My sis is showering now...told her to go ahead first, because I'll take longer. Would want to soak my footie into warm water. =) so i though i'll take the opportunity to add an entry.
yesterday i started my first session on this electric theraphy for me foot. Thought to try it out isnce it supposedly cured this guy of his gout in a week. 15 free half hour sessions - having to sit there and put my foot on this machine that heats up the soles of my feet...basically sending bolts through my body....I dont' feel shocks...But just that the heat on the soles can be quite unbearable.
One of the recovery symptoms was that it would hurt more...and yes..it did! i couldn't put my foot down last night. it was as though it got worse! this morning it was very strained and i chose not to go to work. because it would be a struggle with the pain.
Still i went for another session today. How do i feel? not as bad as yesterday but not any better...sigh...
Tomorrow i will try having a go at it for a full hour.=)
There were quite a number of people there. they are nice lah....but one thing i really can't stand is to constantly have to tell people what it is when they ask...=S everyday it's different people!!
then when i'm on crutches and walking the streets, bored people watching will ask me if i fell...even the cab uncle wont' leave me alone..imagine..eveytime i take a cab...they ask me...then after that they will have this 'wisdom' and start sharing stories, and start making assumptions on what i like to eat etc.
So far all these days, the people whom i meet have said some of the following foods -- pig intestine, wine, peanuts, seafood, prawn, shellfish, pork, spinach, cauliflower. liver, broccoli, crab, beef --- these were thier own trigger foods ... none of them apply to me. But what to do?....i simply humour them...and give the same answer...."yes, i know...but it's not my problem. I do not have a trigger food."
It's precisely with these busybodies whom I know just care that irritate the hell out of me!!!!
Worse are those that say i should lose weight...try doing that in my condition --> not helpful.
sigh...
It's hard to stay positive when people bug you and you can't run..hahaha...ah well...today in the session, some of them were talking about having a positive mindset and keep believing you'll recover...
hmm...i try everyday really...I've forgotten how tiring it can be, and slipping into depression is the easiest thing. I believe I'm far from self pity, else I'll be crying every night.
But I'm simply frustrated that it's like a yo-yo and not recovering!! Growl...most nights i talk to my footie...telling it to get well and don't' give trouble...=)
The hardest is when it's late at night, and it hurts so much, you're awake and crying. There's no one to talk to to distract you...and even watching a video can only do so much...it's those times that feel the longest and that you just want it to be over...you come close to bargaining and begging god to take the pain away...and imagine bad things so that you can vent your energy on them to give you reprieve...you grit your teeth and close your eyes...occassionally glancing at the clock...falling in and out of consciousness and waiting for morning to come when your body is just too tired and you'll jsut fall asleep no matter how painful it is...
I lie in bed and think about going to the beach and walking on the sand...about watching any movie and eating hotdog and nachos. I wonder how much city hall and orchard has changed. i wonder how fashion has changed...I think about church and the new songs the congregation is singing...i think about prayer meetings...i think about the cg and how we always can't decide where to go after service and wonder if it is still the same...haha..I think about walking home with my good friend and just talking....I imagine myself in NYDC, Olio Dome, -- anywhere really...having appetising food and equally satisfying desserts...
...And of ocurse I think about where I went wrong to be in this state for so long...i was very careful -- i'm serious...previous times, i knew where i went wrong but still it recovered in a week...now...hmm...
alrite, i have to go...
Wednesday, 25 June 2008
Sunday, 22 June 2008
Whooooppeeee!!!
It is now 4.09am Singapore Time.(early sunday morning) I can't help thinking that it is friday night (because we worked full day today)....thus the need to 'chiong' the night with activities.
Ok ok...i can't 'chiong' with my foot in this condition, but i did some research and reading online. =)
It has been a long time since I last blogged proper. Sorry,... to be dead honest, i was partially waiting for me to heal, in fear that in my situation, the emotional baggage of going through this would naturally start rearing its ugly head!
I haven't recovered yet. But today,...hmm...I feel it's safe! =) And i'm ok to face things again.
Update on my car is -- It's coming next week! haiz...i think i may need to get someone to deliver it to me...the amount i need to pay is boggling man...on top of that, I need to fork out my first installment and soon the insurance as well -- and whatever here and there that has not been paid! Well, it is official then, my car will be the first time i'll be taking a loan in my life!...wooohooo...(dont' as me what with the chirpy tone...it's just me today..hahaha..)
Oh...Holland just scored and are drawing with Russia as i type..1-1!...hmm...i don't really track this round of Euro, but holland has been the favourite since thier impressive start games. It is surprising to see them 1-0 down to russia.
Today is my Assn's annual bowling tournament.=) Of course as with all my other events, i'm glad it's over. This year i wasn't so hands on...only planning and making sure certain things were in place/ the ball had started rolling and i could hand the checklist over to El to run. i think it was a good experience for her and things went as well as it could. Now with the total manpower strength increasing 100% since the last tourney, it indeed makes a difference.
Of course there were times i was stressed. -- it is still my responsibility!! Angela was on the sidelines reminding me not to get stressed...LOL...coz it makes my footy worse. =( haiya...until you run events, thre's never a moments peace! My boss was soooo 'comforting'...asked me what was wrong...(seeing my serious look) ...I said i'm trying to think if there's anythgin i've missed out....he said..at this time, there is nothing you can do...!!?!?...i think he got me wrong. (but i 'love' him enuff not to throttle him on the spot..ahhaha) You see, certain things are tiems sensitive even during an event. ie. tracking when certain things are happenign and ensuring that I'm ready when those activities are taking place. And if I'm not ready, i better start doing so....even while the event is running in the background.
=)..i'm rambling!..this is good...haiz...my foot..yes..it toook away my voice. =P
there were KFC meals distributed today. I'm happy that we could eat together side by side. I think it's impt we bond as a org these days. Expanding ain't easy...especially when i hope that everyone here will take pride in thier work and think for the associaton. I believe it helps bring us closer and work for the common goal. =) yes we work, but i want us to play while we work...=)
Me boss was making the effort to be ard too...poor guy, been going through a tough time with his daughter in hospital and himself with a flu too. he lost weight in a span of a week!!!
Though it was all largely work...Angela and me got to talking about how we're faring where we are...and the perceptions and plans we had for her prior to her joining the org...hahaha...and how God put everything....and i tell you it is really EVERYTHING together...=) it's interesting how i'm so open with her?...LOL...seriously...=P
i even told her flat out that i was learning how to 'read' her...haha...i mean how many people do you say that to?...most people would be unhappy to hear such news...but here she has the upper hand coz she has a poker face!!! sigh...
I should train her for the upcomign IR..indeed it will be a good investment!..hahaha...=)
Alrite i should go...I'll try to put up some bowling pics..and you can have a face to the names soooooonnnnnnnnnn!!!!!
OMG!! russia scored again...in overtime...oh my...there will be many sad orange faces....
Ok ok...i can't 'chiong' with my foot in this condition, but i did some research and reading online. =)
It has been a long time since I last blogged proper. Sorry,... to be dead honest, i was partially waiting for me to heal, in fear that in my situation, the emotional baggage of going through this would naturally start rearing its ugly head!
I haven't recovered yet. But today,...hmm...I feel it's safe! =) And i'm ok to face things again.
Update on my car is -- It's coming next week! haiz...i think i may need to get someone to deliver it to me...the amount i need to pay is boggling man...on top of that, I need to fork out my first installment and soon the insurance as well -- and whatever here and there that has not been paid! Well, it is official then, my car will be the first time i'll be taking a loan in my life!...wooohooo...(dont' as me what with the chirpy tone...it's just me today..hahaha..)
Oh...Holland just scored and are drawing with Russia as i type..1-1!...hmm...i don't really track this round of Euro, but holland has been the favourite since thier impressive start games. It is surprising to see them 1-0 down to russia.
Today is my Assn's annual bowling tournament.=) Of course as with all my other events, i'm glad it's over. This year i wasn't so hands on...only planning and making sure certain things were in place/ the ball had started rolling and i could hand the checklist over to El to run. i think it was a good experience for her and things went as well as it could. Now with the total manpower strength increasing 100% since the last tourney, it indeed makes a difference.
Of course there were times i was stressed. -- it is still my responsibility!! Angela was on the sidelines reminding me not to get stressed...LOL...coz it makes my footy worse. =( haiya...until you run events, thre's never a moments peace! My boss was soooo 'comforting'...asked me what was wrong...(seeing my serious look) ...I said i'm trying to think if there's anythgin i've missed out....he said..at this time, there is nothing you can do...!!?!?...i think he got me wrong. (but i 'love' him enuff not to throttle him on the spot..ahhaha) You see, certain things are tiems sensitive even during an event. ie. tracking when certain things are happenign and ensuring that I'm ready when those activities are taking place. And if I'm not ready, i better start doing so....even while the event is running in the background.
=)..i'm rambling!..this is good...haiz...my foot..yes..it toook away my voice. =P
there were KFC meals distributed today. I'm happy that we could eat together side by side. I think it's impt we bond as a org these days. Expanding ain't easy...especially when i hope that everyone here will take pride in thier work and think for the associaton. I believe it helps bring us closer and work for the common goal. =) yes we work, but i want us to play while we work...=)
Me boss was making the effort to be ard too...poor guy, been going through a tough time with his daughter in hospital and himself with a flu too. he lost weight in a span of a week!!!
Though it was all largely work...Angela and me got to talking about how we're faring where we are...and the perceptions and plans we had for her prior to her joining the org...hahaha...and how God put everything....and i tell you it is really EVERYTHING together...=) it's interesting how i'm so open with her?...LOL...seriously...=P
i even told her flat out that i was learning how to 'read' her...haha...i mean how many people do you say that to?...most people would be unhappy to hear such news...but here she has the upper hand coz she has a poker face!!! sigh...
I should train her for the upcomign IR..indeed it will be a good investment!..hahaha...=)
Alrite i should go...I'll try to put up some bowling pics..and you can have a face to the names soooooonnnnnnnnnn!!!!!
OMG!! russia scored again...in overtime...oh my...there will be many sad orange faces....
Friday, 20 June 2008
Still hobbling...
Am on crtuches these days...=(
today is the one month anniversary!! Sniffs...
oh well...but i'm really grateful and thankful for my colleagues who have given me love, support and prayer! =)
today is the one month anniversary!! Sniffs...
oh well...but i'm really grateful and thankful for my colleagues who have given me love, support and prayer! =)
Tuesday, 10 June 2008
Sunday, 25 May 2008
Wednesday, 21 May 2008
stressed brain ranting again...
I am so stressed my thoughts are at a standstill these days. ARGH!!! It's as though i physcially have to make the effort to block out the pressures caving in my mind...haiz...
I miss Uni days...still do..CERTAIN PARTS. haha...quickly put the disclaimer. =)
But yes, somethings back then were good times when you look back now. So much hope, so much promise, so much could happen ahead....so many unknowns...so much to believe in and so much we hung on to.
It isn't so bad now really...=) things could be a lot worse. hee...still thankful for what I have now.
But really, after working even in one org for a few years. All we ever learned in our schooling youth...out here...some ball games are different. =)
God help me keep my hopes up and to look forward to what is ahead!
I miss Uni days...still do..CERTAIN PARTS. haha...quickly put the disclaimer. =)
But yes, somethings back then were good times when you look back now. So much hope, so much promise, so much could happen ahead....so many unknowns...so much to believe in and so much we hung on to.
It isn't so bad now really...=) things could be a lot worse. hee...still thankful for what I have now.
But really, after working even in one org for a few years. All we ever learned in our schooling youth...out here...some ball games are different. =)
God help me keep my hopes up and to look forward to what is ahead!
Monday, 19 May 2008
If I had $3k more...
I'd spend it on the cool but very useless in singapore weather -- sky/moon roof on my Fit!...argh!..=)
Ok, i'm just bit tired...tomorrow is a public holiday...my stomach is still burning from th curry at dinner and it's very uncomfortable..so am awake and entertaining myself.
Ok, i'm just bit tired...tomorrow is a public holiday...my stomach is still burning from th curry at dinner and it's very uncomfortable..so am awake and entertaining myself.
Saturday, 17 May 2008
Oh, forgot to clear some puzzles from my previous posts...
Sorry guys...forgot to clear the puzzles!
Bro Shen...it's not Can Make it Associate..haha..tho i was thinking of that too...very good guess though.....heeheee....it's Coporate & Membership Affairs. =) that is a fancy name for administrator lah...and taking care of my orgs members lor..=)
SJE4N
Looks like my name is you take away the S and see the '4' as an 'A'...=)
Car number plates -- u may see some around now...start with 'SJE' jsut released not too long ago..maybe in March??
so SJE series..with number '4' and last letter 'N'...make my name! cool hor..hahaha..=P
Bro Shen...it's not Can Make it Associate..haha..tho i was thinking of that too...very good guess though.....heeheee....it's Coporate & Membership Affairs. =) that is a fancy name for administrator lah...and taking care of my orgs members lor..=)
SJE4N
Looks like my name is you take away the S and see the '4' as an 'A'...=)
Car number plates -- u may see some around now...start with 'SJE' jsut released not too long ago..maybe in March??
so SJE series..with number '4' and last letter 'N'...make my name! cool hor..hahaha..=P
The REAL colour of the car!
Hi guys...seems like the real colour of my car is on the pic on the right side now!..haha...aiyah...I didnt' expect the brochure to be so zun! seems that the previous picture i put was the sport version for the honda fit.
ANYWAY...i realised this was truly the colour when my boss drove past a parked version of it at Eunos MRT car park! Man...it was a bright blue!!...OK OK...it will grow on me...besides..it's really a unique blue -- and that was what i was looking for toos. =) Thank God it wasn't like the Comfort cab blue...i will die k...people flagging down my car...hahaha...=) maybe hor...then i can charge them..starting $3.00 now leh!! good $$ to make on the side!
Actually there is a blue i really like...but yet to find a car that manufactures it...oh wells..that would really be the dream car colour!
I walked ard that parked car to peek into it! Next to it was a red version! so qiao!...so i got to compare them...red getting common lah....but seriously...ONE thing i have to agree with my boss...i'll never have a problem finding my car in a car park! hahaha...
Today read the newspaper that Kah Motors (the sole agent for Honda in Singapore) has 'released' the new Jazz 2008 for booking..but actual delivery at the end of the year....Hmmmm.....one thing...I can't take it!!!....there are some Specs that are better than my FIT! ...ROOOOAARRRRR!!!!! =(
Not only that...the price leh!!! It seems to be LOWER! GRRRR....not that much diff lah...but to get from agent has some advantages in the case for warranty...hmmm....BUT...it also depends on the kind of financial rates that the agent forces u to take -- the eventual price may actually be bad.. (ie. my experience with the mazda side what they publish..is the low low rate...but...lotsa conditions on the side by whcih eventually u pay a higher price in the long run.)
Those who are not familiar with cars amy be wondering what i'm talking about...you see...the Honda Fit = Honda Jazz....Yep!....the different names it's because in Japan they call it Fit and when they export, to countries like the Little Red Dot, they call it a jazz...there is NOT supposed to be any major differences lor....but it seems this round the Fit =/= Jazz...unlike the earlier versions...
thus when you see a Fit on the road..it is an import. (like mine)....=)
OK OK... i shall erase from memory..just spent the past hour reading forums about people making the comparision, and checking out the car webpages...to find out exactly the difference...=)
aiyah..won't die one lah...life is not about regrets. Technology is always improving...a year from now, whether it is a jazz of my fit...we'll both be obsolete!..hahaha... I'm still happy. =)
Just that maybe gotta spend some $$ improving some peripherals. =)
Oh, i got to ride in my bosses new car too..barely 2 days old...the one he bought for his wife (previously was an Alfa romeo). The new Opel Astra...it's a convertible leh!...cool!...=) too bad that day raining, else can try out!...but we're all saying next day we'll head to the airport runway road and test it out! (next to our office only mah!)...woohooo!!!
His kids called it a transformer! and were making a hooha of it during the family ride it seems...hahaha...kids are cute...LOL!
ANYWAY...i realised this was truly the colour when my boss drove past a parked version of it at Eunos MRT car park! Man...it was a bright blue!!...OK OK...it will grow on me...besides..it's really a unique blue -- and that was what i was looking for toos. =) Thank God it wasn't like the Comfort cab blue...i will die k...people flagging down my car...hahaha...=) maybe hor...then i can charge them..starting $3.00 now leh!! good $$ to make on the side!
Actually there is a blue i really like...but yet to find a car that manufactures it...oh wells..that would really be the dream car colour!
I walked ard that parked car to peek into it! Next to it was a red version! so qiao!...so i got to compare them...red getting common lah....but seriously...ONE thing i have to agree with my boss...i'll never have a problem finding my car in a car park! hahaha...
Today read the newspaper that Kah Motors (the sole agent for Honda in Singapore) has 'released' the new Jazz 2008 for booking..but actual delivery at the end of the year....Hmmmm.....one thing...I can't take it!!!....there are some Specs that are better than my FIT! ...ROOOOAARRRRR!!!!! =(
Not only that...the price leh!!! It seems to be LOWER! GRRRR....not that much diff lah...but to get from agent has some advantages in the case for warranty...hmmm....BUT...it also depends on the kind of financial rates that the agent forces u to take -- the eventual price may actually be bad.. (ie. my experience with the mazda side what they publish..is the low low rate...but...lotsa conditions on the side by whcih eventually u pay a higher price in the long run.)
Those who are not familiar with cars amy be wondering what i'm talking about...you see...the Honda Fit = Honda Jazz....Yep!....the different names it's because in Japan they call it Fit and when they export, to countries like the Little Red Dot, they call it a jazz...there is NOT supposed to be any major differences lor....but it seems this round the Fit =/= Jazz...unlike the earlier versions...
thus when you see a Fit on the road..it is an import. (like mine)....=)
OK OK... i shall erase from memory..just spent the past hour reading forums about people making the comparision, and checking out the car webpages...to find out exactly the difference...=)
aiyah..won't die one lah...life is not about regrets. Technology is always improving...a year from now, whether it is a jazz of my fit...we'll both be obsolete!..hahaha... I'm still happy. =)
Just that maybe gotta spend some $$ improving some peripherals. =)
Oh, i got to ride in my bosses new car too..barely 2 days old...the one he bought for his wife (previously was an Alfa romeo). The new Opel Astra...it's a convertible leh!...cool!...=) too bad that day raining, else can try out!...but we're all saying next day we'll head to the airport runway road and test it out! (next to our office only mah!)...woohooo!!!
His kids called it a transformer! and were making a hooha of it during the family ride it seems...hahaha...kids are cute...LOL!
Friday, 9 May 2008
so what have i been up to?
The weeks feel like they fly by, I used to log on my blog daily and stare at the screen to ask myself if I feel liek adding a post! These days, i even forget to log in! =)
No prizes for guessing what I've been busy with. But I'm alright, just need to enlarge and depend on God for it all. Perpetually tired now and past two days I have problems sleeping till about 6am. =( Not good for the next day.
Anyway, following up from my last post, as announced to some cellgroups and friends, I've committed to get my car. Yep! Signed on the dotted line and it's a Honda Fit 2008 - the new one. I've gone for the sky blue colour.
I see some eyes rolling.."What, that car?!...but so common...it doesn't look that cool..."....
Honestly, those were the factors that i thought about. However, practical reasons swam in my mind for many weeks. As much as I like the mazda 2...i just didn't like sitting in it and couldnt' imagine spending more than 3 hours in there, let alone try to fit my friends into that space. hahaha...
there were other cheaper options with a higher 1.6L engine (mine is a 1.3L) like the mitsubishi lancer...but...hmm...fuel effiiciency...the fit beats all other cars, unless they are hybrid cars..
Whatever it is, i decided, one thing is going to increase for sure is fuel prices. So to arrest that issue from the start is key. =)
Anyway, no point going round and round, the choice is made and I am still ahppy about it thank god! Not suffering from any buyer's remorse YET...let's see how it goes when the car comes --- June Delivery!
I just went to look at the COE prices. man they dropped low this month! to $11,009!! that is really very very low. But I'm ok lah,...getting low COE also means in the long run your COE rebates are lower especially if you want to change your car later. =)
I'm honestly already very thankful that I secured my COE at a drop phase rather than when it was rising. exactly one month ago..COE were at a high at $16.9K...if I got the car then, I would have lost over a thousand bucks!
thank God, when i bidded for mine, it dropped to $15.6K...which is good enough as i didn't have to add more cash to meet the price. =) Gotta thank my dear friend bowl for praying for me too...i know..i was terrible..she was fasting and I said.."sun4 bian4" ah....hahahaha...I mean, we all know yeah, prayer with fasting, more power! heee...=P
Getting the car will have a strong effect on my cash flow really...Will have to be more cautious for the coming year...but all into consideration liao. I'm leaving it in to God's hands. =)
More updates when i can!...as for the small viewership that reads my blog..thanks for stopping by and updating yourself on my life...your few minutes spent reading here is much appreciated by me...=) thank you for loving me enough to give me a part of your life....
Then again...you could just be a kaypo!! hahaha....but I choose to think otherwise..hee...
Have a great day!
No prizes for guessing what I've been busy with. But I'm alright, just need to enlarge and depend on God for it all. Perpetually tired now and past two days I have problems sleeping till about 6am. =( Not good for the next day.
Anyway, following up from my last post, as announced to some cellgroups and friends, I've committed to get my car. Yep! Signed on the dotted line and it's a Honda Fit 2008 - the new one. I've gone for the sky blue colour.
I see some eyes rolling.."What, that car?!...but so common...it doesn't look that cool..."....
Honestly, those were the factors that i thought about. However, practical reasons swam in my mind for many weeks. As much as I like the mazda 2...i just didn't like sitting in it and couldnt' imagine spending more than 3 hours in there, let alone try to fit my friends into that space. hahaha...
there were other cheaper options with a higher 1.6L engine (mine is a 1.3L) like the mitsubishi lancer...but...hmm...fuel effiiciency...the fit beats all other cars, unless they are hybrid cars..
Whatever it is, i decided, one thing is going to increase for sure is fuel prices. So to arrest that issue from the start is key. =)
Anyway, no point going round and round, the choice is made and I am still ahppy about it thank god! Not suffering from any buyer's remorse YET...let's see how it goes when the car comes --- June Delivery!
I just went to look at the COE prices. man they dropped low this month! to $11,009!! that is really very very low. But I'm ok lah,...getting low COE also means in the long run your COE rebates are lower especially if you want to change your car later. =)
I'm honestly already very thankful that I secured my COE at a drop phase rather than when it was rising. exactly one month ago..COE were at a high at $16.9K...if I got the car then, I would have lost over a thousand bucks!
thank God, when i bidded for mine, it dropped to $15.6K...which is good enough as i didn't have to add more cash to meet the price. =) Gotta thank my dear friend bowl for praying for me too...i know..i was terrible..she was fasting and I said.."sun4 bian4" ah....hahahaha...I mean, we all know yeah, prayer with fasting, more power! heee...=P
Getting the car will have a strong effect on my cash flow really...Will have to be more cautious for the coming year...but all into consideration liao. I'm leaving it in to God's hands. =)
More updates when i can!...as for the small viewership that reads my blog..thanks for stopping by and updating yourself on my life...your few minutes spent reading here is much appreciated by me...=) thank you for loving me enough to give me a part of your life....
Then again...you could just be a kaypo!! hahaha....but I choose to think otherwise..hee...
Have a great day!
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