Tuesday, 25 March 2008

went to see it...

On sunday i spent several minutes viewing the mazda 2. Yes, i've seen it on the roads and parked somewhere. but i've never sat inside. I managed to find my way there, a quiet part of macpherson road, and not the standard row at Ubi or Alexander area.

I still have to say, that it looks really nice.

One thing...it feels small! Maybe coz i'm a big sized person...and, i'm not used to smaller cars. i.e. i usually rent nissan sunnys or toyota corollas or the lancers.

but i think it mainly attributes to the fact that it is cut to be a sporty look. so it is low roof and sleek - not boxy.

they don't take in many greens. The guy said, not very popular...if you look at it for long, not appealing...hmm...maybe got the incredible hulk look!..haha..seems white and red are popular....i know i will nto go for black. (too hot) ...maybe white huh...

I didn't do a test drive though. Save it for another time. =) went there to pick up the price list and costings. xiong man... i tell u..haha

seems my cousin just got a honda fit 1.3L...i'm not against fit/ jazz...they are super fuel efficient, but the price can be much higher...and also u see them everywhere! hahaha...

someone called me today, wanted me to get a honda airwave...way beyond my budget..and also i do not need such a big car...but he said the savings is in fuel in the long run...haiz...he is right...but if the installment chalks up to $700/mth...before insurance etc, i don't even think i can afford the cheap $10 for a full CNG tank! hahaha...

God..Help me...YES/NO? AND WHICH ONE?!?!? ARGH!!!!

Saturday, 22 March 2008

the other one...

I am now eating the second of two chocolate peanut butter cups!....ANGELAaaaaahhhhh....

10% daily value of total fat, 21% of sat Fat and 20g of sugar....YARGH!!

Friday, 21 March 2008

u know who u are!!!!

I just had one of the two Reese's chocolate buttercups someone bought for me from candy empire. So according to the packaging i've downed, 115 calories, of which 60 are fat calories....great...nice way to start the day...*sarcasm*...LOL...

So yes, the friend who bought me the choc, I'm thinking of you as i eat!...hahaha...U KNOW WHO U ARE....u horrible promoter of sin!..haha...

Wednesday, 19 March 2008

It's cool...

Definition of adversity - a state, condition, or instance of serious or continued difficulty (Merriam-Webster online dictionary)

Hmm... one thing from my experiences with God, is that the truth, no matter how awful it may be, indeed sets you free.

But the revelation is something I am thankful for. =) and the constant reminder (ie. detailed in my last post was cool...)

Monday, 17 March 2008

... Adversity...

Since early friday morning, i've been thrown this word, via a letter, the summary of the feelings i've had lately...part of a conversation i've had with two different people (in this case, adversity would sum up their one sentence)...and this morning in church -- twice (once directly and the other indirectly)...

Friday, 14 March 2008

my new-old handphone...hee




just sharing

I've been relieved of handling the event tomorrow the past two weeks at work. I appreciate my boss giving me the break, and letting me have some time to look into other admin matters that i have had to put on hold. I think he also wants to expose the other staff to all areas of planning and event. Not just the execution, but even the exploratory to conception areas. To think through the event.

Spent the first week after Career show, first half was just resting, thinking and sorting stuff that had to be on hold throughout my bz period. Second half was to prepare for the mgt meeting the following week, Thursday. ie. reports, financials for the past events as well as the wrap up of the events.

this week passed quite fast. the 3 days just flew by. Hard to remember what i was doing but i did tow days of OT, on wed and thurs, (today). oh yes...i wen tot pick up my new - old phone that i bought from this guy online.

Yes, my hp died on the 4th day of CNY. with 11 mths lifespan. I destroyed the LED screen. don't' ask me how i did it! I wanted to buy another newer samsung phone model phone. but the new ones do not look as good...and their focus now is on mp3 phones.

Thus, i decided to go back to my old phone model. but i was hoping to get the limited edition colour! my previous colour is one i still like.But this one is alot cooler!..hee.. i mean..if i'm going to get back the same model, might as well try to get a nicer coloured one!

Anyway, i have to say that god provided. It's a long story. But I have to return my temp phone to my sis as she asked for it. Initially i had a hard time finding the phone i wanted. I mean..i had been finding on and off the past month.

then suddenly, when it reached crunch time, God made the way. just when i was about to give up, i decided to give a final 'whack' on ebay search engine. And yes! there it was! Can't believe it really. and it is not a credit/ paypal transaction. so it is meet up and cash at the mrt station. Still have warranty too...not bad huh..i paid $240 for it...but i really like it.=) So definitely no regrets.

Ok i'm tired. it's late too...i'll put up the pic of the phone in the next post. =)

Emotionally, i'm trying to handle all the thoughts...God help me...=) gotta be strong on this...argh!!!.

Saturday, 8 March 2008

dazed

Feeling alittle dazed and lost suddenly...weird...

Thursday, 6 March 2008

from my last post

things have happened since my last post of course...Airshow and AeroCareer came and went...working me from 8am to 9pm daily. Sleeping at 1am and waking at 6am... Manual labour was high then. Literally lifting weights to and fro...moving from point to point. And having almost no food ...urgh... the back to back made me so tired..i concuss the moment i have a chance.

This year's airshow period is really the most tiring yet. Thank god for the car rental during airshow that solved many a problem.

with regard to my last post, things have kinda worked out via communication of course. Forced communication...haha..we were both tired..but i knew in my heart it can't be delayed. Anyway, it worked out well...and i was right...to stick to 'love'....this was just on monday nite...but already today....hmm...i dunno how to explain it....

I wonder if you have ever felt this way...when at that moment, u think you're ok...and that you are strong enough to go on...and then the next day...bits start coming back...and you wonder..maybe i'm not cut out for this...

hahaha...maybe i am confused...for a moment i think i love...then again ...maybe i'm selfish huh...the child side of me says...i dun wanna 'share'...then again..the rational side says...' dun be silly'...

I hoped so much that i don't have to go through this. But i recognised it had to be so sooner or later. =) dont' be mistaken...I'm glad it is sooner...=) a friend's happiness is at stake. =)

Still...a part of me...just fights and fights...

Many people can't understand how i feel...as much as i can share...to them it is likely to be..."dont' overthink it lah"...." why like that?"...."no need to be so drastic bah"..."actually i think you just let go lor..."....

frankly i think how i feel is a feeling that is really unique.

What brings me down and knocks crap in me is this awful tearing in me...confusion... and a very big battle. As though i'm fighting back emotion -- which is the most draining thing in the world if you have never experienced it.--hahaha....if you have lived...you definitely have experienced it!!!

Ok...enough for now on this matter...

I came to blog on how i felt abt my sis too...sigh...she really is declaring war. And i think with the cooling period is obviously not enough. I admit really that what triggered it is obviously my fault. And i have apologised....now she wants to cut off things one by one...yes..they belong to her...but it's a though you wanna make a point. First DVDs..now the sub-cards...

haiz...watever lah...do watever you want...when i say it this way, i'm not absolving myself from any wrong that i did...but i'm just wondering if it is all worth it???...build wall fun hah?

Whatever...