After many weekends of vexing..

My terrapin tank is ready! Yeah! Me moved them into thier new home about two weeks back. But had to take them out regualrly, because I still hadn't figured out how to do a staircase for them.

Thank God for the perfectly shaped driftwood (the only piece that size and shape at the shop). The Pins can now climb up to their resting ledge. =) I saw a smilar tank at the shop...$30! when I got mine at $10..heh..what a steal...

Anyway, all they now need is a little tidying up of the tank because some of the set up were just trials and not done proper.

Was happy when i came in this morning. They were perched on top of each other relaxing, plus me got the lib books. =) So they have adapted to thier new tank. Next step now is to make sure they eat, then eventually with some creativity, decor the tank a lil' so that it looks nice in the office.

I think the Pins give everyone a little entertainment at work. I guess, seeing two small fellas takes your mind off stuff...I hope the Pins won't be too cold, because they can't talk lor...

Humph , come to think of it, I should jsut give them a mini broom and mop --> they DIY cleaning! =P

First...

....dont' ask me why I'm awake at this insane hour...sheesh...later sure ahev trouble waking up..

just now ge talked about studying, and i realsied that i'm adversed to studying again. Hahaha...I never thought of myself as such. Always thought I'd go study some further somehow. Maybe it's been too long. Or just the pessimissm took over. Whatever happened to the joy of doing something different, amazement of discovery, realiseing new potentials, having only to worry about friends, relationships, projects, eating and sleeping...

Wait a min...that's provided you're doing it full time with a fairy god mother sponsoring all expenses! hahaha...

Having Blooie made a diff, his basics wiped out several things. Though many can argue that i can sell him anytime lah. But he definitely had a bite outta my potential savings.

So...being in "productive and please while you're balancing work-life- take part time courses to skill up- and have 3 kids if you can afford it" dear country called Singapore.......We can all do the above right..

True, it's defintely possible and have seen mothers with job, and commitments do it. With much tears actually. And let's be truly honest. Not top honours success all the time.

Apart from bearing the consequences...i just don't like studying...grrr..sniff, my studying joy ended when i was in Pri 3...Hahahaha...k lah, have to admit, i did like physics alot in sec 3 and 4. Aiyooo, the thought of having to deal with slackers in any team projects just make me shudder. Remember the caboodle of them in Uni!!!

=)

Now govt giving moolah to subsidise courses leh...esp for my case got good chance for decent courses. Haiz..so shoudl really think about it lor. All the above is flesh talking lah. Realistically, soon you throw a stone you hit a MBA holder. Already it's the case for degrees.

Mmm...can't imagine..3 days a week, 7.30pm to 10.30 pm in class, maybe saturday in class too. All other free days to do projects/ research. Using annual leave to take exams. Oh, and still need to study for exams...dui...gosh...probably need to retake modules if fail also right...ARGH....

Already met many who've put their part time studies on hold, coz not getting anywhere. Quick quick...where are those freaking sucess stories!!! hahaha...

you think too much lah...*slaps self*

Whoever reads this has rights to slap me awake. hahaha

go kway-zeee

hate my days now...

An up and down day again. How does one live this way. Each new day, i hope things can amd will change...and somehow without fail..well, it all fails.

The feelings of useless to the point of pointless and non-existence came by again. Dunno what's the point of me...I feel like an idiot.A pathetic snail.

One moment i feel as though i could do anything and in a split second i feel like a peanut.

I dont' feel like eating cause..well, what's the point of eating? Is there a need to? Why go home, why sleep, why play, why do anything. Why do things to lift your spirits at all, when ...well,....there's no good way to end that line..hah.

I've let myself down, i've let the world down. i've let myself down again. A simple way to put it is a useless piece of s**t.

I'm not sorry for myself...just fed up with myself.

Time to go to bed for the 'new day'...

I never heard of the govts slogan on CBF until recently, and I am extrememly amused.That they used CBF instead of productivity lor...goodness...so..erm..layman lor...hahaha...didn't someone reading the script pick it up!?!?

Reading articles online and laughing away upon learning that NASA's motto was CBF, in the early 1990's which led to the twin mars disasters of '99...and NASA's recognistion to scrap that stupid motto in 2000. Hahahaha...

Today i learned that blooie's cost price in teh market now is $82K to $97K, up from the prev $59K to 63K...kwah... and the used car market for those around blooie's age is almost hsi cost price too! it's like my car never depreciated..hahaha

Seems other drivers also experience blooie's heavy body roll on turns too...phew...

I alos just watched this clip of singapore in 1957 that left me =O it's so old...goodness...zero skyscrapers. And the way it portray the ang mohs...kekeke...and Singapore airport! marine parade was non existant lor...it took me a long while to recognise City hall mrt area..hahaha..becasue the only thing still there is the war memorial!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nw7toyYrqjs&feature=fvw

This channel is so interesting...got film of china in 1920s lor...these are really trasures and am glad they manage to digitalise it. The ones in teh 20s are like the charlie chaplin style...action then a balck screen with white words to narrate...coools...

10 caramel maccs...

Can it be only monday? Yes it can...

I just filed my taxes. There's this portion for life insurance and I can't seem to ding my documentation to support it. Haiz. so i left it blank lor, the premium ain't much lah.. like 5 to 10 caramel machiatos. But i made the effort since, some deduction is better than none. But gave up after searching the standard areas. Just wanted to get it over and done with.

Another day...another short night. So quickly it's 2am now...feeling tired, but can't sleep. Enjoyed watching an episode of a kdrama online while eating dinner earlier.Then had a couple of things to do...

Changes happening in the office...which i'm too tired to detail now..

Changes happening to me too, which i give the same ans as above...I should be changing lah, the fact i feel this way...

It would be nice...actually,..i dont' know what would be nice...it's just a good phrase to hear. Don't u think?

I'm now thinking of what to leave on while i go to sleep. Usually just a short 20 min video of frasier/ some familar comedy...so that the voices in the background can help me to zzz..it's quite soothing...it's the only way i've been able to sleep on nights. Weird how I don't need that for napping. Tho technically I'm tired now...ok..i really dont' make sense anymore. hahhaha..

Rant time is over...

time to go...new day has begun. start by zzzzing....

Move

Just spent 2 hours settling mum into her 3/7 day week apartment in Punggol. Drove her there with her barang, unpacked, set up the room, did some orientation, then drove home.=)

She's renting the place from a friend, and only need to cover the electricity. Basics for a hdb flat are there and it's fully furnished. Seems the friend let's relatives from m'sia stay there when they come visit.

Not too bad lah, lcd tv with dvd player, couch, all rooms have a bed, ironing board, washing needs, water boiler...This person likes the traditional feel and bought the old style kopitiam round table with four chairs for the living area. Bedroom floors were paquet, so it's comfy.

Just that the floor was real dusty so the major cleaning was there, plus set up the ironing board, toilet necessities, washed some stuff for use too.

So mum will be there for 3 days, weekly, coz it's nearer her school and she saves time travelling-- why do i have a feeling I have to drive her there every sunday. hmmm...

And the feeding dog probelm is still not solved lor...best...she told me about the move on Friday. (heard of the intent end of last year, but no confimration whether it'd materialise since it meant having to move and spending some moolah.)

Anyway, as i walked through the void deck, it reminded me so much of hostel. The dead quiet still air, with just crickets in a distance, and the prominent sounds are the shuffling of your flip flops and the rustle of plastic bags (in hall, you probably just came back from the super market or da baoed some supper from outside.)

Punggol like NTU -- ulu.....hahaha..

Race 2...Button wins...urgh...

Todays' last 12 laps was exciting!

Button was way in front (12 secs ahead) at 1 position becasue of strategic moves by the engineers, giving him the lead. You can see my disdain for Button. When he does well, he's happy. When not doing well, you hear him be-moan about that the car is lousy -- ya, the same car that help you win the previous race..Duh...

So the reamaining line up was Kubica (renault), Massa and alonso, these 3 having 0.5 to 1 sec gaps between.

Between Massa and Alonso, I'm not being biased, but I have seen Alonso able to overtake Massa many times before...so..hehehe...he was trying.

BUT...

With 8 laps remaining, Hamilton started creeping closer behind on 5th postion (behind alonso), followed by Webber (red bull)

Initially, the time gap between the old rivals, Hamilton and Alonso was 9 seconds and it was cut down to 0.7 secs!!!

Radio chatter was screaming into hamilton's earpiece that the Ferrari's strategy may be failing them as they have to hold out with thier current wheels, which is wearing out fast. Pitting for the Ferraris at this stage was not an option. --> Pressure and overtake!!

Alonso da best lah...the strategy at this point paid off. For the team, he held off Hamilton and Webber, allowing the gap between him and Massa to increase, so that even if hamilton was to overtake, he wouldn't have sufficient oppotunities to snatch 3rd place from Massa, even with Massa's weak tyres. (Points in the top 3 postion as significantly higher)

At a 0.5sec gap, The Ferrari Team Radio told Alonso, "It's point-5 now, it's point-5.."

Alonso replied."OK, OK,..I don't want to know, I don't want to know!"

AHAHAHHAHA....it's true mah, here you are focussing on staving off the opponent, telling me how much he's catching up ain't helping man!

From there, alonso was great, keeping the eyeball on hamilton, who tried to peek out from the lineup of Alonso, Ham and Webber, in order to overtake, but failign each time..*evil laugh*

With two laps to go, Hamilton made his grand move.

Approaching a sharp right turn, he overtook Alonso on the left. Alonso didnt' fall back in line -- the usual method, as you should take the outer circle at the turn.

So they turned almost side by side - Ham on the outside, Alonso on the inside.

Now if you do your visualisations, with your two hands parallel then turning right, the inner car's back will threaten the outter car.

This is the point where they often say is the guts part of F1 and the split second decision. You have to be confident and know your car well, and take the risk.

Alonso, with a slight jerk, swung near to Ham's rigth nose, his back left wheel, skimming close to Ham's fromt rigth wheels.This sudden move is critical.

Several terrible things could have happened --1) since Alonso was going with the G force, his sudden move to swing into ham's lane to cut him at the turn, could mean, he'll swing all the way out of the track into the wall! Taking his car out of teh race completely.

2) A collision of wheels, which meant either or no side would survive and be taken out of the track.

Ham panicked and slowed only enough to let the ferrari pass at the turn, but still strategically, He cut right at the last moment--- hoping that if Alonso is still swinging out into left, he can speed up by overtaking on the right...

Awww...but Alonso was smarter and knew what Ham was thinking, being ahead, all he had to do was turn his car right alittle, cutting into Ham's new drive path.

Muahaha...Ham was squashed! he couldn't go ahead anymore and could only turn right harder into and awkward postion in order to preserve the car and let the Ferrari pass.

hehehe...then hor, the Red bull nipped into Ham's car...and they both swung out of the race..hehehehe

Red bull's fault lah...he shouldn't go that near with these two in front who 'chut pattern'. But maybe he was also thinking that if the two cars took each other out of the track with thier moves, he could slip by!

Split second decisions man....split second...

Anyway, red bull lost a nose, meant having to pit and redo. hamilton was fine, lost some spots but still in the top ten...

hahaha...And Alonso sneaked away..kekeke...last two laps leh...

This ensured that the entire Ferrari team keep critical points. *evil laughter*

This is where I think Alonso has grown up as a competitve driver. All F1 drivers are very competitve. You should hear them when they talk, they are a bloodthirty bunch, they want to Win. But he has matured. It's not just about overtaking Massa and securing the 3rd postion (ie. the chance to stand on the podium as top 3). But about staving off the opposition, and even if it meant taking your own car out, at least the Team still secures crucial points, under your team mate's hat.

=)

Good grief, can't believe I yak so long about this..engrossed. =P

oh, and alonso got clipped by button at the flag off.spinning him to 22 position..n he fought back 2 4th!..muahaha

The silly things me do with me cam...=P

Been so long since i put up photos. So take some time and do chirpy things!=)

Every CNY, I can't help but do my dracula and flit around the house. Hehe...I love madarin oranges! I did a single tooth dracula shot....
Then this one is slightly blurred,..hahaha...but i think i look like a happy walrus! =P *waves finger at self*...play with food!

Coming up, some photos I took during CNy visit. This year no hp camera so had to conscienciuosly carry the digital cam around =)

This is day two at my uncle's home. He's my dad's younger brother and they live in Potong Pasir area, jsut opposite Saint Andrew's village! Usually i spend day two at Ah ma's place again. But this year we're invited up coz they recently renovated the place since the younger son got married and moved in.

This is cloudy looking earnestly at my sister for food. Yep, the queen got to go visiting. Too bad this year no burberry top/ cheongsam! ( I think she abit too round liao, due to old age..hee)

In the background is my cousin Mabel. Heh, as you can see, our physical structure runs in this part of the fam!! Hahaha...she's older than me but younger than my two big sisters. I think sh'es a rabbit year...1975..she's into IT and lotsa programming and gaming. Was the only one among us all who had the chance to study overseas. She did her Dip here then degree in UK. I think she's still doing ad-hoc work for DSTA.

That's uncle on the right with my sister at the bottom right...ahahah...TVs are crucial at CNY to pass the time. =) We talk alot about football, he's a big Man U fan too. =) In the past when sis bothered, we'd make the trip to his place to catch the crucial matches coz he had cable. Since sis drove, can always get home after a match...Can't rememebr why one day it just stopped...maybe it was coz sis lazy liao..

Anyway, I feel he's a good and simple man, humble and easily happy. He leaves you alone the whole time and woudl be engrossed in reading the paper, staring at the tv and before you knwo it, he's fallen asleep on his easy chair..hahaha.

This is Ah ma, playing Gin Rummy! Hahaha...look at her so focussed. She looks forward to playing every few weeks. It's like a highlight to her, because it's the only big activity/ event with uncle and auntie go over.

Yipes! why the photo upside down one...Raaarrr...i too lazy to change..hehehe...but this is the clan playing with Ah ma lor...on the top in pink in Big Auntie, the eldest sister and sibling on my dad's side. She's very fierce and gave full time chinese tuition to the neighbourhood kids. You can imagine I was the fortunate one to be spared the torture after both my sisters went through the trauma, my parents decided otherwise for me..hehehe... bottom in red is my mum! And the last lady is the lady of the house!

She's the head nurse in KK for several years already. Probably over a decade. She power k, been a nurse since young...and still going strong! =) respect lah...she also a good cook! And ironically the only one not overweight in the fam..HAHAHAHA...

I don't even know who I am anymore...I've lost it all...