon.
Today I missed cousin's wedding dinner. Just as well, has a good excuse not to go..Muahaha...frankly I do wanna go, just to see the drama. Defintely with the mix of attendees I have gathered from my personal intel. I sill be interesting...Muahahha...but after what someone said, it kinda sealed my decision not to go..*evil laughter again*..it is about time the tables are turned!
But I got news about the food...suckling pig...duck...*slurps*...haiz...
I ate shredded plain chicken sandwich for dinner again. Lunch was a hard boiled egg with some white rice. *bleah* ... bland food...eating alot of bread.
I think i miss taste so much I had an intese craving at 3.30am for instant noodles! Its an ok food in my books, coz it's all just carb (noodle)and i drank abit of soup, which i am hoping is not meat stock (should be quite safe lah..it's CQYD sesame oil!)... hahaha...I can't sleep mah...so i slowly made my way down and cooked one for me. But now i feel like puking..=( why lidat...
Guessed as much dad went for the dinner. It's his younger brother's son getting married after all. First time dad has come for a formal dinner with the relatives in the last- God only can remember how many -years. Big sis was musing at home earlier if they would be stupid enough to put dad on the same table with mum. I told my sis, that is not stupidity, that is someone who is a vegetable. (aka no brain). Of course, unless you do not want to have a wedding that day, feel free to put them at the same table..HAHAHAHAHA....
He brought his son. (why does it surprise so many...LOL...think about the implications and intent people!)...haiz...
Bro-in-law came too...for the first time he will meet this side of the family. Am surprised he made an appearance. Drama drama....pity my nephew tho...dad around. I'm sure he can't even relax.
I would've loved to be a fly on the wall..kekeke..i told second sister what drama and where to look out for. Just seeing expressions will be good enough. =)
While the dinner happened, I gobbled my chicken sandwich, watched Die hard 4.0 on TV and did toe exercises with foot massage. =)
OK...suddenly very tired..gotta go sleep. I just took my meds and am proud to say i drank 1.5 L of water today. 0.5L short...but am almost there. =)
God I pray whiel I sleep you'll help me recover...Amen!
Today I missed cousin's wedding dinner. Just as well, has a good excuse not to go..Muahaha...frankly I do wanna go, just to see the drama. Defintely with the mix of attendees I have gathered from my personal intel. I sill be interesting...Muahahha...but after what someone said, it kinda sealed my decision not to go..*evil laughter again*..it is about time the tables are turned!
But I got news about the food...suckling pig...duck...*slurps*...haiz...
I ate shredded plain chicken sandwich for dinner again. Lunch was a hard boiled egg with some white rice. *bleah* ... bland food...eating alot of bread.
I think i miss taste so much I had an intese craving at 3.30am for instant noodles! Its an ok food in my books, coz it's all just carb (noodle)and i drank abit of soup, which i am hoping is not meat stock (should be quite safe lah..it's CQYD sesame oil!)... hahaha...I can't sleep mah...so i slowly made my way down and cooked one for me. But now i feel like puking..=( why lidat...
Guessed as much dad went for the dinner. It's his younger brother's son getting married after all. First time dad has come for a formal dinner with the relatives in the last- God only can remember how many -years. Big sis was musing at home earlier if they would be stupid enough to put dad on the same table with mum. I told my sis, that is not stupidity, that is someone who is a vegetable. (aka no brain). Of course, unless you do not want to have a wedding that day, feel free to put them at the same table..HAHAHAHAHA....
He brought his son. (why does it surprise so many...LOL...think about the implications and intent people!)...haiz...
Bro-in-law came too...for the first time he will meet this side of the family. Am surprised he made an appearance. Drama drama....pity my nephew tho...dad around. I'm sure he can't even relax.
I would've loved to be a fly on the wall..kekeke..i told second sister what drama and where to look out for. Just seeing expressions will be good enough. =)
While the dinner happened, I gobbled my chicken sandwich, watched Die hard 4.0 on TV and did toe exercises with foot massage. =)
OK...suddenly very tired..gotta go sleep. I just took my meds and am proud to say i drank 1.5 L of water today. 0.5L short...but am almost there. =)
God I pray whiel I sleep you'll help me recover...Amen!
Sunday 6 December 2009
Saturday 5 December 2009
Just watched my last dvd i have today. Dante's peak...entertaining to see a volcano explode and everyone running for their lives!!!!
Want to see christmassy things...if only my neighbourhood decor some street stuff. Heh, at least woodstock saved on the Christmas tree and bullied snoopy...LOL...
Today's dinner is chicken mayo sandwich with water. *bleah*
Tomorrow is cousin's wedding. 99% I can't be there. Even if I do go, I can't anything. My sis is offering to switch places with me so that she don't have to show face..haha...I haven't told aunt yet. Guess still hoping for a miracle.
Want to see christmassy things...if only my neighbourhood decor some street stuff. Heh, at least woodstock saved on the Christmas tree and bullied snoopy...LOL...
Today's dinner is chicken mayo sandwich with water. *bleah*
Tomorrow is cousin's wedding. 99% I can't be there. Even if I do go, I can't anything. My sis is offering to switch places with me so that she don't have to show face..haha...I haven't told aunt yet. Guess still hoping for a miracle.
it's so hard to know what is the right thing to do for my sickness. Everyday is like a decision, if I should do this or that. I hope so much that with another hour maybe things will get better.
I hope that whenever I sleep, there will somehow be a miracle and I will wake up so much better.
I was at a crossroads about continuing my TCM meds. because the immediate after effect was that i was alot worse. But mum and sis told me I should go till the end. A few others said too...and only one said I should stop...Frankly, I want to stop too. But I completely lack confidence in any decision anymore. It hasn't done anything to help. Also, wanting to stop was out of fear that it would be worse and i'm poisioning myself.
Majority said i should continue on till I finish all my meds and if it doens't work, at least i can say that i tried. The rational side of me agreed. The emotional side of me is afraid of the effects. This also means I can't take killers.
My foot now feels warm, and it hurts in two places. Behind my heel and under the last toe. I can't bend my toes now. I've put it on my cooling boxers so that it won't feel warmer on the bed. I've put two hot plasters on it. Can't feel a thing. LOL. probably coz my foot is equally hot!
Waiting downstairs these days is tough. There's never a comfortable position. Once I go down, i prefer to stay down for as long as needed. One journey up is enough to declare and regret that I even went down in the first place.
Too bad the dining area has no aircon. But thank god these days the evenings are generally cooler. The dinner table is the central area. I can watch tv and am between the stairs and the kitchen. Sitting there can be miserable though because i have nothing to do, but I have no choice, but to wait there for sis to come back with dinner, then wait for my meds to boil. I tried reading but it's not distracting enough from the pain. I tried flipping through the discount phamplets they send to our home from, Giant, NTUC, Cold storage, the new orchard 313, Harvey Norman, Sony...just to see see the pictures. I have a strange habit of liking to do that. I never realised it till my sis pointed it out. I just kaypo I guess, nice to see the big or miserable discounts they offer.
But today I stopped. The brochures the past week was reminding me too much that I was missing the festive cheer just before christmas, when stores make that extra effort to do some decorations, lights, trees, different themes, ...and for me to scowl that this place stinged on the decor probably coz no $$ this year. Hahaha...and yes, just seeing different places offering X'mas sales. Even though I don't buy anything, it's just the overall atmosphere that everyone is 'in it'...no other time of the year, do you have such a feeling in SG.
So I sat there and tried to watch tv, that my horrible sis had half blocked my view (unintentionally) with her washed clothes and since i was alone at home. I had to make do with listening to the tv convo, and making out the tops of people's heads with the channel 5 logo on the side..hahaha..
No position made my foot feel better except one. Where I lay out my leg on the adjecent chair. But I get a butt pain and soon give up. I just want those dumb meds to boil fast...the hours are tormenting.
Prior to today, I think Red had no clue that I was really injured, even though I limped around. Because last week, without warning she nosed my bad foot roughly in a play mode and I yelled so loud, mum jumped out of her chair.She usually noses my hands and legs in stealth mode from behind when she wants to play with me. But she's a big dog...haiyo...really dunno her strength.
Today Red was cute though. Late into the night, when i was *ahem* waiting for those bloody meds, I was alone at the dining table watching tv. she was tied up for the night in the kitchen. I wanted her company so i disturbed her by calling her name. If she continued lying down, means she lazy. But after two calls she got up, wagged her tail and wanted to come.
Red is very wary of my crutches. She trusts me alittle more when i use them but you can see she's extra tense. But if they are propped at the wall, she walks past them with an eye on them, as though they would punce soon! hahaha...I think it was because last year, she played too near them and they fell and she scrambled away.
I had to use them to move towards her to release her. She was very tense. But stared at my movement. After I let her go, she actually waited for me to move aside before she dashed past me (narrow doorway). Very rare for the mad dog..hahaha...
After i sat back down, she settled next to me after a few pats. I put my bad foot against her body. I know it's madness. But there's a feeling of comfort to something furry and warm. That's when she smelled my plaster intently. I don't know what the smell told her. But she licked my foot lightly a few times, then placed her head lightly over it. Like protection. =)
Later as if to confirm she understood, I had to stand up and put my right knee on the stool, such that my foot stuck out behind me. I was doing something at the table. Instead of her mad nosing ways, she this time, licked my foot gently as she walked past. Thank god, because it really would be so painful!!! ahahahha... =)
Ok, that's alot of rambling. Hope to sleep.
I hope that whenever I sleep, there will somehow be a miracle and I will wake up so much better.
I was at a crossroads about continuing my TCM meds. because the immediate after effect was that i was alot worse. But mum and sis told me I should go till the end. A few others said too...and only one said I should stop...Frankly, I want to stop too. But I completely lack confidence in any decision anymore. It hasn't done anything to help. Also, wanting to stop was out of fear that it would be worse and i'm poisioning myself.
Majority said i should continue on till I finish all my meds and if it doens't work, at least i can say that i tried. The rational side of me agreed. The emotional side of me is afraid of the effects. This also means I can't take killers.
My foot now feels warm, and it hurts in two places. Behind my heel and under the last toe. I can't bend my toes now. I've put it on my cooling boxers so that it won't feel warmer on the bed. I've put two hot plasters on it. Can't feel a thing. LOL. probably coz my foot is equally hot!
Waiting downstairs these days is tough. There's never a comfortable position. Once I go down, i prefer to stay down for as long as needed. One journey up is enough to declare and regret that I even went down in the first place.
Too bad the dining area has no aircon. But thank god these days the evenings are generally cooler. The dinner table is the central area. I can watch tv and am between the stairs and the kitchen. Sitting there can be miserable though because i have nothing to do, but I have no choice, but to wait there for sis to come back with dinner, then wait for my meds to boil. I tried reading but it's not distracting enough from the pain. I tried flipping through the discount phamplets they send to our home from, Giant, NTUC, Cold storage, the new orchard 313, Harvey Norman, Sony...just to see see the pictures. I have a strange habit of liking to do that. I never realised it till my sis pointed it out. I just kaypo I guess, nice to see the big or miserable discounts they offer.
But today I stopped. The brochures the past week was reminding me too much that I was missing the festive cheer just before christmas, when stores make that extra effort to do some decorations, lights, trees, different themes, ...and for me to scowl that this place stinged on the decor probably coz no $$ this year. Hahaha...and yes, just seeing different places offering X'mas sales. Even though I don't buy anything, it's just the overall atmosphere that everyone is 'in it'...no other time of the year, do you have such a feeling in SG.
So I sat there and tried to watch tv, that my horrible sis had half blocked my view (unintentionally) with her washed clothes and since i was alone at home. I had to make do with listening to the tv convo, and making out the tops of people's heads with the channel 5 logo on the side..hahaha..
No position made my foot feel better except one. Where I lay out my leg on the adjecent chair. But I get a butt pain and soon give up. I just want those dumb meds to boil fast...the hours are tormenting.
Prior to today, I think Red had no clue that I was really injured, even though I limped around. Because last week, without warning she nosed my bad foot roughly in a play mode and I yelled so loud, mum jumped out of her chair.She usually noses my hands and legs in stealth mode from behind when she wants to play with me. But she's a big dog...haiyo...really dunno her strength.
Today Red was cute though. Late into the night, when i was *ahem* waiting for those bloody meds, I was alone at the dining table watching tv. she was tied up for the night in the kitchen. I wanted her company so i disturbed her by calling her name. If she continued lying down, means she lazy. But after two calls she got up, wagged her tail and wanted to come.
Red is very wary of my crutches. She trusts me alittle more when i use them but you can see she's extra tense. But if they are propped at the wall, she walks past them with an eye on them, as though they would punce soon! hahaha...I think it was because last year, she played too near them and they fell and she scrambled away.
I had to use them to move towards her to release her. She was very tense. But stared at my movement. After I let her go, she actually waited for me to move aside before she dashed past me (narrow doorway). Very rare for the mad dog..hahaha...
After i sat back down, she settled next to me after a few pats. I put my bad foot against her body. I know it's madness. But there's a feeling of comfort to something furry and warm. That's when she smelled my plaster intently. I don't know what the smell told her. But she licked my foot lightly a few times, then placed her head lightly over it. Like protection. =)
Later as if to confirm she understood, I had to stand up and put my right knee on the stool, such that my foot stuck out behind me. I was doing something at the table. Instead of her mad nosing ways, she this time, licked my foot gently as she walked past. Thank god, because it really would be so painful!!! ahahahha... =)
Ok, that's alot of rambling. Hope to sleep.
Wednesday 2 December 2009
Do you know Hachiko?
I noticed on a youtube trailer that richard gere is starring in a 2009 re-make of the true story of Hachiko. I'm slightly appalled that they americanised it. But for the States I guess, it always relates more when it's done that way. What's more important to me is that it's a good thing, since Hachiko will be introduced to a new generation, and beyond the shores of Japan.
The first movie of Hachiko I know of was made in 1987. It was all Japanese but I remember the then channel 12 (which showed foreign films, sports and documentaries) aired the show several years later one night, and it had english subtitles. =)
I only heard of Hachiko from my dad before that night. All he told me was that he was a faithful dog, and so, Iako was named after him. =)
It was a simple movie, not much dialogue. But it was so sad. I cried non-stop. Especially to see that a dog shed tears.
I even just saw a video of the 1987 movie on youtube..and i still cry.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3s11acb7Z8
Hachiko is a true story about a dog that was raised by a Professor who taught in a university. The dog loved his master so, that even when the professor walked to the train station to take the train to the University to teach every morning. The dog would follow, and they would say goodbye at the ticket barrier.
Faithfully, the dog waited at the station. Right at the barrier just staring at the commuters, waiting to see the face of his returning master. Soon, he knew the tiem of the day, such that he would head to the station at the right time, to await the arrival of the train.
One day, his master died of a heart attack while teaching and never returned. He could not accept the funeral rites that took place at his home, and ran to the station to wait.
And he waited and waited. Regualar commuters were familiar with him and fed him as they understood his story. The station master tried explainign to the dog that his master was never returning. He was even re-homed. But he broke free of the chains.
For several years, Hachiko waited. Returning to the station in hopes to see his master. He lay there in the rain and in the snow waiting for hours. Eyes fixed on the ticket barrier. Every night he slept at the station.
Eventually, he was reunited with his master, the happiest moment he had been waiting for at the station. He died. 8 March 1935
='(
Hachiko's faitfulnes to his master's memory impressed many and was an example of family loyalty and his vigil was taught to kids as an example to follow.
Even before his death, in 1934, they erected a bronze statue of him in rememberance right at the train station. It is the Shibuya Station, which you can still see today (though it was remade due to the war)
The first movie of Hachiko I know of was made in 1987. It was all Japanese but I remember the then channel 12 (which showed foreign films, sports and documentaries) aired the show several years later one night, and it had english subtitles. =)
I only heard of Hachiko from my dad before that night. All he told me was that he was a faithful dog, and so, Iako was named after him. =)
It was a simple movie, not much dialogue. But it was so sad. I cried non-stop. Especially to see that a dog shed tears.
I even just saw a video of the 1987 movie on youtube..and i still cry.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3s11acb7Z8
Hachiko is a true story about a dog that was raised by a Professor who taught in a university. The dog loved his master so, that even when the professor walked to the train station to take the train to the University to teach every morning. The dog would follow, and they would say goodbye at the ticket barrier.
Faithfully, the dog waited at the station. Right at the barrier just staring at the commuters, waiting to see the face of his returning master. Soon, he knew the tiem of the day, such that he would head to the station at the right time, to await the arrival of the train.
One day, his master died of a heart attack while teaching and never returned. He could not accept the funeral rites that took place at his home, and ran to the station to wait.
And he waited and waited. Regualar commuters were familiar with him and fed him as they understood his story. The station master tried explainign to the dog that his master was never returning. He was even re-homed. But he broke free of the chains.
For several years, Hachiko waited. Returning to the station in hopes to see his master. He lay there in the rain and in the snow waiting for hours. Eyes fixed on the ticket barrier. Every night he slept at the station.
Eventually, he was reunited with his master, the happiest moment he had been waiting for at the station. He died. 8 March 1935
='(
Hachiko's faitfulnes to his master's memory impressed many and was an example of family loyalty and his vigil was taught to kids as an example to follow.
Even before his death, in 1934, they erected a bronze statue of him in rememberance right at the train station. It is the Shibuya Station, which you can still see today (though it was remade due to the war)
TCM
Waiting to bathe! Let mum bathe first so that she can sleep earlier and she won't bang my door every 2 mins and ask if i'm done..hahha...
Today i made my first trip to a TCM clinic. I've been to those sinsehs who did stuff for my sprains before. But this is my first for an ailment. Generally i wouldn't go. if it weren't for some facts like consistent track record from the same source with real first hand friends. And of course, most importantly a friend i had lost touch with for 2 years took the effort to arrange it all and even accompanied me today. Hahaha...I've always known him to be a sincere and generous person, ever since he came to know God. =) Really his life was transformed and i'm so happy for him.
Anyway, back to the visit. I talked a mix of english and chinese. And thank god my friend helped with some translation here and there.
The doc told me alot of things I had already known. What I can't eat, that should lose weight and the HBP. But he especially interrogated me on why i believe I had gout..hahaha...maybe he scared i those kind self diagnose. Which is very valid. so i told him I've been tested before. So with the assurance I got checked out blood wise by a western doc...he moved on...
He didn't even poke da foot or ask me to take off my sandals for a look. he however kept pointing at my toe when i told him it's the ankle..LOL...but i think he was trying to tell me that it usually happens at the toe. which is true.
he told me it's not a simple disease. (tell me something new...) he said there are two possibilities (1) is the diet...(which we all know)....and (2) that my body aint' flushing it out fast enough or unable to do so..
dotdotdot
haiz...anyway..at least he knew what he was talking about and not drumming up some mumbo jumbo...you know like saying soemthing completely unrelated.
I think he also could see that I knew my stuff...from the casual way I replied. I guess usually people will be asking deep deep questions if they are unclear. Hehehe
Another thing he equally stressed like the western doc was --> NEED TO DRINK MORE WATER. and he said it looking straight at me. hahaha...i nodded and gave my casual mmm...and he added TWO LITRES per day.. with a I MEAN IT expression..hahaha
So that was it. 3mins. $15.
Meds $20.40.
i was expecting he'd help with some accupuncture..=( oh well, maybe it was not neccessary and he would save me some $$ eh..ahaha
Meds...traumatic...so traumatic i wonder if i can do this another 6 times this week. =S
I havent' cried while drinking something in a long long time...at least 20 years. Coz i remember some horrific green drink my mum gave me when i was 10. But i swear to you. It wasn't as bad as this.
Boss was doing evil laighter when he heard i got the brew kinda herbs. He said...it is bad...really bad...and it sounded like he was remembering his own experince as he made funny mouth noises in the background. Yeeeks...
Never would i have thought somethign could be that bitter. LOL.
I think Boonie will die if she ever drank that..hahaha...last i noted. her tolerance is chicken essence and it's 'never again'...HAHAHA...
time to bathe!
Footie been starting to ache for the past 3 hours..=( God please help..
Today i made my first trip to a TCM clinic. I've been to those sinsehs who did stuff for my sprains before. But this is my first for an ailment. Generally i wouldn't go. if it weren't for some facts like consistent track record from the same source with real first hand friends. And of course, most importantly a friend i had lost touch with for 2 years took the effort to arrange it all and even accompanied me today. Hahaha...I've always known him to be a sincere and generous person, ever since he came to know God. =) Really his life was transformed and i'm so happy for him.
Anyway, back to the visit. I talked a mix of english and chinese. And thank god my friend helped with some translation here and there.
The doc told me alot of things I had already known. What I can't eat, that should lose weight and the HBP. But he especially interrogated me on why i believe I had gout..hahaha...maybe he scared i those kind self diagnose. Which is very valid. so i told him I've been tested before. So with the assurance I got checked out blood wise by a western doc...he moved on...
He didn't even poke da foot or ask me to take off my sandals for a look. he however kept pointing at my toe when i told him it's the ankle..LOL...but i think he was trying to tell me that it usually happens at the toe. which is true.
he told me it's not a simple disease. (tell me something new...) he said there are two possibilities (1) is the diet...(which we all know)....and (2) that my body aint' flushing it out fast enough or unable to do so..
dotdotdot
haiz...anyway..at least he knew what he was talking about and not drumming up some mumbo jumbo...you know like saying soemthing completely unrelated.
I think he also could see that I knew my stuff...from the casual way I replied. I guess usually people will be asking deep deep questions if they are unclear. Hehehe
Another thing he equally stressed like the western doc was --> NEED TO DRINK MORE WATER. and he said it looking straight at me. hahaha...i nodded and gave my casual mmm...and he added TWO LITRES per day.. with a I MEAN IT expression..hahaha
So that was it. 3mins. $15.
Meds $20.40.
i was expecting he'd help with some accupuncture..=( oh well, maybe it was not neccessary and he would save me some $$ eh..ahaha
Meds...traumatic...so traumatic i wonder if i can do this another 6 times this week. =S
I havent' cried while drinking something in a long long time...at least 20 years. Coz i remember some horrific green drink my mum gave me when i was 10. But i swear to you. It wasn't as bad as this.
Boss was doing evil laighter when he heard i got the brew kinda herbs. He said...it is bad...really bad...and it sounded like he was remembering his own experince as he made funny mouth noises in the background. Yeeeks...
Never would i have thought somethign could be that bitter. LOL.
I think Boonie will die if she ever drank that..hahaha...last i noted. her tolerance is chicken essence and it's 'never again'...HAHAHA...
time to bathe!
Footie been starting to ache for the past 3 hours..=( God please help..
Monday 30 November 2009
back to work
Just came back from work. Had dinner, washed up, threw the garbage, tweaked my dog's nose and here I am again.
Feels like a first day all over again...and time really flew by. We're receiving good news here and there. Really glad for them especially for a time such as this. =)
Was quite mellow this morning. I had to put up some blockers so that I wouldn't be too stressed. Else my foot would ache. Self preservation. Hehehe...
Am good and am happy. Thank god for today. Just need a new foot. =P
Feels like a first day all over again...and time really flew by. We're receiving good news here and there. Really glad for them especially for a time such as this. =)
Was quite mellow this morning. I had to put up some blockers so that I wouldn't be too stressed. Else my foot would ache. Self preservation. Hehehe...
Am good and am happy. Thank god for today. Just need a new foot. =P
Thursday 26 November 2009
canine chronical
This is cute. It is completely handmade. With leather exteriort and newsprint fabric lining. I thought of getting it for my sister for her work. She has this work bag from levi's that makes me ???? over...hahaha...and i think it's not worth the price kinda thing. But it will do lah. At least she happily bought it. Hmmm...
Hahaha...I think my sis can get away with this one at work. It's exteriorly 'work' looking and still let's her get away with her non-conformist and picky ways..haha..
And she can have fun when she flips inside. And it is really a unique lining! =)
Exp though...even after discount..=) what counts is too bad the strap connector to the bag looks really poorly handmade (looks like will stretch and rip) and won't last long or carry heavy stuff.
So yeah...nice to see..heh...if it was cheaper I would buy it for her. =) Bday+Xmas eh?
Shhh...happy beeday girl...=)
The title of this post has no link to it's contents...hahaha..but its short and simple...and the best way it is desired to be..heh.. =)
I'm actually feeling tired. But am trying a new plaster on my foot and it's burning. So I thought to just stay up and share. Well, what more than the footie update eh? hahaha...
A friend over msn gave me this =S look when i siad that one part is shrinking and the other half is not. Hahaha..i do agree that it is strangely quite hard to imagine. Hence i'm providing this special graphic updates.(that seriously -- takes up time!)
The above pic was just taken 10 mins ago!
The red arrow is the part that has shrunk and showign the wrinkles. See it goes in more and is a little more bony.(hard to see in the pic). The yellow arrow shows the puff going down too.. you can see the big line just below the toes (showing itself for the first time since my foot puffed). Finally the blue arrows is the OTHER half of teh footie that is still puffy.
This pic above was taken yesterday evening. I'm trying to show the depth of the swell. See i can poke my skin...and my finger sinks in and pushes the swollen skin out. that was near the bottom of my toes, so you can see the improvement versus the first pic i took today.
As i promised i'd try to take more interesting things during my confinement too. So i captured our in-house Queen aka cloudy during her bath in the toilet!
Don't I get any privacy?!
Clean eyes!
Towel dry by the owner! =)
I'm actually feeling tired. But am trying a new plaster on my foot and it's burning. So I thought to just stay up and share. Well, what more than the footie update eh? hahaha...
A friend over msn gave me this =S look when i siad that one part is shrinking and the other half is not. Hahaha..i do agree that it is strangely quite hard to imagine. Hence i'm providing this special graphic updates.(that seriously -- takes up time!)
The above pic was just taken 10 mins ago!
The red arrow is the part that has shrunk and showign the wrinkles. See it goes in more and is a little more bony.(hard to see in the pic). The yellow arrow shows the puff going down too.. you can see the big line just below the toes (showing itself for the first time since my foot puffed). Finally the blue arrows is the OTHER half of teh footie that is still puffy.
This pic above was taken yesterday evening. I'm trying to show the depth of the swell. See i can poke my skin...and my finger sinks in and pushes the swollen skin out. that was near the bottom of my toes, so you can see the improvement versus the first pic i took today.
As i promised i'd try to take more interesting things during my confinement too. So i captured our in-house Queen aka cloudy during her bath in the toilet!
Don't I get any privacy?!
Clean eyes!
Towel dry by the owner! =)
Wednesday 25 November 2009
Do you remember?
Today I mused about the in technology that came and went in quite fast as it was just a trend. But imagine the investment some had placed into it.
In my generation during the Secondary to JC period, before the dawn of VCDs came...the Laser Disc...
My god, i still remember how big and cumbersome it was but it was so much cooler than VHS video tapes becasue you can pause and rewind in an instant..and of course so much thinner.
Every affluent family wanted to get a LD player. It was so expensive. But think of the Karaoke that came with it? And LD rental shops sprung up in neighbourhoods.
I still remember even though it's so huge. (it's flat out as large as your laptop), one side is only able to play 30mins of video and you had to flip it over. For longer movies you had multiple discs.
As quickly as it came...somehow, it disappeared. I don't even remember how quickly really..LOL. But it all just vanished. Feels that way right?
for my family, we just stopped using the LD player lor..strange huh. we never owned a single LD. But borrowed from my uncle and grandparents who had loads.
The prices of LD players never dropped. Unlike these days you can get a DVD player at less than $90. LD players still held the higher prices of $400 and above.
Just like blu-ray disc players now...and rememebr how much a DVD player cost last time!!
It feels odd just looking back at such things...die...old liao..hahahhaha...=)
In my generation during the Secondary to JC period, before the dawn of VCDs came...the Laser Disc...
My god, i still remember how big and cumbersome it was but it was so much cooler than VHS video tapes becasue you can pause and rewind in an instant..and of course so much thinner.
Every affluent family wanted to get a LD player. It was so expensive. But think of the Karaoke that came with it? And LD rental shops sprung up in neighbourhoods.
I still remember even though it's so huge. (it's flat out as large as your laptop), one side is only able to play 30mins of video and you had to flip it over. For longer movies you had multiple discs.
As quickly as it came...somehow, it disappeared. I don't even remember how quickly really..LOL. But it all just vanished. Feels that way right?
for my family, we just stopped using the LD player lor..strange huh. we never owned a single LD. But borrowed from my uncle and grandparents who had loads.
The prices of LD players never dropped. Unlike these days you can get a DVD player at less than $90. LD players still held the higher prices of $400 and above.
Just like blu-ray disc players now...and rememebr how much a DVD player cost last time!!
It feels odd just looking back at such things...die...old liao..hahahhaha...=)
Sunday 22 November 2009
Two things at this hour...
1) Barley is good for gout
2) OMG!!! I haven't followed Bones for so long...they wrote Zach Addy outta the main cast at the end of season 3!?! (with not much finise as the producers may have liked due to the writers' strike due, because there was not enough episodes to build a longer story..).....wah.....a real shocker the story though...
2) OMG!!! I haven't followed Bones for so long...they wrote Zach Addy outta the main cast at the end of season 3!?! (with not much finise as the producers may have liked due to the writers' strike due, because there was not enough episodes to build a longer story..).....wah.....a real shocker the story though...
Saturday 21 November 2009
good morning!
Really Thank God for a good investment in my home lappie years back, plus the internet. Else I think I'd have gone mad these past 3 days. I woke at 6am this morning, after having slept at 10pm...for ironically, boredom and tiredness.
I'm sadly still in a worse state and have only left my room 5 times the past two days to shower, pee and poo...hahaha...my dog must be wondering if i'm still alive, coz i haven't seen her...she must be very miserable, I hear she's tied up 24/7 by my sis now and I can't do anything to help her till she learns her lesson.
I move between my bed to watch and do stuff and then to my room chair, where I sit up to eat and to prop my feet on my bed to use my lappie (Just like what i'm doing now). So far I've succumbed to temptation and started devouring the latest season of criminal minds online that is posted weekly as it's shown in the US. so I'm at episode 6 of 8...then it'd be a drought. =(
In between, I found a site that loaded up all 5 seasons of Bones. Even thugh it's live streaming, its abit slow on the upload, so i leave the window on in the background, and wait till it's about 20mins into the show before i jump to the front again (so that the rest will load as I watch). Finished 2nd half of season 2 and am 4 episodes into season 3.
I try to move around in my room the best I can, just to give my bed some 'airing' time...Sis says there's a smell in my room..thanks hor..very helpful. How do i get the chance to air my room!?!
strangely with such brainless activity, I'm very tired every 3 hours, but force myself to stay up till an ok time to sleep. Otherwise, I'd experince my topsy turvy sleep times that took me 3 days to get back on track.
I need lego to play with...hahaha...no space at home though. I should making tons of stuff now, but really no mood. All I wanna do is get out of here.How ironic. when got more time, no mood. Think it's coz need to keep shifting postions. You just want it to go away.
I probably feel 2% of what prisoners feel in the confinement aspect..hahaha...
In the morning, baboon asked me what I was going to do that day. -__- ...
Ah then...
haiz..then my blooie is sitting out there with no one to bring it out to play...$30 per day. At least I save on fuel.
Anyway, moving on to happier things, I just changed my blog header and I taught Snoopy some singlish..hehehe..I liked this coz he looked so comfy and at peace.
Oh and sis finally bought her blackberry, brand new one from her office lor..a.t least she manage to get a 10% discount off hte phone..so $880 is not too bad for her lah, though people are selling 2 week old ones at $650 online..LOL..
New feet updates! I live my sheep and farm animal bedsheet.hahaha
I know I know...it's the only thing I'm taking with my cam these days..hahaha..nothing else to take mah...Hmm...maybe next round, I'd take a pic of my room eh..but it's an epic mess...think the movie 2012 in one bedroom..hahaha..it's gotten worse since i need everything within reach in the room. Will add..next post eh..
Pray i'll get better really really really soooooonnnn....
I'm sadly still in a worse state and have only left my room 5 times the past two days to shower, pee and poo...hahaha...my dog must be wondering if i'm still alive, coz i haven't seen her...she must be very miserable, I hear she's tied up 24/7 by my sis now and I can't do anything to help her till she learns her lesson.
I move between my bed to watch and do stuff and then to my room chair, where I sit up to eat and to prop my feet on my bed to use my lappie (Just like what i'm doing now). So far I've succumbed to temptation and started devouring the latest season of criminal minds online that is posted weekly as it's shown in the US. so I'm at episode 6 of 8...then it'd be a drought. =(
In between, I found a site that loaded up all 5 seasons of Bones. Even thugh it's live streaming, its abit slow on the upload, so i leave the window on in the background, and wait till it's about 20mins into the show before i jump to the front again (so that the rest will load as I watch). Finished 2nd half of season 2 and am 4 episodes into season 3.
I try to move around in my room the best I can, just to give my bed some 'airing' time...Sis says there's a smell in my room..thanks hor..very helpful. How do i get the chance to air my room!?!
strangely with such brainless activity, I'm very tired every 3 hours, but force myself to stay up till an ok time to sleep. Otherwise, I'd experince my topsy turvy sleep times that took me 3 days to get back on track.
I need lego to play with...hahaha...no space at home though. I should making tons of stuff now, but really no mood. All I wanna do is get out of here.How ironic. when got more time, no mood. Think it's coz need to keep shifting postions. You just want it to go away.
I probably feel 2% of what prisoners feel in the confinement aspect..hahaha...
In the morning, baboon asked me what I was going to do that day. -__- ...
Ah then...
haiz..then my blooie is sitting out there with no one to bring it out to play...$30 per day. At least I save on fuel.
Anyway, moving on to happier things, I just changed my blog header and I taught Snoopy some singlish..hehehe..I liked this coz he looked so comfy and at peace.
Oh and sis finally bought her blackberry, brand new one from her office lor..a.t least she manage to get a 10% discount off hte phone..so $880 is not too bad for her lah, though people are selling 2 week old ones at $650 online..LOL..
New feet updates! I live my sheep and farm animal bedsheet.hahaha
I know I know...it's the only thing I'm taking with my cam these days..hahaha..nothing else to take mah...Hmm...maybe next round, I'd take a pic of my room eh..but it's an epic mess...think the movie 2012 in one bedroom..hahaha..it's gotten worse since i need everything within reach in the room. Will add..next post eh..
Pray i'll get better really really really soooooonnnn....
Tuesday 17 November 2009
scared...
It felt like i slept for hours...i intended to sleep till morning coz i was so tired. but it turns out, to only be several hours. =( ...i also woke from a nightmare and in my last scene I was crying...crying very hard with gasping breath and feeling my heart hurt. That's when I reaslised that i was feeling and doing the same thing in real life, less the tears.
Scary....really scary...it's a very old nightmare...it feels like a movie and you're in it..the ending was bad becasue I was very close to a friend and she was murdered in the last scenes. Another friend I loved dearly hated me for her death. And so...I mourned and cried alone, but in the middle of a crowd who were all shocked by her death...then at the corner of the large hall, stands someone who is grinning at my pain with the most fiendish smile...he was not the murderer...but someone kinda like possessed by the devil...he was there...mocking me that there was nothing i could do...
Even as I'm awake now..my heart has a sinking feeling...am scared...=(
This dream feels quite familiar...even as i dreamt it earlier, I felt i had gone through this before. dejavu. I had even gone through the murder... Only there was a difference...I mourned and cried alone and the new feeling that there was really nothing I could do...
=( feels horrible...why lidat...how come have this kind of dream now...feels too real...
Scary....really scary...it's a very old nightmare...it feels like a movie and you're in it..the ending was bad becasue I was very close to a friend and she was murdered in the last scenes. Another friend I loved dearly hated me for her death. And so...I mourned and cried alone, but in the middle of a crowd who were all shocked by her death...then at the corner of the large hall, stands someone who is grinning at my pain with the most fiendish smile...he was not the murderer...but someone kinda like possessed by the devil...he was there...mocking me that there was nothing i could do...
Even as I'm awake now..my heart has a sinking feeling...am scared...=(
This dream feels quite familiar...even as i dreamt it earlier, I felt i had gone through this before. dejavu. I had even gone through the murder... Only there was a difference...I mourned and cried alone and the new feeling that there was really nothing I could do...
=( feels horrible...why lidat...how come have this kind of dream now...feels too real...
Thursday 12 November 2009
Wednesday 11 November 2009
*ahem*...lesson time!
Some have been asking me about my footie problem and what it's all about. I read up online about it quite regularly, especially more when i'm trying to understand more about it so that i feel that 'at least what i'm going through is the norm', it's kinda like a sharing session for me.
Hee...so for the benefit of some..here's an intro of it that I pulled out from a gout website. (with extra silly commentray from me!
-- A kind of arthritis that “flares” periodically—so the pain of gout is experienced as an attack.
-- Attacks usually appear with no warning and leave sufferers in severe pain. In fact, gout is one of the most painful medical conditions. It's been compared with childbirth and bone fractures.
-- Usually last from 3 to 10 days and can cause knife-like pain, tenderness, redness, heat, and swelling in an affected joint.
-- The underlying cause is an excess of a waste product in your blood called uric acid. Many people have excess uric acid—and most of them do not get gout.
-- Painful gout attacks result from inflammation caused by deposits of needle-like crystals in connective tissue and/or in the fluid that cushions the joint. The crystals are made up of uric acid, a waste product produced during the natural breakdown of purines. Purines are part of all our body's cells as well as many foods we eat.
-- Uric acid is carried through the bloodstream to the kidneys. Your kidneys eliminate it from the body mostly through urine. However, if the body produces too much uric acid or if the kidneys don't eliminate enough of it, uric acid will build up in the blood.
-- No one can predict exactly when an attack might occur for someone with hyperuricemia. It may be triggered by something you eat or drink, or it may be triggered by certain medicines, the presence of an illness, stressful events, or some other factor. Many times it may be difficult to say what triggered a specific attack.
Gout Friendly Foods ---
Additional low-purine choices include carbonated beverages, (YAY!!! Can drink more Coca Cola...MUAHAHHA)...coffee, cereals, chocolate, (SLURPS!!) fruits, breads, grains, pasta, rice, olives, cheese, eggs, milk products, sugar, tomatoes, and some types of green vegetables.
-- Gout can progress, eventually causing damage to joints, nerve compression disorder, tissue damage, potentially leading to disability. Problems with kidney function may occur as well due to the over strained kidney.
Hee...so for the benefit of some..here's an intro of it that I pulled out from a gout website. (with extra silly commentray from me!
-- A kind of arthritis that “flares” periodically—so the pain of gout is experienced as an attack.
-- Attacks usually appear with no warning and leave sufferers in severe pain. In fact, gout is one of the most painful medical conditions. It's been compared with childbirth and bone fractures.
-- Usually last from 3 to 10 days and can cause knife-like pain, tenderness, redness, heat, and swelling in an affected joint.
-- The underlying cause is an excess of a waste product in your blood called uric acid. Many people have excess uric acid—and most of them do not get gout.
-- Painful gout attacks result from inflammation caused by deposits of needle-like crystals in connective tissue and/or in the fluid that cushions the joint. The crystals are made up of uric acid, a waste product produced during the natural breakdown of purines. Purines are part of all our body's cells as well as many foods we eat.
-- Uric acid is carried through the bloodstream to the kidneys. Your kidneys eliminate it from the body mostly through urine. However, if the body produces too much uric acid or if the kidneys don't eliminate enough of it, uric acid will build up in the blood.
-- No one can predict exactly when an attack might occur for someone with hyperuricemia. It may be triggered by something you eat or drink, or it may be triggered by certain medicines, the presence of an illness, stressful events, or some other factor. Many times it may be difficult to say what triggered a specific attack.
Gout Friendly Foods ---
Additional low-purine choices include carbonated beverages, (YAY!!! Can drink more Coca Cola...MUAHAHHA)...coffee, cereals, chocolate, (SLURPS!!) fruits, breads, grains, pasta, rice, olives, cheese, eggs, milk products, sugar, tomatoes, and some types of green vegetables.
-- Gout can progress, eventually causing damage to joints, nerve compression disorder, tissue damage, potentially leading to disability. Problems with kidney function may occur as well due to the over strained kidney.
Tuesday 10 November 2009
D+6
It's been 7 days since my footie blues returned to haunt me. And I haven't stepped beyond my front gates since, except one time to meet ge to pass her some work stuff.
My sis said when i'm awake i'm like a monster....thundering and snorting as i move from place to place. Hahaha...it's actually quite true.
I'm just amazed how the body is able to sleep so much, or be in such a dazed state.
At about 6am, I wake up very hungry (this is another strange thing...)..I go loo, stagger downstairs to hug my dog, get food, eat meds and read the old papers for a while, before I fall asleep at the living room table. Someone wakes me up around lunch time...loo again..ranging from 1 to 2pm...and before long, i'm asleep again...sheesh...hahaha...
On the weekend, my sis resorted to putting post it notes on my bedside so that i will see them when I wake in between.
I'm most awake from 8 to 10pm, Just before my post dinner meds kick in and i'm zzzing in and out... Mum has nagged me several times for falling asleep in front of the comp...
If it weren't for online news, I'd have no clue what is happening in the world. =O
Mum says just as well, i don't move much, but she's amazed how hungry I am for the amount of time i'm asleep...LOL
In the day, the meds keep me drowsy enough that i dont' need the killers. But it doesn't work at night...
after midnite is a bad time...bad bad...it's like there's a clock in da footie that days it's night and time to party. =( so it's more pain than usual...and i squirm in bed a whole lot...just trying to find a comfy position...coz everyone is alseep, I go online and try to watch some vids or play some games, or write horrific blog posts on foot removal..hahaha..snack... just to distract myself...this works out till about 5am where either (a) I succumb to take the killers or (b) I zonk!
Stupid foot. *humph*
So here I am...negotiating a comfortable postion with my foot..by god i actually talk to my foot now! hahaha...
Today's post can go up...coz it's not so gruesome..hahaha... am very hyper now and feel mad..
Oooo...I just remembered...i took a photo of my feet yest! =)
The solo shot makes it look like a blob...hahaha
When I take with them side by side, the angle doesn't really show the puffiness...but if you look closely, u can see, my right ankle area is bloaty...and the top of my right foot is 'rounder'..such that my toes 'shrink in'...
My sis said when i'm awake i'm like a monster....thundering and snorting as i move from place to place. Hahaha...it's actually quite true.
I'm just amazed how the body is able to sleep so much, or be in such a dazed state.
At about 6am, I wake up very hungry (this is another strange thing...)..I go loo, stagger downstairs to hug my dog, get food, eat meds and read the old papers for a while, before I fall asleep at the living room table. Someone wakes me up around lunch time...loo again..ranging from 1 to 2pm...and before long, i'm asleep again...sheesh...hahaha...
On the weekend, my sis resorted to putting post it notes on my bedside so that i will see them when I wake in between.
I'm most awake from 8 to 10pm, Just before my post dinner meds kick in and i'm zzzing in and out... Mum has nagged me several times for falling asleep in front of the comp...
If it weren't for online news, I'd have no clue what is happening in the world. =O
Mum says just as well, i don't move much, but she's amazed how hungry I am for the amount of time i'm asleep...LOL
In the day, the meds keep me drowsy enough that i dont' need the killers. But it doesn't work at night...
after midnite is a bad time...bad bad...it's like there's a clock in da footie that days it's night and time to party. =( so it's more pain than usual...and i squirm in bed a whole lot...just trying to find a comfy position...coz everyone is alseep, I go online and try to watch some vids or play some games, or write horrific blog posts on foot removal..hahaha..snack... just to distract myself...this works out till about 5am where either (a) I succumb to take the killers or (b) I zonk!
Stupid foot. *humph*
So here I am...negotiating a comfortable postion with my foot..by god i actually talk to my foot now! hahaha...
Today's post can go up...coz it's not so gruesome..hahaha... am very hyper now and feel mad..
Oooo...I just remembered...i took a photo of my feet yest! =)
The solo shot makes it look like a blob...hahaha
When I take with them side by side, the angle doesn't really show the puffiness...but if you look closely, u can see, my right ankle area is bloaty...and the top of my right foot is 'rounder'..such that my toes 'shrink in'...
Friday 6 November 2009
Foot blues
Hello! Ok ok ...it's old news, many of you already know that my footie has acted up again since tuesday morning! So I'm just here to note it down on my blog so that i will have a record of when it last happened big time...haiz...as usual, i have no clue what's the actual cause of it...
But..I highly suspect it's this ginger drink my mum gave me the day before. very spicy! it's also supposed to be good for my gout.
In any case, I haven't been working the past few days because the meds are so strong...sometimes i dun even wanna wake up to eat. Until of course..my stomach gives a "that's final" signal to my brain..hahaha...then I'm zzzing again. I never reaslied that a person could zzz so much actually. And I know i'm not resting well.
I have called my bed my island, and i'm marooned on it..hahaha..=P
Anyway, am feeling alrite. Even though i know the mountain of work that awaits.=) But boss knows my condition well and doesn't want to stress me too much.
Can't wait to walk again. =)
This morning was so funny...i was high tide see...morning mah..need to go pee..but i woke too late..and i really needed to go...so i sprange up, bit my lips and made a dash for it! Ooooowwww...
I barely missed the loo bowl lor...kekeke...
Hmm...now looking at it ..it's puffy again..too bad no camera now, else can show you. =)
Okie, gotta go, can't remain in one position too long, it's as though blood coagulates there man! byes!
But..I highly suspect it's this ginger drink my mum gave me the day before. very spicy! it's also supposed to be good for my gout.
In any case, I haven't been working the past few days because the meds are so strong...sometimes i dun even wanna wake up to eat. Until of course..my stomach gives a "that's final" signal to my brain..hahaha...then I'm zzzing again. I never reaslied that a person could zzz so much actually. And I know i'm not resting well.
I have called my bed my island, and i'm marooned on it..hahaha..=P
Anyway, am feeling alrite. Even though i know the mountain of work that awaits.=) But boss knows my condition well and doesn't want to stress me too much.
Can't wait to walk again. =)
This morning was so funny...i was high tide see...morning mah..need to go pee..but i woke too late..and i really needed to go...so i sprange up, bit my lips and made a dash for it! Ooooowwww...
I barely missed the loo bowl lor...kekeke...
Hmm...now looking at it ..it's puffy again..too bad no camera now, else can show you. =)
Okie, gotta go, can't remain in one position too long, it's as though blood coagulates there man! byes!
Thursday 29 October 2009
Angel
I was writing a post on monday night. I was reluctant to start it at first. But I went ahead because it would help me just think through stuff...I gave up after a while...and let it go. It went not much anywhere ....So I've left it unposted in my list.
It's pointless talking about other areas. So I'll just talk about one, since it takes up the bulk of our day.
I've not been reacting well at work. But I just have to push on, no matter how I feel about it.
It's not a disastrous thing that has happened. In perspective it's a really good thing. And we all know that no one likes change and we all dislike having to adapt to new things. That I recognise. It didn't happen overnight either and we've been somewhat prepared for it the last 8 months and more so in the last month.
So why in this way? I couldn't for the life of me understand why...old tendencies came up. (Horrible thoughts that would piss others off if they heard it, and I so pissed myself off for hearing myself say it.) And somehow I can't hold on hard enough positive things to push on (partially because of other areas) ...but it became hard again.
It was quite a familiar feeling...but there was something else attached that only dragged me. It pretty much feels like the previous time when my org was changing, big events came up...and we all had to evolve and push on....
Before i go on, I shall say...I will survive and I will persevere. Whatever my end product may be... God knows that we're so busy fighting other demons, that really, I can't see ahead. It is not an excuse, but I have recognised it as a struggle He will slowly work on with me. I hope.
So having been a complete ass (in my dictionary) at work. I was in the lift on the way to an afternoon meeting when it hit me...sometimes, i can't believe i can forget these things. I mean....it would save me a whole lot of pain and heartache if I can recall them fast.. So that I can manage.
But I take it that God is good to allow it to be so forgotten, for He says in His word that we should not dwell on bad things, but set our hearts on the good stuff, speak praiseworthy stuff. Perhaps that's why that even though it may be a bad thing i've realised before, i've somehow managed to forget it!...ahhaha...
So yes...in the lift, I remembered one fact of my life - Long suffering.
OK OK...I hear protests..change is inevitable, everyone hates going through it, so does that mean that we're all longsuffering??!!? hahahaha...=)
I'm not going into self pity here...no, I'm just sharing. =)
To understand how long suffering has to dow ith my work situation I need to share the story...
So this is the story:
As far as I can remember, which is my primary school days, I've always struggled to learn and pick things up. All I recall for primary school was that even when I attended extra revision lessons and there was a quick quiz thereafter, I'd have a very average mark, that left my teacher frowning, becasue she knew I was paying attention.
For secondary school, my memory is clearer, as those were the live or die years. No tuition, no remedial classes. Just your own study time, discipline and time management. I was doing the same workload as my classmates, but I was an all-rounded flunker. Intially, I thought I was just not putting in enough effort. So I put in more hours on extra work. So there birthed my late nights of studying. I tried to do extra assignments, even if it meant that I'd stay up till 3am. (which also coincidentally birthed my love for radio, which was my only late night companion.)
Even with that, I passed my O's on average vs my schoolmates. Perhaps at this point my mum noticed this....but I was oblivious...till I went to JC...and it hit me..well, more like slapped matter of factly in my face, by my principal.
My year one mid terms was a disaster. And that meant a meeting with the P. The carnage following meetings with the P. was very re-knowned and real....and it struck fear and resentment in hearts. But it could lead to spur on sheer determination to prove them all wrong.
I was assesed to be doing what I needed to do to be a good student. but just couldn't give the results. Seems my subject tutors had good things to say about my efforts. I swore I studied and that i put in the time for homework....but but...
That's when I learned that you can't compare yourself to your peers. Others can put in an hour to study one chapter. I'd have to put in 3 hours for the same. Sorry about that. But no worries, you're not the only one in the school. There are others too...so if your friend can go to sleep after revising 2 hours. You can't afford to do the same.
JC was a time I stepped out of my academic shelter and really saw the differences in all my schoolmates, simply becasue my JC meant we came from all walks. And I really had compassion for those that struggled harder than and had it worse off than me. If i had it tough. What about them?
So yes, with that understanding. I pushed, not with a "but i study as hard as them what" attitude. But that I needed to put in the energy and time more than ever....I was not alone in school, like I said...there were those worse off..but we did our best. Some of them didn't make it to Uni....
Sigh..if JC was bad..uni must have been worse right?...yeah..didn't help I picked Engineering. which means. 5 1/2 day weeks, full day in school, with 8 subjects and projects per semester. At least i didn't look on at my classmates and not understand why I couldn't pick it up as fast. Some of my hall mates felt sorry for me...coz i was doing tutorials till 4am...(after hostel activites till 10pm? hahaha...)...and waking up at 8am for the 8.30am lesson....engineering is hell k..it was madness to do it....that is why NTU engineers (from my hearings) are more hardy than the *ahem* other Uni ones and more sought after...hahaha...
I remembered crying after finishing just ONE bloody tutorial question after 4 hours (please note, it was 4am and my entore hostel leve was zzzzing...) and I had 3 questions more to go...of course I asked the better ones for help. Like this one that did the same tutorial in 45-freakin'- minutes....he'd explain the question and answer to me...but it'd take me 2 hours to digest and rationalise out why it was done that way. (the proper way to study mah...)
I had to extend my uni studies and lost my honurs because of this...and my FYP broke my heart too...Thank God I knew God by then...who came by in my 2nd year of uni (and technically subject wise I was still stuck in 1st year....raaarr...)...and told me how much He understood...and He was there...all the way...for everything...He didn't offer me a solution...there was none...except that He loved me. (It was not long after, that the revelation of longsuffering seemed to be the revelation to me from my leaders.)
And like before, there were those that were worse off than me even in Uni...we all pushed hard together...and yes...I did finish before some...
I really understand how it feels and well...not that i'm all crazy about it...but it helped me talk to some younger kids that couldnt' understand why their peers were able to pick up so fast, but they were willing to try....so I encouraged them when they had to put in those insane extra hours that were not needed by others. When I see them online at wee hours of the morning..I know just what they are doing. -- and I don't tell them to go and sleep, or 'dun be so hardworking lah'...but I tell them to pace themselves, take a break and drink more water...to pray for strength...
=)
Woah...that's a long story man...sorry got carried away. But i'm glad I managed to get it all down, (pausing to cry at times...ahahaha)...but yes..
So here we are...back at work...and it adds up...
Hahaha...it just dawned on me that I may have been once seen as stupid and slow all these years...which is so frustrating..but no...I must never ever go there....
In the lift this afternoon...I realised that's what I'm tired about...
Of course, I don't expect myself to pick up my new role so fast...but, I will take longer to process and to pick up...so I need to work harder at it...block out the idiotic voice in my head...fight...day by day...God i promise I will...no way am I going to pity myself...there are those who are worse off ...remember my blessings...
...it intensifies when I can't feel God near...but doesn't mean he ain't there...
Am sure I'll reach there ..well, somewhere there...(like how I scrapped through my education)...just have to push harder ...work more at it...more hours...
I wonder if there will ever be something that I can pick up so fast and be so so good at it...hahaha..sigh...ok ok...not helpful...bad memories....
Haiz...it's 3.20am now...I even take a long time to type out a post..goodness...
I love radio...even now...it's accompanying me...=)
How apt...the radio just started playing Angel by Sarah McLachlan....now you know what I mean by God understands..He knows...
Go rest girl, enough for today....=)
It's pointless talking about other areas. So I'll just talk about one, since it takes up the bulk of our day.
I've not been reacting well at work. But I just have to push on, no matter how I feel about it.
It's not a disastrous thing that has happened. In perspective it's a really good thing. And we all know that no one likes change and we all dislike having to adapt to new things. That I recognise. It didn't happen overnight either and we've been somewhat prepared for it the last 8 months and more so in the last month.
So why in this way? I couldn't for the life of me understand why...old tendencies came up. (Horrible thoughts that would piss others off if they heard it, and I so pissed myself off for hearing myself say it.) And somehow I can't hold on hard enough positive things to push on (partially because of other areas) ...but it became hard again.
It was quite a familiar feeling...but there was something else attached that only dragged me. It pretty much feels like the previous time when my org was changing, big events came up...and we all had to evolve and push on....
Before i go on, I shall say...I will survive and I will persevere. Whatever my end product may be... God knows that we're so busy fighting other demons, that really, I can't see ahead. It is not an excuse, but I have recognised it as a struggle He will slowly work on with me. I hope.
So having been a complete ass (in my dictionary) at work. I was in the lift on the way to an afternoon meeting when it hit me...sometimes, i can't believe i can forget these things. I mean....it would save me a whole lot of pain and heartache if I can recall them fast.. So that I can manage.
But I take it that God is good to allow it to be so forgotten, for He says in His word that we should not dwell on bad things, but set our hearts on the good stuff, speak praiseworthy stuff. Perhaps that's why that even though it may be a bad thing i've realised before, i've somehow managed to forget it!...ahhaha...
So yes...in the lift, I remembered one fact of my life - Long suffering.
OK OK...I hear protests..change is inevitable, everyone hates going through it, so does that mean that we're all longsuffering??!!? hahahaha...=)
I'm not going into self pity here...no, I'm just sharing. =)
To understand how long suffering has to dow ith my work situation I need to share the story...
So this is the story:
As far as I can remember, which is my primary school days, I've always struggled to learn and pick things up. All I recall for primary school was that even when I attended extra revision lessons and there was a quick quiz thereafter, I'd have a very average mark, that left my teacher frowning, becasue she knew I was paying attention.
For secondary school, my memory is clearer, as those were the live or die years. No tuition, no remedial classes. Just your own study time, discipline and time management. I was doing the same workload as my classmates, but I was an all-rounded flunker. Intially, I thought I was just not putting in enough effort. So I put in more hours on extra work. So there birthed my late nights of studying. I tried to do extra assignments, even if it meant that I'd stay up till 3am. (which also coincidentally birthed my love for radio, which was my only late night companion.)
Even with that, I passed my O's on average vs my schoolmates. Perhaps at this point my mum noticed this....but I was oblivious...till I went to JC...and it hit me..well, more like slapped matter of factly in my face, by my principal.
My year one mid terms was a disaster. And that meant a meeting with the P. The carnage following meetings with the P. was very re-knowned and real....and it struck fear and resentment in hearts. But it could lead to spur on sheer determination to prove them all wrong.
I was assesed to be doing what I needed to do to be a good student. but just couldn't give the results. Seems my subject tutors had good things to say about my efforts. I swore I studied and that i put in the time for homework....but but...
That's when I learned that you can't compare yourself to your peers. Others can put in an hour to study one chapter. I'd have to put in 3 hours for the same. Sorry about that. But no worries, you're not the only one in the school. There are others too...so if your friend can go to sleep after revising 2 hours. You can't afford to do the same.
JC was a time I stepped out of my academic shelter and really saw the differences in all my schoolmates, simply becasue my JC meant we came from all walks. And I really had compassion for those that struggled harder than and had it worse off than me. If i had it tough. What about them?
So yes, with that understanding. I pushed, not with a "but i study as hard as them what" attitude. But that I needed to put in the energy and time more than ever....I was not alone in school, like I said...there were those worse off..but we did our best. Some of them didn't make it to Uni....
Sigh..if JC was bad..uni must have been worse right?...yeah..didn't help I picked Engineering. which means. 5 1/2 day weeks, full day in school, with 8 subjects and projects per semester. At least i didn't look on at my classmates and not understand why I couldn't pick it up as fast. Some of my hall mates felt sorry for me...coz i was doing tutorials till 4am...(after hostel activites till 10pm? hahaha...)...and waking up at 8am for the 8.30am lesson....engineering is hell k..it was madness to do it....that is why NTU engineers (from my hearings) are more hardy than the *ahem* other Uni ones and more sought after...hahaha...
I remembered crying after finishing just ONE bloody tutorial question after 4 hours (please note, it was 4am and my entore hostel leve was zzzzing...) and I had 3 questions more to go...of course I asked the better ones for help. Like this one that did the same tutorial in 45-freakin'- minutes....he'd explain the question and answer to me...but it'd take me 2 hours to digest and rationalise out why it was done that way. (the proper way to study mah...)
I had to extend my uni studies and lost my honurs because of this...and my FYP broke my heart too...Thank God I knew God by then...who came by in my 2nd year of uni (and technically subject wise I was still stuck in 1st year....raaarr...)...and told me how much He understood...and He was there...all the way...for everything...He didn't offer me a solution...there was none...except that He loved me. (It was not long after, that the revelation of longsuffering seemed to be the revelation to me from my leaders.)
And like before, there were those that were worse off than me even in Uni...we all pushed hard together...and yes...I did finish before some...
I really understand how it feels and well...not that i'm all crazy about it...but it helped me talk to some younger kids that couldnt' understand why their peers were able to pick up so fast, but they were willing to try....so I encouraged them when they had to put in those insane extra hours that were not needed by others. When I see them online at wee hours of the morning..I know just what they are doing. -- and I don't tell them to go and sleep, or 'dun be so hardworking lah'...but I tell them to pace themselves, take a break and drink more water...to pray for strength...
=)
Woah...that's a long story man...sorry got carried away. But i'm glad I managed to get it all down, (pausing to cry at times...ahahaha)...but yes..
So here we are...back at work...and it adds up...
Hahaha...it just dawned on me that I may have been once seen as stupid and slow all these years...which is so frustrating..but no...I must never ever go there....
In the lift this afternoon...I realised that's what I'm tired about...
Of course, I don't expect myself to pick up my new role so fast...but, I will take longer to process and to pick up...so I need to work harder at it...block out the idiotic voice in my head...fight...day by day...God i promise I will...no way am I going to pity myself...there are those who are worse off ...remember my blessings...
...it intensifies when I can't feel God near...but doesn't mean he ain't there...
Am sure I'll reach there ..well, somewhere there...(like how I scrapped through my education)...just have to push harder ...work more at it...more hours...
I wonder if there will ever be something that I can pick up so fast and be so so good at it...hahaha..sigh...ok ok...not helpful...bad memories....
Haiz...it's 3.20am now...I even take a long time to type out a post..goodness...
I love radio...even now...it's accompanying me...=)
How apt...the radio just started playing Angel by Sarah McLachlan....now you know what I mean by God understands..He knows...
Go rest girl, enough for today....=)
Wednesday 28 October 2009
My footie...
Really can't take high impact stuff. So i learned from my Friday night badminton. I was fine straight after...but two hours later, i was squeaking... (considering i only played for 10-15minutes lor)
Then saturday morning I was creaking! Hahahaha...But all is well. Am back to slight squeaks, but that's norm. =)
Saturday, after several hours back in the office, I made it just in time to watch Julie and Julia at Kallang. It seemed like the only decent show at a decent time. hee...also, kallang after 10pm = free parking outdoor + don't need to book seat online even on a weekend. (a little like balestier), but with free parking..muahahaha...
I'm gald to say that filmgarde has improved their popcorn..especially sweet flavour..they msut ahve realised they are losing patrons due to the poor state of food!
It's a nice show. based on the book by Julie Powell. It's on two true stories. So yes..it's a drama, but had it's very good and funny moments. so much so, that i burst out laughing in 'my way' lah hor....hehehe...and still sniggered long after the scene changed. 2 hours long...
Ironically, one of the stories is about a girl who has hit her 30th birthday...and she's crowded out and belittledby her successful friends. =)
But overall, the kind of show that you feel was worth the moolah.
Oh...ya...talking about movies, the previous weekend, i watched Imagine That with the CG at Illuma, bugis.
1) The movie by eddie murphy was good, funny and very heartwarming. makes you want to have a dad. I think it must have been a show made for fathers' day in the states. The story line was suprisingly unique, though of course, the ending had to be a predictable feel good one...but the plot..was a nice touch.
2) Illuma -- for the new building that it is ...it is a COMPLETE disgrace...my god..i've never seen a buiding that wastes so much space, dark, dinghy...and very very dirty. For a new building, the paint was chipping off the doors to the toilet. The passageways were stale...the toilet was half lit. and had loo roll all over the floor...wet...and dirty...yucks!
The lift was dimly lit. with handprints and smears inside the lift...yeeew...gross man...grosss...
i felt as though I was in some old god forsaken shopping building..
And the colours they picked..=S...what were they thinking!
Never again!
Then saturday morning I was creaking! Hahahaha...But all is well. Am back to slight squeaks, but that's norm. =)
Saturday, after several hours back in the office, I made it just in time to watch Julie and Julia at Kallang. It seemed like the only decent show at a decent time. hee...also, kallang after 10pm = free parking outdoor + don't need to book seat online even on a weekend. (a little like balestier), but with free parking..muahahaha...
I'm gald to say that filmgarde has improved their popcorn..especially sweet flavour..they msut ahve realised they are losing patrons due to the poor state of food!
It's a nice show. based on the book by Julie Powell. It's on two true stories. So yes..it's a drama, but had it's very good and funny moments. so much so, that i burst out laughing in 'my way' lah hor....hehehe...and still sniggered long after the scene changed. 2 hours long...
Ironically, one of the stories is about a girl who has hit her 30th birthday...and she's crowded out and belittledby her successful friends. =)
But overall, the kind of show that you feel was worth the moolah.
Oh...ya...talking about movies, the previous weekend, i watched Imagine That with the CG at Illuma, bugis.
1) The movie by eddie murphy was good, funny and very heartwarming. makes you want to have a dad. I think it must have been a show made for fathers' day in the states. The story line was suprisingly unique, though of course, the ending had to be a predictable feel good one...but the plot..was a nice touch.
2) Illuma -- for the new building that it is ...it is a COMPLETE disgrace...my god..i've never seen a buiding that wastes so much space, dark, dinghy...and very very dirty. For a new building, the paint was chipping off the doors to the toilet. The passageways were stale...the toilet was half lit. and had loo roll all over the floor...wet...and dirty...yucks!
The lift was dimly lit. with handprints and smears inside the lift...yeeew...gross man...grosss...
i felt as though I was in some old god forsaken shopping building..
And the colours they picked..=S...what were they thinking!
Never again!
Saturday 24 October 2009
Just had a good laugh
Watching some videos on Kumar. Yes, Singapore's Kumar. I really think he's very funny.
And he's a very positive guy that beat many odds. I later watched 3 videos where he shared about his life from young, through NS and how he go to where he is today, called 'Truth or Dare'
Really good words of advise to all who struggle with self esteem. =)
Was reading this article online which is an ABC news interview. Which speaks positively about him too. =) http://abcnews.go.com/International/story?id=4263016&page=1
And he's a very positive guy that beat many odds. I later watched 3 videos where he shared about his life from young, through NS and how he go to where he is today, called 'Truth or Dare'
Really good words of advise to all who struggle with self esteem. =)
Was reading this article online which is an ABC news interview. Which speaks positively about him too. =) http://abcnews.go.com/International/story?id=4263016&page=1
Sunday 18 October 2009
Trekking...footie torture up the Henderson Waves!
On a whim I decided to torment my feet today with a trek up to the Henderson Waves. First time I've been there...=)
In a way, Yuna and i were conned...we were told it's a stroll...
It's a walk UP to Mount Faber lor...goodness...
Thank God we went late afternoon at about 5pm.
Following photos are not in order...too nuah to bother..LOL...will try to comment where I can!
Camera on the floor on timer..heh...
Riding da waves!..insane action shots...
I got a big butt...but I found a way to hang on...so that can pose....lidat --->
Right arm pain now man...hahaha
Yuna (left) and Anna (right)...posing for the goofy shots as usual...
Yuna and I agree that Anna is mad (at the vivo starbucks) -- after the trek and vivo jalan...
Shots before we started on the trekking...
We took the Marang Trail...And yes...very dark at night..no joke..my cheapo camera with flashlight came in handy...
(L to R) Nika, Anna, Yi Zhuang, Yuna
Yuna --> attempting to do a 180 on the waves...
That's all folks!
In a way, Yuna and i were conned...we were told it's a stroll...
It's a walk UP to Mount Faber lor...goodness...
Thank God we went late afternoon at about 5pm.
Following photos are not in order...too nuah to bother..LOL...will try to comment where I can!
Camera on the floor on timer..heh...
Riding da waves!..insane action shots...
I got a big butt...but I found a way to hang on...so that can pose....lidat --->
Right arm pain now man...hahaha
Yuna (left) and Anna (right)...posing for the goofy shots as usual...
Yuna and I agree that Anna is mad (at the vivo starbucks) -- after the trek and vivo jalan...
Shots before we started on the trekking...
We took the Marang Trail...And yes...very dark at night..no joke..my cheapo camera with flashlight came in handy...
(L to R) Nika, Anna, Yi Zhuang, Yuna
Yuna --> attempting to do a 180 on the waves...That's all folks!
Wednesday 14 October 2009
Hand made...in every way...
Why Every Way?
(One piece of plain A4 white paper)
+
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(Heart)
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(One box of 12 colour markers)
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(One box of 12 colour markers)
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Nice right...it's so colourful and cheery...I like da words, so arty in a happy way-- it just makes me =) big big ...... + the vintage looking border..LOL...Ge did this lor...even though she slept at 5am and woke at 7.45am, with a full day of meetings...she bought the materials from bras basah this evening.
She was sqwaking to me as we walked over from bugis about how horrible she is at making cards...LOL..plus she 'pia' and did it tonight! Heh...and she's still writing the card now...
Schweet right...=)
It's one thing to be good at something and putting in effort to do it...but it's another thing to not be good --*ahem - so she sayz*-- at something and having to fight zzzz to do it! =D
This one is boss' card I posted about in my last entry...Cute tooz hor! We added his classic phrases he says to us like -- "You IDIOT, get out!" and " Slap you ahhhhh"
Tuesday 13 October 2009
Can finally post this up!
I wrote this last Thursday night and was just about to post it up...till i remembered there's this teeny weeeny chance that boss knows our blogs! So...to be..*ahem* safe...i delay putting up till today...heh...coz there's a surprise for him that ge and me made...=P
It was a pretty nice day. Boss and ge were in a good mood. And well for me, since i brought home my 'homework' last night to do, I only needed to finalise some things. Surprisingly, this round boss decided not to do the heavier stuff. (No wonder so quiet the whole week + today.)...else...hmmm...today mood won't be sho good bah...hahaha...
Lunch time, i went with ge to Tampines 1 and back to the japanese gourmet town and other than the Omurice, we decided to try out this new stall tht sells dishes that i don't exactly understand what goes in and how it's cooked! hahaha...it's just touted to be a traditional 'food' since 1946 or something.
It's called Osko, and it's nice...in a burnt sort of way. Took 15mins to cook! Thank God I shared it with ge. One big plate of that...it gets too nauseating after awhile and you don't want to eat it anymore. =S but hor...come to think of it...it's like white carrot cake especially the burnt edges...slurp!
Next at Times, we picked out a cheery card for boss. No occassion, just that we've never really did something random just to appreciate him. And we're supposed to do it since...the start of June! Well, initially we thought to give him a makan treat. But with him being so busy and all with the new cafe, ge suggested a card. =)
Dropping off ge's library books, we found out that the library system was able to sms her to remind her to pick up hear reserved book, even though she never left behind her mobile number...*twilight zone music*
HAHAHA....I was more amused than freaked. =P
The afternoon MC was pretty good. The usual impatient atmosphere for some items. I think boss had ge sit in. Aiyah...we should've ganged up with the MC to traumatise her...AHAHAHA...
But the nicest part of the day was at the end, when we raided office stationery to deco boss' card. hee...it was fun...the final product looked like something two 10 year olds put together..hahaha...
But am really proud of it, coz it's a true joint effort! =D
We thought of just plopping it infront of him and dash off for our friday afternoon meeting, so that he'd read it before he left for overseas on Saturday. But ge had a better idea that we leave it with my colleague to pass to him on the flight...so that it became a 'plane letter'. hahahaha...
Last time, I never knew there was actually a name for such letters! till i gave one to ge..
Man..I jsut googled plane letter..and there are people asking how to write a plane letter to their girlfriend. What sweet/ nice things to say...etc etc...alamak..how sincere is that man....goodness...just write from your heart lah!
Hahahaha...i just read an even better response to 'plane letter'..Someone asked "How do plane letters work??"......read this link and their replies...it's hilarious how many have interpretted it to be!
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20060724080155AAdUliu
This one person wrote: "Hummm... well plane letters usually can be found on planes... they can be fancy letters or plain letters... but both types are plane letters if they are on planes."
?!??!??!!??!!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!
Yes -- that was the exact number of ? and ! over my head when i read that...
The person who wrote about her handwriting was da best man! LOL!...
It was a pretty nice day. Boss and ge were in a good mood. And well for me, since i brought home my 'homework' last night to do, I only needed to finalise some things. Surprisingly, this round boss decided not to do the heavier stuff. (No wonder so quiet the whole week + today.)...else...hmmm...today mood won't be sho good bah...hahaha...
Lunch time, i went with ge to Tampines 1 and back to the japanese gourmet town and other than the Omurice, we decided to try out this new stall tht sells dishes that i don't exactly understand what goes in and how it's cooked! hahaha...it's just touted to be a traditional 'food' since 1946 or something.
It's called Osko, and it's nice...in a burnt sort of way. Took 15mins to cook! Thank God I shared it with ge. One big plate of that...it gets too nauseating after awhile and you don't want to eat it anymore. =S but hor...come to think of it...it's like white carrot cake especially the burnt edges...slurp!
Next at Times, we picked out a cheery card for boss. No occassion, just that we've never really did something random just to appreciate him. And we're supposed to do it since...the start of June! Well, initially we thought to give him a makan treat. But with him being so busy and all with the new cafe, ge suggested a card. =)
Dropping off ge's library books, we found out that the library system was able to sms her to remind her to pick up hear reserved book, even though she never left behind her mobile number...*twilight zone music*
HAHAHA....I was more amused than freaked. =P
The afternoon MC was pretty good. The usual impatient atmosphere for some items. I think boss had ge sit in. Aiyah...we should've ganged up with the MC to traumatise her...AHAHAHA...
But the nicest part of the day was at the end, when we raided office stationery to deco boss' card. hee...it was fun...the final product looked like something two 10 year olds put together..hahaha...
But am really proud of it, coz it's a true joint effort! =D
We thought of just plopping it infront of him and dash off for our friday afternoon meeting, so that he'd read it before he left for overseas on Saturday. But ge had a better idea that we leave it with my colleague to pass to him on the flight...so that it became a 'plane letter'. hahahaha...
Last time, I never knew there was actually a name for such letters! till i gave one to ge..
Man..I jsut googled plane letter..and there are people asking how to write a plane letter to their girlfriend. What sweet/ nice things to say...etc etc...alamak..how sincere is that man....goodness...just write from your heart lah!
Hahahaha...i just read an even better response to 'plane letter'..Someone asked "How do plane letters work??"......read this link and their replies...it's hilarious how many have interpretted it to be!
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20060724080155AAdUliu
This one person wrote: "Hummm... well plane letters usually can be found on planes... they can be fancy letters or plain letters... but both types are plane letters if they are on planes."
?!??!??!!??!!?!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!
Yes -- that was the exact number of ? and ! over my head when i read that...
The person who wrote about her handwriting was da best man! LOL!...
Sunday 11 October 2009
I found...
Picture of Red that i took at the vet's when she was sick the last time...her behavior here got me worried...coz she was so 'te' in a strange environment. I had just stood there talking to the vet...and she settled tat my shoes and squished herself there..pushing hard, with her eyes closed tight, on my shoes!I had to ask the vet if this was normal..hahaha...I couldn't bear to move after that looked more calm and peaceful.
I think she was just feeling urgh...and wanted attention..=)
Monday 5 October 2009
Saturday 3 October 2009
Mum's back!
My system has gotten so used to mum not being around, that when she came back on Thursday night, all my blockers had forgotten to brace themselves proper. =S
It could be worse for my sis...Bwahahaha...coz i hear her locking her room door several times when we hear mum clomping up the stairs. Suffocation in the room..LOL
then again....mum's got a bit of jet lag now...so...she's doing the vampire thing...eliminating the peaceful refuge i have after 1am. Hahaha...
Ah well, just takes getting used to bah.
Anyway, I had a new dream yesterday that was pretty cool. I was accidentally involved in some protest of sorts. What I remember was that it was as though I lived back at my old uni hostel. Initially we weren't involved. We were outside another building, a group of us. And there were these threats to charge into the building by the tenants. Talking to one of the tenants he explained that the place was going to be 'taken over' (dunno by how or what) and they wanted to charge back in to protest and make their stand on what is theirs.
We were not involved. Until, the person (you will learn he is a bozo later) said that our hostel was a part of the larger land involved in this whole saga (our hostel was not far from this building being interlinked with several other similar buildings). Being passionate about our area too, we charged into this building...ready to take our stand against this takeover. Once in, soon after, someone yelled that the police were here. Some ran, some held their ground.
We held our ground. Then the bozo said that he had made a mistake and our hostel was not involved at all. IDIOT.
But once in the building of contention. The police would see that anyone present is 'on the protesters' side and would arrest all.
Crap...so what began straight after was a cool military like operation. By my group to traverse and plot our way back to the hostel through the maze of buildings, with the police closing in on us.
Once back at our familiar hostel, due to our absense, a take over of sorts had begun too. It was like a scene from those movies, where you had to blend in and act as one of the enemies....and when the time was right, we would re-group and plan our escape.
Carefully hiding the essential items that would aid our survival during the escape, in various nooks and corners within the building we were more familiar with than the intruders.
Closer to D-day, it got more tense, as everything had to be in place. What was insufficient had to be boostered up.
It's funny, but i was hiding this whole tray of about 60 to 80 chicken pies, behind my room wall!
It was accessible by a hole, where I covered it with a single oven, with only one chicken pie (which was the 'allowable' number), innocently being stored/ cooked in the over. Praying hard at each inspection that they will find nothing suspicious, during inspections.
After all, if they smelled the pies (they would think its from the single one mah!) -- jeanius! =P
Closer to the time, the team checked on each others progress and reminded the hours/ minutes left to the rendevous time. My commander came in at +30mins and gawked at me emptying those large oblong shaped - khong guan like biscuit tins and refilling them with my chicken pies.
I explained to him that if we're going to hit water, in on of the tunnels with unpredictable tide levels this would keep the pies dry and unsquashed. The tins would also float, and we would not lose our food to error....LOL!!! He didn't argue and told me to 'carry-on' reminding me about the ruck sacks I was supposed to 'steal' from the supply shop for the rest of the team too.
At +23mins, I was scrounging and checking the quality of the rucksacks in the supply room, I needed at least 25. A last minute need at 3hours 20mins and somehow, I was in charge of getting them.
Suddenly one of my team mates appeared! He knew I'd be there at that time for this task, as it was the immediate moment the supply room was closed and I'd be able to sneak in.
Thinking that he was there to help, I told him I was already on number 23 and would have no problem getting back to my room with the necessary and still rendevous.
But he was there to ask a favour. You see when we had returned to our hostel, his room had been taken over by one of the enemy. His stuff cleared of the unnecessary and what was of course nice was kept by the baddie.
Anyway, he needed to take something he had stashed in a secret compartment in his room. It was dear to him. Some photos of his family, sentimental trinkets and impt documents that could help the team later on, if there were complications. He thought he could do without them. But as D-day drew closer, he couldn't get it out of his mind...haiz...
He needed a look-out for this. As he knew the enemy would be out of his room to take a shower anytime soon. So yeah, of course I helped him...hahaha...and we suceeded. With such dreams...of course the dramatic would happen where the baddie came back fromt eh shower early but my friend managed to slip out unnoticed, just in the nick of time.
Hmmmmmm....well, i think I woke up to go to the toilet jsut about the time of the rendevous and the start of the escape!!! Wahahahaha...it was only 11am! And i thought with such exciting dreams, it would mean i had slept for ages.
While dumping in the loo, I did consider whether to go back to sleep just to continue the exciting adventure! HAHAHA....
Fun right...=P
It could be worse for my sis...Bwahahaha...coz i hear her locking her room door several times when we hear mum clomping up the stairs. Suffocation in the room..LOL
then again....mum's got a bit of jet lag now...so...she's doing the vampire thing...eliminating the peaceful refuge i have after 1am. Hahaha...
Ah well, just takes getting used to bah.
Anyway, I had a new dream yesterday that was pretty cool. I was accidentally involved in some protest of sorts. What I remember was that it was as though I lived back at my old uni hostel. Initially we weren't involved. We were outside another building, a group of us. And there were these threats to charge into the building by the tenants. Talking to one of the tenants he explained that the place was going to be 'taken over' (dunno by how or what) and they wanted to charge back in to protest and make their stand on what is theirs.
We were not involved. Until, the person (you will learn he is a bozo later) said that our hostel was a part of the larger land involved in this whole saga (our hostel was not far from this building being interlinked with several other similar buildings). Being passionate about our area too, we charged into this building...ready to take our stand against this takeover. Once in, soon after, someone yelled that the police were here. Some ran, some held their ground.
We held our ground. Then the bozo said that he had made a mistake and our hostel was not involved at all. IDIOT.
But once in the building of contention. The police would see that anyone present is 'on the protesters' side and would arrest all.
Crap...so what began straight after was a cool military like operation. By my group to traverse and plot our way back to the hostel through the maze of buildings, with the police closing in on us.
Once back at our familiar hostel, due to our absense, a take over of sorts had begun too. It was like a scene from those movies, where you had to blend in and act as one of the enemies....and when the time was right, we would re-group and plan our escape.
Carefully hiding the essential items that would aid our survival during the escape, in various nooks and corners within the building we were more familiar with than the intruders.
Closer to D-day, it got more tense, as everything had to be in place. What was insufficient had to be boostered up.
It's funny, but i was hiding this whole tray of about 60 to 80 chicken pies, behind my room wall!
It was accessible by a hole, where I covered it with a single oven, with only one chicken pie (which was the 'allowable' number), innocently being stored/ cooked in the over. Praying hard at each inspection that they will find nothing suspicious, during inspections.
After all, if they smelled the pies (they would think its from the single one mah!) -- jeanius! =P
Closer to the time, the team checked on each others progress and reminded the hours/ minutes left to the rendevous time. My commander came in at +30mins and gawked at me emptying those large oblong shaped - khong guan like biscuit tins and refilling them with my chicken pies.
I explained to him that if we're going to hit water, in on of the tunnels with unpredictable tide levels this would keep the pies dry and unsquashed. The tins would also float, and we would not lose our food to error....LOL!!! He didn't argue and told me to 'carry-on' reminding me about the ruck sacks I was supposed to 'steal' from the supply shop for the rest of the team too.
At +23mins, I was scrounging and checking the quality of the rucksacks in the supply room, I needed at least 25. A last minute need at 3hours 20mins and somehow, I was in charge of getting them.
Suddenly one of my team mates appeared! He knew I'd be there at that time for this task, as it was the immediate moment the supply room was closed and I'd be able to sneak in.
Thinking that he was there to help, I told him I was already on number 23 and would have no problem getting back to my room with the necessary and still rendevous.
But he was there to ask a favour. You see when we had returned to our hostel, his room had been taken over by one of the enemy. His stuff cleared of the unnecessary and what was of course nice was kept by the baddie.
Anyway, he needed to take something he had stashed in a secret compartment in his room. It was dear to him. Some photos of his family, sentimental trinkets and impt documents that could help the team later on, if there were complications. He thought he could do without them. But as D-day drew closer, he couldn't get it out of his mind...haiz...
He needed a look-out for this. As he knew the enemy would be out of his room to take a shower anytime soon. So yeah, of course I helped him...hahaha...and we suceeded. With such dreams...of course the dramatic would happen where the baddie came back fromt eh shower early but my friend managed to slip out unnoticed, just in the nick of time.
Hmmmmmm....well, i think I woke up to go to the toilet jsut about the time of the rendevous and the start of the escape!!! Wahahahaha...it was only 11am! And i thought with such exciting dreams, it would mean i had slept for ages.
While dumping in the loo, I did consider whether to go back to sleep just to continue the exciting adventure! HAHAHA....
Fun right...=P
Thursday 1 October 2009
25 million euros ...per season...
WAH...highest record for a ferrari driver it seems...
maybe I should write to him and ask him if he could sponsor some tickets at one of the classy suites, when he next comes around SG...hmmm...
OR...5 suite tickets for the Aussie grand prix next year...heh...then ge can go Melby again and we have enough tickets to bring her sisters and bro-in-law along..=P
That would be nice...=)
I just read off the renault F1 fansite on their comments on his departure. They are all wishing him well or screaming "Come back!" hahaha...but they all want him to win in ferrari and beat schumacher's record..Bwahaha...
His love relationship with renault...even in tough times at Mclaren, renualtF1 took him in. And the fans know that when he left for Maclaren in 2006, he said: " No matter where I am, for which team I drive. Renault will always be my home ". Maybe that's why they took him back in...=) But they too know his potential and committed him only to a two year contract.
maybe I should write to him and ask him if he could sponsor some tickets at one of the classy suites, when he next comes around SG...hmmm...
OR...5 suite tickets for the Aussie grand prix next year...heh...then ge can go Melby again and we have enough tickets to bring her sisters and bro-in-law along..=P
That would be nice...=)
I just read off the renault F1 fansite on their comments on his departure. They are all wishing him well or screaming "Come back!" hahaha...but they all want him to win in ferrari and beat schumacher's record..Bwahaha...
His love relationship with renault...even in tough times at Mclaren, renualtF1 took him in. And the fans know that when he left for Maclaren in 2006, he said: " No matter where I am, for which team I drive. Renault will always be my home ". Maybe that's why they took him back in...=) But they too know his potential and committed him only to a two year contract.
Sunday 27 September 2009
Saturday 26 September 2009
From the F1 website -- my fav photos from Friday
Both Ferarris rounding Turn 14....It's the Supreme Court! =D
I've found the green band around the tyres so obiang, but one look and you know they are the soft tyres used. You think FA means Fernando Alonso? Hahahaha....
So hazy...I read they say the track very dusty...see lah...the haze also affect the night shots...I hope it clears up...the shots will be so spectacular!
Singapore on the kerb at Turn 2....Cooooollll!!!!
Thier photographers just take the best action shots lah...The buzz in the Ferrari pit.
I've found the green band around the tyres so obiang, but one look and you know they are the soft tyres used. You think FA means Fernando Alonso? Hahahaha....
So hazy...I read they say the track very dusty...see lah...the haze also affect the night shots...I hope it clears up...the shots will be so spectacular!
Singapore on the kerb at Turn 2....Cooooollll!!!!
Thier photographers just take the best action shots lah...The buzz in the Ferrari pit.
I just watched...
...the entire first Rocky movie on youtube. I'm glad someone loaded it up. It was just a sudden inspiration because I heard the theme song while watching some F1 training videos. =) And I recall the memories this movie brings....
And I know what a driver that song is for alot of people i know to this day. Hah...and i know even boss has it on his list of songs, whenever he needs a booster...=)
It's the tune of the song that makes you believe you can overcome the odds...and the few lyrics it has, doens't paint a pretty picture. It doesn't shield you from the reality of the pain, in fact reminds you of it. But there's this essence of belief that you're reaching there! =)
Rocky was definitely not a show during my time. In fact i wasn't even born yet! LOL...it was realeased in 1976...it was such a surprising hit. Because the story was so simple and quickly filmed with in 28 days....yet...to this day, it's a part of history.
I was introduced to the movie by ...yep...it was none other than my dad. Whom I know loved the show alot. Forcing my sisters to endure it in their young age...by the time they grew up, and he had succesffully "influenced" them,...he only had me left to work on. LOL...not that it was hard for me to be influenced anyway...hahaha
All i remembered from my impression of the first time I watched the show was that --- how can a person eat RAW EGG....6 of them somemore!!! EEEeeeeewwwWWWW!!! I still recall papa tryign to explain to me why exactly Rocky had to do that. But at the tender age of 9...you seriously CATCH NO BALL...hahaha
The second time I watched it, it was with papa too...he'd never miss a re-run of it on TV. =) This time, I'll never forget the scenes of Rocky struggling with his first morning run -- the pain on his face....and then after hard and long training he finally conquered those damned steps...it was so emotional, you'd just want to celebrate with him! =)
After that for a whole week, papa had to contain me as I went around and punched all the pillows/ bolsters and cushions in the house...and being so young, papa would let me spar with him...hehe....using his hand open wide as targets. Heh....even my poor dog then had to tolerate me dancing around him while punching the air like a near target...=)
In my late teens, I understood why it was such a loved movie. It celebrated the underdog. And the girl he got was no drop dead looker or some attractive personality. In fact, she was flawed and awkward.
I had finally understood why papa liked the show too...well, i'm guessing lah, because he never really told me. I think it's because it's the story about an ordinary person that in a real situation can do extraordinary things...it's not a fairy tale scenario...but with hardwork and humility.
Rocky was not an educated character. He was awkward too, and had his life shoved down his throat, he doesn't speak well and has very low self esteem. But I always remembered that he had a good heart, and that good heart was what made the difference. =)
I never remember the ending.
Seriously...LOL
watching it again this time round...i'm bringing back something new with me...
realistically, he knew he couldn't win the fight. But he wanted to last to the end moment, which had never been done before. And he could tell himself that he just wasn't some bum from the street.
The night before the fight, he was shrouded wtih fear and doubt. But he talked about going the distance. Perseverance.
It was not about the win on the outside...but the win on the inside that mattered.
And of course, as the show clearly presented it comes with a whole lot of PAIN! especially at the end, where to reach the end point, he ASKED for more pain to be inflicted, coz it was the only way he'd reach the end point...wahh....
I almost died...LOL...
ok ok...time to go sleep...super late...but i feel like the kid i once was again...celebrating with my hands in the air...simply coz rocky made it!! =)
And I know what a driver that song is for alot of people i know to this day. Hah...and i know even boss has it on his list of songs, whenever he needs a booster...=)
It's the tune of the song that makes you believe you can overcome the odds...and the few lyrics it has, doens't paint a pretty picture. It doesn't shield you from the reality of the pain, in fact reminds you of it. But there's this essence of belief that you're reaching there! =)
Rocky was definitely not a show during my time. In fact i wasn't even born yet! LOL...it was realeased in 1976...it was such a surprising hit. Because the story was so simple and quickly filmed with in 28 days....yet...to this day, it's a part of history.
I was introduced to the movie by ...yep...it was none other than my dad. Whom I know loved the show alot. Forcing my sisters to endure it in their young age...by the time they grew up, and he had succesffully "influenced" them,...he only had me left to work on. LOL...not that it was hard for me to be influenced anyway...hahaha
All i remembered from my impression of the first time I watched the show was that --- how can a person eat RAW EGG....6 of them somemore!!! EEEeeeeewwwWWWW!!! I still recall papa tryign to explain to me why exactly Rocky had to do that. But at the tender age of 9...you seriously CATCH NO BALL...hahaha
The second time I watched it, it was with papa too...he'd never miss a re-run of it on TV. =) This time, I'll never forget the scenes of Rocky struggling with his first morning run -- the pain on his face....and then after hard and long training he finally conquered those damned steps...it was so emotional, you'd just want to celebrate with him! =)
After that for a whole week, papa had to contain me as I went around and punched all the pillows/ bolsters and cushions in the house...and being so young, papa would let me spar with him...hehe....using his hand open wide as targets. Heh....even my poor dog then had to tolerate me dancing around him while punching the air like a near target...=)
In my late teens, I understood why it was such a loved movie. It celebrated the underdog. And the girl he got was no drop dead looker or some attractive personality. In fact, she was flawed and awkward.
I had finally understood why papa liked the show too...well, i'm guessing lah, because he never really told me. I think it's because it's the story about an ordinary person that in a real situation can do extraordinary things...it's not a fairy tale scenario...but with hardwork and humility.
Rocky was not an educated character. He was awkward too, and had his life shoved down his throat, he doesn't speak well and has very low self esteem. But I always remembered that he had a good heart, and that good heart was what made the difference. =)
I never remember the ending.
Seriously...LOL
watching it again this time round...i'm bringing back something new with me...
realistically, he knew he couldn't win the fight. But he wanted to last to the end moment, which had never been done before. And he could tell himself that he just wasn't some bum from the street.
The night before the fight, he was shrouded wtih fear and doubt. But he talked about going the distance. Perseverance.
It was not about the win on the outside...but the win on the inside that mattered.
And of course, as the show clearly presented it comes with a whole lot of PAIN! especially at the end, where to reach the end point, he ASKED for more pain to be inflicted, coz it was the only way he'd reach the end point...wahh....
I almost died...LOL...
ok ok...time to go sleep...super late...but i feel like the kid i once was again...celebrating with my hands in the air...simply coz rocky made it!! =)
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