today is the first time this past week that i've been home early. Today reach home at 7.30 so that is a relief. usually i'm working at airshow till 8pm...and getting up super early jsut to start another non stop hectic day.
the rest of this post is going to be confusing coz i'm expressing my thots but hiding what i'm saying...sorry...but blogs still have to be private lah...but i want my blog to express how i feel too...
in the midst of all this...there's confusion coming up in my life now...which makes me wonder why there is never a good time for such things to happen. Then again, maybe God is kind to let these things happen when i'm at my busiest. so that i have the option to be bogged by work than to think so much about things..
Still coz of how i feel...i just talk to him about it...as i think thru and ask god to give me understanding...and help me decide on my actions...
It is a stuggle...btu i have gained some unsight on why..still i'm not convinced that is it.... there's gotta be more...
I can't be putting this off too long, coz it ain't good for me either...sigh...god help me...confused man...i realy jsut want o walk away from it all...but i think...am i being so selfish? and i being so 'unable' to do somthign abt the way i feel or think that i take the 'easy' way out?
Frankly, the 'easy' way is the hardest way for me...but that will ensure that it works out for the best. it is not the ideal situation. there will be losses and hurts...But at least...there is some release. And i can't have influence anymore.
I will likely step aside coz I can't change somone...or wait for them to change..or pin it on them to chg....for years its in the person's nature...even till today. I see the effort made with regard to making up for past mistakes...but...somethings still show otherwise...
i dont' want to blame coz i still love. So how shall i go about it...sigh...
I am firm on the love..and i choose to...hmm...
Friday, 22 February 2008
Friday, 15 February 2008
this should have been on 14th Feb...=)
Just came back from a nice stroll around my neighbourhood...walked form 1130pm to 115am...pple were setting up altars and burning paper for the the 'sky god' at midnight...so lotsa interesting people to see...also just went around looking at cars...hahaha...super cool and breezy night... that's why i wanted to go for the walk.
before that i was at haagen daaz sharing an ice cream...yum...=)
Just decided to celebrate my 3rd anniversary! hahaha...yep!
Only dawned on me as i relaxed in my boss' car ..while he was busy on the phone. That was at 5pm.
Happy 3rd anniversay Jean! ..indeed God has blessed...and he will continue to guide...as tough as it all works out everyday...remember it is a blessing! =)
before that i was at haagen daaz sharing an ice cream...yum...=)
Just decided to celebrate my 3rd anniversary! hahaha...yep!
Only dawned on me as i relaxed in my boss' car ..while he was busy on the phone. That was at 5pm.
Happy 3rd anniversay Jean! ..indeed God has blessed...and he will continue to guide...as tough as it all works out everyday...remember it is a blessing! =)
Thursday, 14 February 2008
Post CNY report
Hi everyone, i'm just going to blog off the top of my head while watching Boston Legal in the background.
the days are getting shorter as the Singapore Airshow and the Career show is coming closer. I'm tired by mid day too. =)
CNY was ok for me. haven't checked the ang pows yet. will do so soon...hahaha...when i feel like it...=)
the main thing dispairing was that i can't go to service on sunday coz my relatives came to my home...so i had to be around. Also..on the same day...my mobile phone LED screen cracked internally while in my pocket....haiz...so the CNY $$ is gg to be chanelled to a new phone...
did spoil my sunday tho..hahaha...coz i couldn't sms or receive calls..=)
Anyway,..i went phone hunting and because i'm jsut less than a year into my contract...i have to 'lugi' abit...looking at the new phones...there are attractive factors..like samsung's 5Megapix slider phone with flash--so slim somemore..G600..but i need to get a 3G phone to enjoy an additional $120 rebate...and that is alot of $$
so i'm sticking back to my old phone...but trying to get the silver and black mixed version. Think i need to pray that the NEW stock singtel receives will have it! =)
plus point to sticking to my phone..i got xtra battery and additional charger..can leave one in the office lor..hahaha
anyway...in the meantime i'm still open to looking...=) though i've placed my order at the phone shop...
next on the news...i got a wireless modem router too...cost me $100..more $$ spent...but no choice..i had to get it due to some circumstances the decision was made fast..haha...so now my home has two wireless modems...stupid right...
but i let it rest lah..no point elaborating...
Ok..i should go...i'm actually very tired...but refusing to sleep...torturing thyself..haha...tomorrow is going to be another hectic day...alot to do...wonder if can ever finish..hahaha...oh wellz...i'm tired of even thinking about it...i am just enduring this...ahahha...
take care ya...=)
the days are getting shorter as the Singapore Airshow and the Career show is coming closer. I'm tired by mid day too. =)
CNY was ok for me. haven't checked the ang pows yet. will do so soon...hahaha...when i feel like it...=)
the main thing dispairing was that i can't go to service on sunday coz my relatives came to my home...so i had to be around. Also..on the same day...my mobile phone LED screen cracked internally while in my pocket....haiz...so the CNY $$ is gg to be chanelled to a new phone...
did spoil my sunday tho..hahaha...coz i couldn't sms or receive calls..=)
Anyway,..i went phone hunting and because i'm jsut less than a year into my contract...i have to 'lugi' abit...looking at the new phones...there are attractive factors..like samsung's 5Megapix slider phone with flash--so slim somemore..G600..but i need to get a 3G phone to enjoy an additional $120 rebate...and that is alot of $$
so i'm sticking back to my old phone...but trying to get the silver and black mixed version. Think i need to pray that the NEW stock singtel receives will have it! =)
plus point to sticking to my phone..i got xtra battery and additional charger..can leave one in the office lor..hahaha
anyway...in the meantime i'm still open to looking...=) though i've placed my order at the phone shop...
next on the news...i got a wireless modem router too...cost me $100..more $$ spent...but no choice..i had to get it due to some circumstances the decision was made fast..haha...so now my home has two wireless modems...stupid right...
but i let it rest lah..no point elaborating...
Ok..i should go...i'm actually very tired...but refusing to sleep...torturing thyself..haha...tomorrow is going to be another hectic day...alot to do...wonder if can ever finish..hahaha...oh wellz...i'm tired of even thinking about it...i am just enduring this...ahahha...
take care ya...=)
Friday, 8 February 2008
Photo blogging -- guilt driven but inspired by dear Angela's blog..haha..=P
Some might be wondering what have i been up to other than my rantings of work and spring cleaning...so i'll try to do a rough recap while sifting thru my phone in order to jog my memory...hahaha...bear with me..=) 
15th Dec...the taka tree...from left to right, Pam, Anna and Brid. I was standing behind and caught them admiring the tree...thought it would make a nice picture.
Top and Bottom...was at concourse with my junior..she was shopping for her christmas tree for her new home at redhill. I decided to entertain myself and i saw these cute reindeers all lined up..hahaha...the one above is an entire deer family!...it up to my eye level so it's tall! The ones below are about knee height.
This was christmas eve...was at AMK hub..to watch the movie National Treasure..yes...for those of you that know my 'pek chek' story...this was where it happened...anyway, an update for those who know the story---i finally did recatch it with my CGL about a 2 weeks later. I thought the snowman was so cute...haha...couldn't resist...=) Bowl took the photo!
Service Christmas celebration!! top left, one of my CG members, YZ...a sweet gal..=P
Trying to do an arty shot above...ok ok...come on lah..mobile phone camera can only do so much!!..hahaha...but Candlelight christmas service is something i look forward to...u see how nice it is below?
I was really excited the first time Pst announced it a few years back! He said he had always wanted one toos...=) Cools! It had always been one of my dreams to be standing in a sea of candles...it's like being surrounded by stars! Pretty!
Top and bottom: CG thanksgiving on the final thursday of 2007! At Settler's playing Jenga...top left to right...Fenny- our new cg addition from indonesia here for her sec 3 studies, literally given to us by god..haha...middle: Liyan- teaching in RP now...from China.. a real heart for others!..congrats he'll be getting married later this year!...Right: Emi - Nurse from India at TTSH...sincere and sweet..a heart for those ard her...=)
Top Right-- Jenny and...erm..haha..suddnely i can't remember her name...both from indonesia studying here toos....hahaha...indeed..a GLOBAL CG...hahaha..=) bros and sisters from everywhere!
Top: CG makan session after service at East Coast -- Kenny Rogers! Don't the plates look familiar? YUM!!!...hahahah....i packed 8 pax in the car i drove(excluding me!)...it was a slow drive!!..hahaha...
15th Dec...the taka tree...from left to right, Pam, Anna and Brid. I was standing behind and caught them admiring the tree...thought it would make a nice picture.
Top and Bottom...was at concourse with my junior..she was shopping for her christmas tree for her new home at redhill. I decided to entertain myself and i saw these cute reindeers all lined up..hahaha...the one above is an entire deer family!...it up to my eye level so it's tall! The ones below are about knee height.
This was christmas eve...was at AMK hub..to watch the movie National Treasure..yes...for those of you that know my 'pek chek' story...this was where it happened...anyway, an update for those who know the story---i finally did recatch it with my CGL about a 2 weeks later. I thought the snowman was so cute...haha...couldn't resist...=) Bowl took the photo!
Service Christmas celebration!! top left, one of my CG members, YZ...a sweet gal..=P
Trying to do an arty shot above...ok ok...come on lah..mobile phone camera can only do so much!!..hahaha...but Candlelight christmas service is something i look forward to...u see how nice it is below?
I was really excited the first time Pst announced it a few years back! He said he had always wanted one toos...=) Cools! It had always been one of my dreams to be standing in a sea of candles...it's like being surrounded by stars! Pretty!
Top and bottom: CG thanksgiving on the final thursday of 2007! At Settler's playing Jenga...top left to right...Fenny- our new cg addition from indonesia here for her sec 3 studies, literally given to us by god..haha...middle: Liyan- teaching in RP now...from China.. a real heart for others!..congrats he'll be getting married later this year!...Right: Emi - Nurse from India at TTSH...sincere and sweet..a heart for those ard her...=)
Top Right-- Jenny and...erm..haha..suddnely i can't remember her name...both from indonesia studying here toos....hahaha...indeed..a GLOBAL CG...hahaha..=) bros and sisters from everywhere!
Top: CG makan session after service at East Coast -- Kenny Rogers! Don't the plates look familiar? YUM!!!...hahahah....i packed 8 pax in the car i drove(excluding me!)...it was a slow drive!!..hahaha...
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