Just watched...

months ago, i watch Toy Story 3 the movie. Finally got around watching it, coz I guess, I was afraid it would not be as good as the previous ones, and since it was to be the last, I didn't want to leave a bad memory on 'heart' behind Toy Story.

The final scene left me crying in my room, minutes into the end credits. =')

It's lovely.

I just found it online again and rewatched it.

And I still cry.

Pixar is amazing. They managed to capture NOTHING ABOUT THE FACT...that it's about the characters or whether you're a fan of toy story...or even whether you knwo the story or not.

It captured your childhood. As long as you were a child with imagination and 'play time'....you would completely feel for the final 5 mins.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2vr0M7jhRk

Over 3 movies, Andy the owner of the toys has grown up and going to college and even though he's older, a part of him is sentimetal and remembers the joy these toys had broought to his life, even though now he has to move on.

I CRIED AGAIN>...LOL

I'm a hopeless but happy sop. =)

I took some action since my last post the net day. After a talk that decided on a form of confrontation. It was not what I hoped it would be...but other ways were just too unacceptable for me.

It was a happier day, not coz of the talk...but that there was no need to have to tolerate for several hours and spoiling my mood. It is sad it has reached this stage...but deep in me, I know it is a point of no return on some levels. Can't be entrusted.

However I awoke this morning and since yesterday's realisation that it's a point of no return, I also decided to give another week or more time. But a very reserved time. ie. deciding that there is nothing worth going for anymore and will not deserve anythg more than the cold way it has been treated.

Today is boss' beeday. =) I think the celebration went awesome. simple but fun and got all involved. Hope he likes the purple ipad cover. Thank god i don't own one...else I'd probably have a hard time parting with it! LOL.

Boss loves purple....correction..royal purple...so we filled a box of purple gifts for him..hahah..we made him way a birthday boy hat too..hee...=)

Too bad no time to upload the photo. heh...

Another time ya!

He's a great towkay. Who can cause pain, and joy...hahaha...=)

It's 4am....

Am glad class 95 after so many years hasn't changed and still provides the right solace for so many many years...

Radio is a friend. Music tells you how old you are in a good way....

You realise that so many times in life you are up at this time with the radio on...at so many junctures of your life...

As you get older, you grow wiser and know it will pass with unlike the earlier dispair that you would entrnech yourself in your much younger youth...when it seems there is no way out.

If only the wisdom takes away the emotions ...and not exercise heart conditioning...

Wow....

has it been that long since I last put up a post/ comment?...hmmm...i don't think there is any particular reason, just probably uninspired.

Unfortunaly I had no where else to go except here to complain...I am angry...no...angry seems abit harsh at this very moment..however i am very pissed. Pissed enough to pick a fight if I wanted to.

Sick and tired of selfishness, childishness and the like.

The emotional drain on this is getting worse and I wish in all wishes that I could choose not to give a damn about it.

I am very aware of my emotions and know that my patience has worn thin. It's reaching a bloody month for goodness sake.

People haev remarked before that I'm patient accomodating...balh blah blah...however...therein lies the danger where it builds up. And i move from calm to violent with no in between. Things tend to break and I'll be glad to undust my dictionary of epithets.

I learned of this in sperate incidents of injuring my hand, breaking a door and table.

I seriously wish I can be equally selfish.

What a F***** hyprocrite.

Only two words seem to come up these days, hyprocite and selfish.

Sigh...the thing that makes me pissed more than the aspect of selfish and F*** hyprocrite...is that I feel like shit for wasting my emotions and energy being pissed...when ultimately it was caused by a selfish shit and f**** hypocrite...

U can see that I'm refraining from using words from the 'dictionary'...If I start...I fear I can't stop.

I presently jsut want to walk away.

I saw once .....and I saw it again on the net...my toes are wriggling now...I want a fivefingers shoeeee....

....superbly depressed to be reminded how much I love to hate accounting...

A way...

...............2.36am....and I have to wake in 3 hours to do a little more...and need to be in teh office by 830.

How is it possible that no matter how much you try to speed up...it doen'st seem to move as fast as you'd want to...

God I pray for strength and endurance for all of us, and a whole load of favour...loads of it please. Please more than we can ever ask or imagine. i know I'm screwing up a whole way with you, but yet, i pray your grace and mercy will not be withheld because of me.

I pray for an open heaven. ....wow...i suddenly can still remember one of the ways to open heaven and release the promises. I dunno why i'm making that last statement about remembering..hahaha...ok I'm sorry, i really shoudl go shower and sleep.

Nite nites...

Spent 3 hours

and made a small dent in my room clean up. Hmmm...

I threw away all the CHC mags, some sling bags that i'll never use again and a pile of other stuff that will go to the salvation army. Still couldn't bear to throw the entry tickets for paris...=) oh wellllll....

I worked on the table area that I tend to just let things stack. Realised that it doesn't have that much rubbish (must have cleared it some time ago), only that I have alot of bulky things. hmm...

Lots more to do.

This is just the beginning. Many sections of the room to handle.

I wisely stopped at 6pm. =) and restacked everything back.

So i still have some down time to me self. =)

Later need to drop by salvation army...=)

The past 2 weekends...

I've had this rather uncontrollable urge to just throw away everything in my room. Don't even bother to think or re-arrange. (ie. what goes to salvation etc.) just throw.

Coz when I consider salvation army (ther than clothes) i think I will hesitate.

I dunno why I feel this way. Maybe coz i'm sick of my room being the mess state it is, plus no room for new things or a revamp of my room if I want to.

Just around christmas I tried doing some clearing...but ended up 'thinking' too much and led to hesitation and eventual....'let's do something else..this ain't fun.."

hahaha

But how impt is it to keep some history? I mean...really do we look back at physical memories? I'm not talking about photos/ sch stuff (kept and sealed liao) or gifts from friends. More like, hmmm...ticket stubs to a musical, old CHC special magazines, that can no longer be found. Sea shells (that still look nice) you picked up at a resort holiday by the beach.

How about my Man U magazine collection and cards, (incomplete so useless in the mkt) that I saved up my pocket $$ just to buy when i was in sch...

A box of ad hoc wrapping paper..for emergency use...my paper that i bought for artwork. Used some (and mybe i can keep the rest for another time?...

You know, those kind of things...haiz...

I mean, seriously, I see mountains growing around me, buy i only use a good 5% of it. Barely touching or refering to the rest.

HOW....=(

I guess am afraid to throw something I miss/ would be impt to me in future..

But I don't even think about them 99% of the time so why bother?

there are some other things I jsut go buy. Like the gazillion shampoo/ moisturisers samples, that i've kept (and are now probably expired..hahaha...(to even have to through through those to find one tht hasnt'?)....If i need I'll just go buy lor.

HOW...=S

If only i can just rip out my heart and throw EVERYTHG.

growl...I just need a bag and sweep everythg in can?...eeeps...

I need some courage...a strange kind of courage.

Help!

Shall I jsut do it tomorrow?...get the ball going?

Clear up space in my room..then get a flat screen TV...bwahahha...

meeeeps/....

Berlin wall...

If you just look in the middle, it's like a scene out of a movie. I dodnt take many shots at the airshow ground. It was just most unpleasant and warm. No, warm is an understatement. It's like Singapore weather with no ventilation. Urgh.

After boss arrive in day two, having settled his Jam stuff in another part of europe, we spent out first night out looking for the casino, which he said was the biggest in Europe.

Guess what we stumbled upon the berlin wall....heee...all thanks to jeano's great eyesight. =P

Testing of boss' photgraphy skills.

Right outside the trainstaion Potsdamer. These are of course deliberately set up back on site. The origianls were removed to be detroyed. But only later did they think that some should remain. Not many whole pieces have been left. So if you're at a Berlin gift shop, chances are, there a small vial with a chuch of coloured conrete which they claim is part of the berlin wall. (hmmmmm.....)

I took this phot coz i wanted to show ge how gross a collection over years of bubble gum looks like...very colourful..and OMG

The historical markers on the ground, like a line drawing out the berlin wall location.

Opposite the Casino, the Blue Man group theatre! Too exp lah...so never went to see..

OK, it's not as big as I thought it would be, but it's about hmm....4 storeys, with an area of a basket ball court. As I brought his up as a conversation with my boss, we realised that maybe the casinos in europe are mostly old ones, so they never built MEGA ones back then. Hence, this would make sense to be the biggest.

Anyway, like I said, not many pics of the airshow. On this day where the pic was taken was my only Free whole day in Berlin, (Boss and mel lfet early this morning.) and I went to something like their City Hall

I snuck in a quick photo of these guys. If you want a shot with them, I think $$ is involved. A free donation, in the chest on the floor. I didnt need one lah, But I thought it was cool, it's thier old military uniforms. =)

This is the Brandenburger Tor. ('Tor' I gathered, meant gate. It was the site of celebrations when the Berlin wall came down and throwing you back even further in time, when Napolean lead his victorius troops marching in.

a nice torust heloing me out the take a pic after seeing me struggle many time to get a shot in, in the DIY fashion. hhahaha

The next decent historical buidling is about a 5 minute walk away. the Reichstag buildt in 1884(aka Paliamentry house). Can't go in without paying, and the details was that since its in use, you can only go to the modern wings. (which are made of glass walkways)

I learned from my recent course research (which I chose to write about hitler) was that it was here that in one of his attempts to take control of germany, he stormed in and held governers hostage.

These carved out panels flank the main entrance.

There were many tourists, but the square was big enough not to be crowded. I picked a spot to sit and just soak up some sun and atmosphere. It was near the front door.

A man who stood beside a bicycle, watched me for a while, then came up to me and started chatting. I acted not too interested. But he was more keen to find out if I was from China or one other country that I can't recall now.

When I said no, and said singapore, he repeated his question, and looked abit stumped when I still said no...hahaha...probably thinks it's in China, and that I didnt' hear him properly. he still looked unconvinced. Anyway, am still alone, so didn't want to too friendly so I acted disinterested.

He hung around abit, looked like he was trying to do some survey or something, but I didnt see him approach anyone else. (most people there looked local/ ang mo or asian folks huddled in the safety of their tour groups.

Eventually, he moved a to another spot at the square.

As I walked back to the Branderburg Tor, a small crowd gathered on the far end of the Reichstag. Some filming was taking place. The lady in the pciture is part of the show, and she is to just sit there and watch.

since everything was in german, so I had no clue.

But i guessed it was a priviledged moment, so I stayed, coz i seems like the locals knew who this guy was, who was performing songs, singing...

and taking the strangest things out of his attache case...LOL

It was a short filming and everyone whooped and clapped when the filming ended, and he said a graceful thank you. =)