....superbly depressed to be reminded how much I love to hate accounting...

A way...

...............2.36am....and I have to wake in 3 hours to do a little more...and need to be in teh office by 830.

How is it possible that no matter how much you try to speed up...it doen'st seem to move as fast as you'd want to...

God I pray for strength and endurance for all of us, and a whole load of favour...loads of it please. Please more than we can ever ask or imagine. i know I'm screwing up a whole way with you, but yet, i pray your grace and mercy will not be withheld because of me.

I pray for an open heaven. ....wow...i suddenly can still remember one of the ways to open heaven and release the promises. I dunno why i'm making that last statement about remembering..hahaha...ok I'm sorry, i really shoudl go shower and sleep.

Nite nites...

Spent 3 hours

and made a small dent in my room clean up. Hmmm...

I threw away all the CHC mags, some sling bags that i'll never use again and a pile of other stuff that will go to the salvation army. Still couldn't bear to throw the entry tickets for paris...=) oh wellllll....

I worked on the table area that I tend to just let things stack. Realised that it doesn't have that much rubbish (must have cleared it some time ago), only that I have alot of bulky things. hmm...

Lots more to do.

This is just the beginning. Many sections of the room to handle.

I wisely stopped at 6pm. =) and restacked everything back.

So i still have some down time to me self. =)

Later need to drop by salvation army...=)

The past 2 weekends...

I've had this rather uncontrollable urge to just throw away everything in my room. Don't even bother to think or re-arrange. (ie. what goes to salvation etc.) just throw.

Coz when I consider salvation army (ther than clothes) i think I will hesitate.

I dunno why I feel this way. Maybe coz i'm sick of my room being the mess state it is, plus no room for new things or a revamp of my room if I want to.

Just around christmas I tried doing some clearing...but ended up 'thinking' too much and led to hesitation and eventual....'let's do something else..this ain't fun.."

hahaha

But how impt is it to keep some history? I mean...really do we look back at physical memories? I'm not talking about photos/ sch stuff (kept and sealed liao) or gifts from friends. More like, hmmm...ticket stubs to a musical, old CHC special magazines, that can no longer be found. Sea shells (that still look nice) you picked up at a resort holiday by the beach.

How about my Man U magazine collection and cards, (incomplete so useless in the mkt) that I saved up my pocket $$ just to buy when i was in sch...

A box of ad hoc wrapping paper..for emergency use...my paper that i bought for artwork. Used some (and mybe i can keep the rest for another time?...

You know, those kind of things...haiz...

I mean, seriously, I see mountains growing around me, buy i only use a good 5% of it. Barely touching or refering to the rest.

HOW....=(

I guess am afraid to throw something I miss/ would be impt to me in future..

But I don't even think about them 99% of the time so why bother?

there are some other things I jsut go buy. Like the gazillion shampoo/ moisturisers samples, that i've kept (and are now probably expired..hahaha...(to even have to through through those to find one tht hasnt'?)....If i need I'll just go buy lor.

HOW...=S

If only i can just rip out my heart and throw EVERYTHG.

growl...I just need a bag and sweep everythg in can?...eeeps...

I need some courage...a strange kind of courage.

Help!

Shall I jsut do it tomorrow?...get the ball going?

Clear up space in my room..then get a flat screen TV...bwahahha...

meeeeps/....

Berlin wall...

If you just look in the middle, it's like a scene out of a movie. I dodnt take many shots at the airshow ground. It was just most unpleasant and warm. No, warm is an understatement. It's like Singapore weather with no ventilation. Urgh.

After boss arrive in day two, having settled his Jam stuff in another part of europe, we spent out first night out looking for the casino, which he said was the biggest in Europe.

Guess what we stumbled upon the berlin wall....heee...all thanks to jeano's great eyesight. =P

Testing of boss' photgraphy skills.

Right outside the trainstaion Potsdamer. These are of course deliberately set up back on site. The origianls were removed to be detroyed. But only later did they think that some should remain. Not many whole pieces have been left. So if you're at a Berlin gift shop, chances are, there a small vial with a chuch of coloured conrete which they claim is part of the berlin wall. (hmmmmm.....)

I took this phot coz i wanted to show ge how gross a collection over years of bubble gum looks like...very colourful..and OMG

The historical markers on the ground, like a line drawing out the berlin wall location.

Opposite the Casino, the Blue Man group theatre! Too exp lah...so never went to see..

OK, it's not as big as I thought it would be, but it's about hmm....4 storeys, with an area of a basket ball court. As I brought his up as a conversation with my boss, we realised that maybe the casinos in europe are mostly old ones, so they never built MEGA ones back then. Hence, this would make sense to be the biggest.

Anyway, like I said, not many pics of the airshow. On this day where the pic was taken was my only Free whole day in Berlin, (Boss and mel lfet early this morning.) and I went to something like their City Hall

I snuck in a quick photo of these guys. If you want a shot with them, I think $$ is involved. A free donation, in the chest on the floor. I didnt need one lah, But I thought it was cool, it's thier old military uniforms. =)

This is the Brandenburger Tor. ('Tor' I gathered, meant gate. It was the site of celebrations when the Berlin wall came down and throwing you back even further in time, when Napolean lead his victorius troops marching in.

a nice torust heloing me out the take a pic after seeing me struggle many time to get a shot in, in the DIY fashion. hhahaha

The next decent historical buidling is about a 5 minute walk away. the Reichstag buildt in 1884(aka Paliamentry house). Can't go in without paying, and the details was that since its in use, you can only go to the modern wings. (which are made of glass walkways)

I learned from my recent course research (which I chose to write about hitler) was that it was here that in one of his attempts to take control of germany, he stormed in and held governers hostage.

These carved out panels flank the main entrance.

There were many tourists, but the square was big enough not to be crowded. I picked a spot to sit and just soak up some sun and atmosphere. It was near the front door.

A man who stood beside a bicycle, watched me for a while, then came up to me and started chatting. I acted not too interested. But he was more keen to find out if I was from China or one other country that I can't recall now.

When I said no, and said singapore, he repeated his question, and looked abit stumped when I still said no...hahaha...probably thinks it's in China, and that I didnt' hear him properly. he still looked unconvinced. Anyway, am still alone, so didn't want to too friendly so I acted disinterested.

He hung around abit, looked like he was trying to do some survey or something, but I didnt see him approach anyone else. (most people there looked local/ ang mo or asian folks huddled in the safety of their tour groups.

Eventually, he moved a to another spot at the square.

As I walked back to the Branderburg Tor, a small crowd gathered on the far end of the Reichstag. Some filming was taking place. The lady in the pciture is part of the show, and she is to just sit there and watch.

since everything was in german, so I had no clue.

But i guessed it was a priviledged moment, so I stayed, coz i seems like the locals knew who this guy was, who was performing songs, singing...

and taking the strangest things out of his attache case...LOL

It was a short filming and everyone whooped and clapped when the filming ended, and he said a graceful thank you. =)

Singaporean Bands...

Somehow...in my random surfing of songs that bring back memories on youtube, i started down a path of home grown talent...

When I first heard Tanya Chua's - My Colour TV Set, (can't remember how long ago) I thought I was listening to something from the Cardigans. =)

I didn't like Tanya though. Call me rebel I was in Sec two. Lizards Convention stole my heart with thier version of Elvis' Wooden Heart. (which i still play in my car OK!)

I think someone should just compile all the best SG songs since the 90s. It would be a nice album.

Like Lizards Convention, The watchmen (My one and only), electronic (for you), radioactive...mmm...and the one song that in naive years of my youth, I truly believed there was hope for Singapore bands..LOL...so much talent...so littel support..haiz..If anyone remembers Kick! who sang "Jane", you are definitely MY GENERATION...wahahhaa...

I mean, defintely if you know John Klass the DJ, who's the lead singer..=)

It sounds so cheezy now, but I can't belive someone actually found the music video lor! It's on youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhV0dbdVJQ

Wow...and just suddenly my brain remembers all the names, - Humpback Oak, Padres, Concave scream...The stoned revivals, the oddfellows. (I dunno why they pick such names lor...trying to be like metallica? hehehe...I guess it was cool)

hahaha...Frankly I don't like their songs that much. But hey...Hoooray for Singapore! =)

I held back for just over a month to open one of my xmas pressies where when i put it up against the light, I knew what it was already, and told myself...cannot open the package...else..i won't stop...so saved it for a time i could 'enjoy it'....heee

He takes super long just to write one book. *faint* especially now that he's popular it takes even longer than ever becasue he's so busy...growl...almsot one year one book...

can you imagine, I read 6 sacred stones in my phuket trip in 2009 and I've held back till now to devour the 5 greatest warriors..and... *gasp* no more after this!...till end 2011 which mean reach SG in early 2012!!!...Noooo!!!

Matthew Reillyyyyyy....I dunno why i like to read his books when it's like the ramblings of a child describing an adventure!...hehehe...but..the adventure is just so so fun!!! And so so impossibly out of this world!

But still can't compare to JD Robb lah =) her books are real treats!

which..*snigger*..I've got Baboon addicted to them...since a year back..=P I changed a skeptic! bwahahaha