Doggie Walk

500th!

2011-11-14T01:24:00.002+08:00

...500th post, that is. =)

I have nothing much to say today really. Heh...am just here to be thankful for a good weekend.

Even though I barely slept 2 hours on Friday night, I had a surprisingly energised saturday that went well doing the route trials, and a half hour nap. And even though traffic was bad a we ended up at the art science museum later than expected. There was even time to try out a new burger joint, catch the Dali exhibition, enjoy the cool weather and have a first time tea experience. =)

Sunday was a good day too! Good atmosphere at home and kick back my shoes to watch the most boring race on the calendar (coz of the track)...but good to see Vettel get a puncture at Turn 1 *cackle*..nothing against him..but everyone is just looking for a change. (Alonso came in 2nd behind Hami)

So yeah....a good weekend. And I give thanks to God for it. =D

26 Sept 2011 - 8.50 to 8.55pm

2011-10-08T02:20:00.007+08:00

After looping round and round the esplanade to marina bay sands area, I thank God He led me to try the car park...and so 'zun' it's the carpark that ritz carlton tied up with (tie up with millenia building) during the F1 race, as thier regualr entrance is closed off...

Would seriously have been hard to find, and if I was a little later having to do another loop, I woul have missed the opportunity!

Never been to Ritz before. Came out fo the lift...lost at the lobby, and tried to figure out where is the real main lobby/ reception (they had a few desks.)

Quickly figured out the main lobby and saw some people with ferrari bags. Confirmed that he wasn't there. At that time, I spun around to head back to where I exited the lift, to see someone pulling a ferrari trolly bag...red red ...hah....only saw his back...but it was him!!! wahahhaha...

Couldn't get a clear shot, coz had to take with no flash. He peered over his shoulder and i know he was looking in my direction. And kept turning to look over...I think he realised..jialat..got fan around..hahaha..I was the only one. I think he was surprised to see someone there i guess, What are the chances! hahaha...

I tell you..i started getting really nervous...haven't felt this way in ages...its a different kind of nervous..

I waited patiently from a distance though, I didn't want to be pushy, coz you can just blow it. So I felt, just wait till his free and I think ultimately he appreciated it.

I positioned myself where he had to walk past me to get to the main door. He started approaching me, when the hotel staff called him aside to sign something for the hotel...aiyo...

But when he came back by, I asked him nicely if I could take a pic and autograph...

I was just way too nervous to shake his hand or something...

I've heard he talks soft...and he did..and just said..."take..take..." in a little hurried and cheen chai attitude. Cool thing was he got his friend to help us take the shot. =)

After the shot, I said me thanks. He started walking off ...so I walked up beside him and asked if he could give me an autograph, whipping out his cap from my side bag.

He paused to look at the cap a moment, then his body language kinda indicated he was open to sign as he turned to the side...I gave him my marker and held on to the cap. He signed and returned me the pen...

One thing I appreciated was that he didnt' give an unhappy look when I asked for the autograph, and he also made sure he did a good autograph, gripping the cap and signing it slowly. Thinking back, I should've grabbed the opportunity to ask him to add my name! hahaha... I will never sell it! Might as well personalise it!!

Walking on, I said.."Thanks Fernando! Have a good trip!"

Still walking on , he semi turned and nodded absently, with a soft. "yeah..thanks.."

I was still in a I can't believe it state...heh...watching him leave pretty fast with the group.

Took me a long while to recover from the severe butterflies and warm nervousness..I felt as though I was in a dream..LOL. simply because it all happend so fast. I left home at 8.20pm, and in less than an hour..it all happened!

I guess after watching so many videos of hoards of fans approaching, yelling his name for some 'time'/ pic/ autograph...and he's rushing from place to place, you just think you have this super slim chance of even getting a decent time without being shoved.

And here, one to one!...sure..it was rushed...but I was the ONLY ONE!

heee...

after that was =( that I didn't pursue the VIP terminal access...heard he hung around there a good half hour. Oh well, I though he would jsut rush through it..

my prize!!! Pic with Fernando! Awesome! Just sad the hotel lobby so dark...so gotta have flash..=)

Sigh....I can't believe at 1230pm...

2011-09-14T02:24:00.002+08:00

...I heard such information...

It's 225am now...and I'm still thinking about it...

If I'd known...I'd have bought something solid to prepare for it...

Arhhhh...it still bites me up inside!

It's about Ferrari and they are coming to SG...more than Ferrari it is SPECIFIC TO FERARRI...

Raaarrr...

Over the Top

2011-08-18T00:38:00.003+08:00

These days if I ever think of my pops, I somehow end up watching the movie Over the Top starring Sylvester Stallone.

I dunno why...

Maybe it's coz I remember that pops used to like the show alot, or maybe some of the principles in the show is something that I could imagine him saying...heh..

Watching it again now that I'm older, I guess I understand why he likes the show...it probably gives him a booster ...because it focus' on the simple things of good character, integrity, learning from mistakes and a determined heart. it probably also gives him cheer that in the show, the one's with the wealth and riches just "don't get it". That was my pops coz he went through the same 'class' system feel.

You can see alot of 'probably' and 'maybe' in my last few sentences...becasue i've never got to ask about it I guess.

Anyway...I've always said this..and I recognise it...

It is ironic that some 'views' of life he pointed out to me as a child, I still remember well and are views that keep me grounded and tougher...and I have spent less than half my life with him.

I thank God I remember the views that were good and not warped..

If you've never watched the movie before. You should. There is some cheesy acting and quite impossible. But the heart is there. You can find it on youtube. Type 'ottp 1' for part one in the search field...it's short for the movie name, and you'll see the rest of the movie linked up too.

I have to say it's a great Father's Day movie. =)

Just watched...

2011-07-20T01:44:00.003+08:00

months ago, i watch Toy Story 3 the movie. Finally got around watching it, coz I guess, I was afraid it would not be as good as the previous ones, and since it was to be the last, I didn't want to leave a bad memory on 'heart' behind Toy Story.

The final scene left me crying in my room, minutes into the end credits. =')

It's lovely.

I just found it online again and rewatched it.

And I still cry.

Pixar is amazing. They managed to capture NOTHING ABOUT THE FACT...that it's about the characters or whether you're a fan of toy story...or even whether you knwo the story or not.

It captured your childhood. As long as you were a child with imagination and 'play time'....you would completely feel for the final 5 mins.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2vr0M7jhRk

Over 3 movies, Andy the owner of the toys has grown up and going to college and even though he's older, a part of him is sentimetal and remembers the joy these toys had broought to his life, even though now he has to move on.

I CRIED AGAIN>...LOL

I'm a hopeless but happy sop. =)

2011-07-08T02:10:00.002+08:00

I took some action since my last post the net day. After a talk that decided on a form of confrontation. It was not what I hoped it would be...but other ways were just too unacceptable for me.

It was a happier day, not coz of the talk...but that there was no need to have to tolerate for several hours and spoiling my mood. It is sad it has reached this stage...but deep in me, I know it is a point of no return on some levels. Can't be entrusted.

However I awoke this morning and since yesterday's realisation that it's a point of no return, I also decided to give another week or more time. But a very reserved time. ie. deciding that there is nothing worth going for anymore and will not deserve anythg more than the cold way it has been treated.

Today is boss' beeday. =) I think the celebration went awesome. simple but fun and got all involved. Hope he likes the purple ipad cover. Thank god i don't own one...else I'd probably have a hard time parting with it! LOL.

Boss loves purple....correction..royal purple...so we filled a box of purple gifts for him..hahah..we made him way a birthday boy hat too..hee...=)

Too bad no time to upload the photo. heh...

Another time ya!

He's a great towkay. Who can cause pain, and joy...hahaha...=)

2011-07-06T04:08:00.002+08:00

It's 4am....

Am glad class 95 after so many years hasn't changed and still provides the right solace for so many many years...

Radio is a friend. Music tells you how old you are in a good way....

You realise that so many times in life you are up at this time with the radio on...at so many junctures of your life...

As you get older, you grow wiser and know it will pass with unlike the earlier dispair that you would entrnech yourself in your much younger youth...when it seems there is no way out.

If only the wisdom takes away the emotions ...and not exercise heart conditioning...

Wow....

2011-07-01T01:17:00.002+08:00

has it been that long since I last put up a post/ comment?...hmmm...i don't think there is any particular reason, just probably uninspired.

Unfortunaly I had no where else to go except here to complain...I am angry...no...angry seems abit harsh at this very moment..however i am very pissed. Pissed enough to pick a fight if I wanted to.

Sick and tired of selfishness, childishness and the like.

The emotional drain on this is getting worse and I wish in all wishes that I could choose not to give a damn about it.

I am very aware of my emotions and know that my patience has worn thin. It's reaching a bloody month for goodness sake.

People haev remarked before that I'm patient accomodating...balh blah blah...however...therein lies the danger where it builds up. And i move from calm to violent with no in between. Things tend to break and I'll be glad to undust my dictionary of epithets.

I learned of this in sperate incidents of injuring my hand, breaking a door and table.

I seriously wish I can be equally selfish.

What a F***** hyprocrite.

Only two words seem to come up these days, hyprocite and selfish.

Sigh...the thing that makes me pissed more than the aspect of selfish and F*** hyprocrite...is that I feel like shit for wasting my emotions and energy being pissed...when ultimately it was caused by a selfish shit and f**** hypocrite...

U can see that I'm refraining from using words from the 'dictionary'...If I start...I fear I can't stop.

I presently jsut want to walk away.

I saw once .....and I saw it again on the net...my toes are wriggling now...I want a fivefingers shoeeee....

2011-03-17T02:29:00.001+08:00

2011-02-26T17:35:00.002+08:00

....superbly depressed to be reminded how much I love to hate accounting...

A way...

2011-02-25T02:36:00.003+08:00

...............2.36am....and I have to wake in 3 hours to do a little more...and need to be in teh office by 830.

How is it possible that no matter how much you try to speed up...it doen'st seem to move as fast as you'd want to...

God I pray for strength and endurance for all of us, and a whole load of favour...loads of it please. Please more than we can ever ask or imagine. i know I'm screwing up a whole way with you, but yet, i pray your grace and mercy will not be withheld because of me.

I pray for an open heaven. ....wow...i suddenly can still remember one of the ways to open heaven and release the promises. I dunno why i'm making that last statement about remembering..hahaha...ok I'm sorry, i really shoudl go shower and sleep.

Nite nites...

Spent 3 hours

2011-02-13T20:08:00.002+08:00

and made a small dent in my room clean up. Hmmm...

I threw away all the CHC mags, some sling bags that i'll never use again and a pile of other stuff that will go to the salvation army. Still couldn't bear to throw the entry tickets for paris...=) oh wellllll....

I worked on the table area that I tend to just let things stack. Realised that it doesn't have that much rubbish (must have cleared it some time ago), only that I have alot of bulky things. hmm...

Lots more to do.

This is just the beginning. Many sections of the room to handle.

I wisely stopped at 6pm. =) and restacked everything back.

So i still have some down time to me self. =)

Later need to drop by salvation army...=)

The past 2 weekends...

2011-02-13T04:02:00.000+08:00

I've had this rather uncontrollable urge to just throw away everything in my room. Don't even bother to think or re-arrange. (ie. what goes to salvation etc.) just throw.

Coz when I consider salvation army (ther than clothes) i think I will hesitate.

I dunno why I feel this way. Maybe coz i'm sick of my room being the mess state it is, plus no room for new things or a revamp of my room if I want to.

Just around christmas I tried doing some clearing...but ended up 'thinking' too much and led to hesitation and eventual....'let's do something else..this ain't fun.."

hahaha

But how impt is it to keep some history? I mean...really do we look back at physical memories? I'm not talking about photos/ sch stuff (kept and sealed liao) or gifts from friends. More like, hmmm...ticket stubs to a musical, old CHC special magazines, that can no longer be found. Sea shells (that still look nice) you picked up at a resort holiday by the beach.

How about my Man U magazine collection and cards, (incomplete so useless in the mkt) that I saved up my pocket $$ just to buy when i was in sch...

A box of ad hoc wrapping paper..for emergency use...my paper that i bought for artwork. Used some (and mybe i can keep the rest for another time?...

You know, those kind of things...haiz...

I mean, seriously, I see mountains growing around me, buy i only use a good 5% of it. Barely touching or refering to the rest.

HOW....=(

I guess am afraid to throw something I miss/ would be impt to me in future..

But I don't even think about them 99% of the time so why bother?

there are some other things I jsut go buy. Like the gazillion shampoo/ moisturisers samples, that i've kept (and are now probably expired..hahaha...(to even have to through through those to find one tht hasnt'?)....If i need I'll just go buy lor.

HOW...=S

If only i can just rip out my heart and throw EVERYTHG.

growl...I just need a bag and sweep everythg in can?...eeeps...

I need some courage...a strange kind of courage.

Help!

Shall I jsut do it tomorrow?...get the ball going?

Clear up space in my room..then get a flat screen TV...bwahahha...

meeeeps/....

Berlin wall...

2011-02-13T03:56:00.001+08:00

If you just look in the middle, it's like a scene out of a movie. I dodnt take many shots at the airshow ground. It was just most unpleasant and warm. No, warm is an understatement. It's like Singapore weather with no ventilation. Urgh.

After boss arrive in day two, having settled his Jam stuff in another part of europe, we spent out first night out looking for the casino, which he said was the biggest in Europe.

Guess what we stumbled upon the berlin wall....heee...all thanks to jeano's great eyesight. =P

Testing of boss' photgraphy skills.

Right outside the trainstaion Potsdamer. These are of course deliberately set up back on site. The origianls were removed to be detroyed. But only later did they think that some should remain. Not many whole pieces have been left. So if you're at a Berlin gift shop, chances are, there a small vial with a chuch of coloured conrete which they claim is part of the berlin wall. (hmmmmm.....)

I took this phot coz i wanted to show ge how gross a collection over years of bubble gum looks like...very colourful..and OMG

The historical markers on the ground, like a line drawing out the berlin wall location.

Opposite the Casino, the Blue Man group theatre! Too exp lah...so never went to see..

OK, it's not as big as I thought it would be, but it's about hmm....4 storeys, with an area of a basket ball court. As I brought his up as a conversation with my boss, we realised that maybe the casinos in europe are mostly old ones, so they never built MEGA ones back then. Hence, this would make sense to be the biggest.

Anyway, like I said, not many pics of the airshow. On this day where the pic was taken was my only Free whole day in Berlin, (Boss and mel lfet early this morning.) and I went to something like their City Hall

I snuck in a quick photo of these guys. If you want a shot with them, I think $$ is involved. A free donation, in the chest on the floor. I didnt need one lah, But I thought it was cool, it's thier old military uniforms. =)

This is the Brandenburger Tor. ('Tor' I gathered, meant gate. It was the site of celebrations when the Berlin wall came down and throwing you back even further in time, when Napolean lead his victorius troops marching in.

a nice torust heloing me out the take a pic after seeing me struggle many time to get a shot in, in the DIY fashion. hhahaha

The next decent historical buidling is about a 5 minute walk away. the Reichstag buildt in 1884(aka Paliamentry house). Can't go in without paying, and the details was that since its in use, you can only go to the modern wings. (which are made of glass walkways)

I learned from my recent course research (which I chose to write about hitler) was that it was here that in one of his attempts to take control of germany, he stormed in and held governers hostage.

These carved out panels flank the main entrance.

There were many tourists, but the square was big enough not to be crowded. I picked a spot to sit and just soak up some sun and atmosphere. It was near the front door.

A man who stood beside a bicycle, watched me for a while, then came up to me and started chatting. I acted not too interested. But he was more keen to find out if I was from China or one other country that I can't recall now.

When I said no, and said singapore, he repeated his question, and looked abit stumped when I still said no...hahaha...probably thinks it's in China, and that I didnt' hear him properly. he still looked unconvinced. Anyway, am still alone, so didn't want to too friendly so I acted disinterested.

He hung around abit, looked like he was trying to do some survey or something, but I didnt see him approach anyone else. (most people there looked local/ ang mo or asian folks huddled in the safety of their tour groups.

Eventually, he moved a to another spot at the square.

As I walked back to the Branderburg Tor, a small crowd gathered on the far end of the Reichstag. Some filming was taking place. The lady in the pciture is part of the show, and she is to just sit there and watch.

since everything was in german, so I had no clue.

But i guessed it was a priviledged moment, so I stayed, coz i seems like the locals knew who this guy was, who was performing songs, singing...

and taking the strangest things out of his attache case...LOL

It was a short filming and everyone whooped and clapped when the filming ended, and he said a graceful thank you. =)

Singaporean Bands...

2011-02-10T01:46:00.004+08:00

Somehow...in my random surfing of songs that bring back memories on youtube, i started down a path of home grown talent...

When I first heard Tanya Chua's - My Colour TV Set, (can't remember how long ago) I thought I was listening to something from the Cardigans. =)

I didn't like Tanya though. Call me rebel I was in Sec two. Lizards Convention stole my heart with thier version of Elvis' Wooden Heart. (which i still play in my car OK!)

I think someone should just compile all the best SG songs since the 90s. It would be a nice album.

Like Lizards Convention, The watchmen (My one and only), electronic (for you), radioactive...mmm...and the one song that in naive years of my youth, I truly believed there was hope for Singapore bands..LOL...so much talent...so littel support..haiz..If anyone remembers Kick! who sang "Jane", you are definitely MY GENERATION...wahahhaa...

I mean, defintely if you know John Klass the DJ, who's the lead singer..=)

It sounds so cheezy now, but I can't belive someone actually found the music video lor! It's on youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhV0dbdVJQ

Wow...and just suddenly my brain remembers all the names, - Humpback Oak, Padres, Concave scream...The stoned revivals, the oddfellows. (I dunno why they pick such names lor...trying to be like metallica? hehehe...I guess it was cool)

hahaha...Frankly I don't like their songs that much. But hey...Hoooray for Singapore! =)

2011-02-04T03:32:00.005+08:00

I held back for just over a month to open one of my xmas pressies where when i put it up against the light, I knew what it was already, and told myself...cannot open the package...else..i won't stop...so saved it for a time i could 'enjoy it'....heee

He takes super long just to write one book. *faint* especially now that he's popular it takes even longer than ever becasue he's so busy...growl...almsot one year one book...

can you imagine, I read 6 sacred stones in my phuket trip in 2009 and I've held back till now to devour the 5 greatest warriors..and... *gasp* no more after this!...till end 2011 which mean reach SG in early 2012!!!...Noooo!!!

Matthew Reillyyyyyy....I dunno why i like to read his books when it's like the ramblings of a child describing an adventure!...hehehe...but..the adventure is just so so fun!!! And so so impossibly out of this world!

But still can't compare to JD Robb lah =) her books are real treats!

which..*snigger*..I've got Baboon addicted to them...since a year back..=P I changed a skeptic! bwahahaha

Waiting for my Chu Qian Yi Ding to cook...

2011-01-11T01:40:00.002+08:00

I beat zzz monsters tonight. Though with questionable productivity. I believe I have only written a quarter of a page the last 2-3 hours. Thanks to Whiskey who's bugging Red again and whining all night. So i literally get out of my seat to shut him up every 4- 5mins.

Looking at the time frame, i can only afford a day or max two more to finish up this assignment. As it is, I just looked back at what I wrote 2 pages back and it's so disconnected lor...=(

Haiz...I need to shit out the content I'm pleased with then do the structuring at the end. Prayerfully, whatevefr content I'm hammering together will not need so much disconstructing, orbe useless in the final outcome.

That leaves me with less than 8 days for the other assignment that I've yet to even think a 'poof' of a thought bubble about. I decided distraction is not the way to go. So focus is better in order to get it out like a irritating pest.

My colleague declared today she is going to ask for an extention. As tempting as it is. I trust I will not. I cannot afford the time, nor do I want to endure this irkish feelign any longer.

20 Jan is the deadline.

raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrr...

okie...*sniff sniff*...da noodles smell cooked...

Time for some youtube + Chu Qian Yi Ding! hee...

Another assignment was given out today... =S

2010-12-29T05:46:00.003+08:00

Chewing of nails....

2010-12-28T03:05:00.002+08:00

..almost non-stop since 12mn, and well...for the earlier part of today.

It's like this when I'm trying to focus on work. I don't know if it's an anxiety thing or it helps me to think. I just suddenly catch myself biting again even though I distinctly remembering stopping only moements ago...hee....

It's now 3am, so I'm taking a break...

I'm on to my last assignment of my module (hopefully the last, but will take it as it is...)

But believe it or not, I haven't written a single word of the expected 2500 essay.

I had decided to give myself a break from the Grad Dip work till Christmas day. So it was only yesterday I got down to taking a good look at the question. It's not a hard one. It's straightforward but the more you think about it, you start to realise that there are several challenges.

It's the kind of question, pretty much like a GP paper, where, with one's opinion, experience and observation you are able to answer. So good and simple right?

However, it soon dawned on me that a solid paper would have to be one with wider reading and referencing to journals and articles. Not the self opined sputterings of a 31 year old.

Thank God a swift decision was made while sitting on the loo bowl at 1500h on sunday, that given the context of the question, there is no need to plunge into hardcopy boooks from the library as per my previous modules, and a focus on online materials should be sufficient.

For 4 hours yesterday evening, to free my mind from biasness, I filled my mind with random reading to anything or something that is close to the topic. That's the challenge of the internet information overload.

There's so much available, you need to spend time searching and reading through, even skip reading to help you determine if there's any info that could be useful, or worse, realising it's all completel trash...

Articles found need to be checked if there's proper references/ authorship and of course, the date for relevancy (i.e. I can't be referencing another's sputterings.)

A sense of dismay when diagrams are blocked/ omitted by the author, and having to consider the latest antics to 'download/ read the rest' by allowing full access to my facebook!!! (never will happen...)

Do not be deceived by blogs I learned the past 24 hours, as some are genuine postings/ articles.

I pooled what i could and noted some URLs, which I hoped are useful, and went to zzzz...

At noon today, I looked at the same URLs and went.."WTH..."

Hahahaha...really ah, sometimes you wonder why you were so drawn to it in the first place...

Anyway, in an hour, I had reached some sort of pain wall. Because I was stuck. Didn't know how to start and how to structure. I could go any way. *Damn*....it was also accelerated by the fact i had to apply some of my lecturer's personally created diagnostic models to my assignment. (brain all wony now...)

So i buried my head under a pillow and had horrid afternoon dreams of arguing about Gen X (hahaha...first hint of my topic!!!)

so yep, here I am, started back on my assignment since midnight. And still not a word.

Aiyooo...

I have to finish this by Friday, at least 99% of it. Submission on Tues. (no time in between)

I have scribbled some form of structure/ flow to the essay. However, I feel slightly paralysed. It's as though I'm not convinced it will work, or ther'es something irking me that's missing...and of course, where to start: " work on chunks that are not connected and hope you'll find a connector or figure out the connectors which means you need to find the chunks to fit them..."

=S ....faint!

It's now 330!

I can do more if I want, however, I think reading those articles again will only cloud my mind further.

so am going to bathe and watch soccer! heee...(of course will fall asleep sooner or later lah..=))

2010-12-05T21:22:00.002+08:00

Restless restless!!!

It's hard to start my course again...Was supposed to start from last night to read a book to help for my presentation. And by today come up with a couple of slides.

I find myself getting so restless and backside itchy..LOL...keep getting up. It's not much to read and i'm familiar wiht the topic. but can't seem to get settled! Went to nap...boil water (goodness)...read up on gout...read up on soccer stats...check CNA...

I've forced myself to read the whole chapter and start typing out points from the chapter that I felt are good. But I find myself skimmign through and having to 'slap myself and force myself to re-read becasue i demanded quality reading in order to pick out out good points so that I do not have to refer to to book again.

3 of 5 chapters...it's 930pm.....Raaaarrrr....

Feeling tired...and sad...

2010-11-30T01:44:00.002+08:00

..could just be the night..

Security guards for chickens....

2010-11-24T02:09:00.007+08:00

Made a U turn at the Museum cluster and am actually trekking back towards the Alexander Platz station using a difference route so that I can see different things. Could only window shop and saw this nice colourful display...really pretty. Unless you're afraid of butterflies. These are fake of course. But so much care was made in the layout...

Quieter streets, lined with road side restaurants and shops. I liked this lamp post plastered with layers and layers of adverts, from professional ones to your regular off the photocopier machine type.

See the photo above, in the center, a thin dark vertical strip of building, with a yellow light on the ground level?

That's an old old theatre, still in use! It was the only oldest looking building along the entire stretch that kept it's old charm with no new coat of paint.

Though I didn't go in, this was the ground level. A 3meter arch tunnel covered with classical posters.
Didn't go further on past the tunnel...didn't feel too safe, because it's a back passageway. But very interesting, because it seemed like a local haunt to kick back and relax. On the left and right are the back of the restaurants/ cafes and still have customer tables!

Look at the layers of theatre posters...

Back to the road, I encountered 3 markers on the cobble stone floor, marking the place was home to Jews before they were taken away to camps. Suddenly I felt remorse and a quiet acknowledgement of gladness that the place kept it's historic look.

Big empty streets. Where are all the people?

One of my biggest impression walking the streets of Berlin is that the locals are scary. The youth travel in packs...like wolves. You'll never see less than a group of 8 walking together. Usually a mix of male and female. The frightenting thing is that walk in fast strides while chatting, almost like marching!!!... Not like the usual outing with friends in SG where you stroll.

I had a flash feeling of what it must be like in a riot.

So many cars..but not many people in sight...

Shops on the right are modern and built below the train tracks. =)

Local street signs.

I'm reaching my destination soon...This entire stretch has boring graffiti....getting dark! Hurry!

Ah ...here we are...let me introduce you to what Berlin uses as it's local icon. If you go to a souvenier shop, you will find either a bear (to represent the berlin bear), or their 'green' and 'red' man, which is used in all their traffic lights.

Yes, you see it? their green man wears a hat! (crossing the road and took this!)

Ack!!! why am I still on the road taking the pic!?!!! hehehe....

Here we are! the Station sign for the U-bahn.

Open plaza at the platz...

Finally it's 8.30pm. I settle down for my meal. Only had breakfast at the hotel that day. Save $$.

The only places left open were restaurants and they were all packed with no english menu. In addition, not cheap. So with nothing economical/ simple that was still open I decided to try their KFC.

Made me miss our local KFC. the place stank of oil and was run like some low-end eatery. Tables looked greasy and chairs had crumbs everywhere.

So i chose to sit outside and watch the 'traffic at the plaza' of trams going by. The table beside me was a mother with a young kid.

Another unsettling thing was that the KFC had a security guard. who stood around the door! Goodness..initially I thought he was just a passing cop..but realised he was hanging around as though securing the area. Please note that the KFC is about the size of...hmmmm....you know the starbucks in T2 airport? Yep...two times the size of that. And outside there are only 4 tables!

I guess I did feel safer having him around. He was polite since I was a customer. I figured, maybe it's because groups chose to plonk themselves at the tables/ some homeless people could give trouble as it was very near the subway access.

It was not fun eating there. Air was still, not cool, but not warm either. And just too damn quiet. My first meal in town..urgh...

Going back to the hotel. This is the transit station called 'Ostkreuz' that is under a revamp. It's easy to spot when you're arriving at this station because of this old tower on the left. My Boss, mel and me still do not know what it's for.

The station layout is complex, but I figured it out. hee...we have to use this route everytime we want to go to town.

Train arrival signboards. Just like in Frankfurt, one track has many train routes passing. so make sure you baord the right one. Only two routes go to Schonefeld airport. S9 is one of them and have to wait for a long time if you miss one (about 15mins)

You can bring bicycles into the train too.

It's a long 50min trip back to the hotel....so we take photos! hahaha...

Even at midnight back at the hotel, it looked like it was 7pm SG time.

For da record.... =)

2010-11-20T00:47:00.002+08:00

Happy...

I the only one who got the High Distinction in the CBA module...I think coz it's my individual assignment me did ...and reviewed by ge. =) It was noted as the best of the lot.

A couple of us got HD for the jialat CMI lecturer module. I credit it to the studying...hahaha...coz I could add to more than what was subtley provided on the classroom walls.

two more modules to go...zzz...freedom ending soon again! Gak!

Alexander Platz...

2010-11-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

is one of the main train stations on the Berlin map, so I did my quick exploration.

Here's the Berlin dome. Known to be the only dome like structure in the city. There are not many old buildings around, my guess is that they are all bombed during the war. See the modern but old buildings like the Sanyo one below. They are right next to the historical buidlings and look really functional and plain. Like a post war quick rebuilding project.

Fountain with King Neptune in the middle of the park.

Clock tower of a church!

The back of the church looks like a mini version of Notre Dame in Paris. (Berlin Dome on the left.)

The tower that reminds me of so many city towers, marks Alexander Platz. (restaurant on top!)

Wandered over to the Museum cluster. About 5 to 6 of them side by side. Sadly all were closed because it as already so late. Yes, I know, it's bright still, but it's already 8pm local time!!

I wanted to go visit the Greek Gods museum (can't remember the exact name) but it's supposed to be filled with statues of all of them with history included of course.

A nice tourist decided to help me make a pic down the outdoor hallways of the museum.

Above: one of the museum's undergoing upgrading

Boat timing was perfect!

Alongside the museum cluster is the River Spree which cuts through the heart of the city. See how I've wandered from the Platz tower?

Sunset...

Hackescher Markt - It's really a train station above! Yep, I have walked all the way the another station! This area is in the middle of a city park with lots of bistros lining up the sidewalks. A nice place to sit back and feast with friends. =)

bye bye J.J....

2010-11-05T23:09:00.002+08:00

"I'm thankful for my chance to have this family, everything we've shared, every chance we've had to grow.

I'll take the best of them with me and lead by thier example wherever I go...

This isn't what i want but I'll take the high road

Maybe it's because I look at everything as a lesson

or it's because I don't want to walk around angry

or maybe it's becasue I finally understand

There are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept.

Things that we don't want to know, but have to learn.

And people we can't live without, but haeveto let go."

~ Jennifer Jarreau (aka. J.J.) goodbye message in her last appearance on Criminal Minds, season 6 episode 2.

My study marathons...

2010-10-21T03:40:00.004+08:00

Tues exam was pretty good. Am sure can clear, unless the so called draft answers are completely wrong!

After my last rant on monday night. For my tues exam i have to study 4 question which will ensure that i can answer 3 in the exam. Thank God I spend Saturday night going back to the office at 7pm. Sat there will 1030pm and made sure that I re-wrote out 1 of the 4 questions that i was going to study. (this reduce the time needed for memo work, since got some analysis done)

All draft answers are in an essay format. So What I did was i took part of the draft answer and did my own combo and layout of inputs. So that it also help me remem and ans in a logical manner. =) took me 3 hours lor...

But it was the first qn i studied on monday night.

After tat it was about 2am liao. I tried moving on to another question, but found it hard, coz the draft answer abit...hmmm...not so easy to comprehend. So I did the same thing, only didn't add in my own content (no time) but broke it down into point forms and sections. By then...3+ almost 4....cannot laio...no time to memo..so went to sleep.

At work, spent the whoel morning at ONE meeting..haiz...

Generally feeling was dunno if it's pre-period or butterflies in stomach...jsut no appetite lor, so just ate crackers during meeting and planned to skip lunchie.

I was quite happy to skip lunch lah...peace and quiet. I did the fresh print outs of my revised draft answer to questions and went to level seven to study...it was quite funny. I think the people on that level wondering what i was doing. coz i was jsut pacing up and down memorising...plus it was lunch time somemore, so they went toilet ah, wash cup...etc etc.

So during lunch till about 145pm, i managed to cover 2 more questions. Making it a total of 3.

needed one more...exam was at 7pm...so had to bank on tea break or smthing to study lor...

my colleague also stayed back during lunch, we didnt talk lah, or discuss what questions we were goign to study..jsut as well, less influnce and pressure..hahaha

Boss quite nice lah...he only found out from the rest at lunch that me having exam today..he actuallly came my room after lunch to 'gu li' in his usual suan ways. =) I told him i more concern cannot write with hand liao! now so used to typing. Even makie study notes also type!!! I showed him a para I had jsut tried to write and it was terrible! LOL!

At 4pm, me went around taking Ya-Kun orders, it was time to eat, must force. I know sure no mood for dinner, and it's a good excuse for me to walk down with my notes and memo the last question. This last question , the answer 1/4 was very theory, stating steps and the 3/4 remiander is applicaiton of a step with any example. It would be too strange to use the draft example coz how can it be so 'qiao'...so I came up with a 'figurative' scenario and hoped that during exam, I can wing it and apply the Steps to the example lor...no time, no time...

HAHAHAHA

so outside the school, I was calm lah..Thank God. I told myself, no more memorising..just keep reading. So i just read and read...the 4 questions.

At the exam I picked the first 3 i studied =). (the 4th one was tweaked differently lor! So better be safe.)

Thank God for good time management and that earlier on, I had made a plan to leave those 'write endlessly to evaluate' kind of question for last. This was so that whatever time i had left...even though I technically finised the paper, i can jsut continue writing on and on since each para is one 'compare and discuss point', then 2 minutes from time, jsut round up. =)

So yeah! It all went well...

Even on Tues late night..i still doing work...this is called "the brain refuse to stop." Had a dead sleep last night. =)

Now my Thurs exam...hmm...here i am , 4am on a wed late nite. Tomorrow on leave lah...

Zzz nap then woke at 1130pm. And hoenstly just started studying lor! hahaha...

But I again thank god that on sunday for a whole day, I forced myself to churn out point form notes (in my own words, best i can), it was my only day I could give my Thur exam, coz no way i'm touching it on monday night mah...so me summarised about 100 pages of notes into 15 pages. It even reach a point I wanna puke bit liao..hahaha...seeing the 100page notes jsut made me wanna puke...pls note::: it's the only the second time i'm reading the notes ! So had to force myself to chop chop and make sense of that hopeless lecturers notes..hahaha

I thank God again, coz at this late hour, i only need to study those 15 pages. They are not model answers nor did this lecturer give helpful tips. However, I made sure these notes answered/ address the objectives/ questions posed at the end of each lesson --- so hopefully its the right thgs to learn. =)

So...hmmm...half an hour ago..me sorta memorised 9 out of 15 pages...should be ok la hor...tomorrow can do the rest.

Last page was a struggle. So knew time to stop.

Hahaha...I felt as though in school again. While showering I was talking to myself to cover all the 9 pages, test and see if anything left out. =)

Okies...this was a great break....rant rant rant....

Boss and ge da sweetest lah...sms to enc me =) these past few days. Like tonight lor, out of the blue boss say all the best for tom paper..hahaha

It's really quite hard jsut to focus on studying...thoughts of work creep in. Must be harder for those with kids man...more distractions! pei foo pei foo...

Okies..time to wind down...nitey nites!

2010-10-19T00:25:00.002+08:00

Sigh...how like that...it's 1230am...and I haven't started fully studying for my exam less than 24 hours away...had to spend the whole night doing office work coz no time liao...

=(

Today was a full day of events that was tiring and frustrating plus other things that needed solving...come home already so drained and really sleepy, but still had to settle dinner.

By the time I was ok to start work, it was 9 plus liao.

Tom wanna take leave also cannot. These two weeks just got too many things happening and somehow sigh...things are faltering lah...

Even for todays' event i dunno why lor..but even the basic things just slipped my mind. Felt so bad...taht it happen again...

Anyway for exam...

I have to memorise 4 questions (essay type)..each about 4 pages long...hmmm...it's all in the real essay format lor...havne't break down into parts to help memo.

='(

Panic hasn't set in yet...

2010-10-17T03:15:00.002+08:00

for me exams...

my brain feels very empty. I read without much thought...got comprehend lah...but not in depth inenough for me to close the book and write the essay or apply lor...

Die...

LOL...one on tues and one on thurs night...i have zero engine still...kwats happening!

I studied 2 hours today and played for the rest of the time! haiz..

how how how....really dunno if can study anymore...eeeeps!

Yesterday...

2010-10-14T03:19:00.003+08:00

I roamed Changi Airport with a Beeembo book *hides face*....

Later that day...project work was off to a good start. Thank god for some relief. Hope to finish off cleanly tomorrow.

Early Early this morning, as I was engrossed in the Amazing race on teebee, I hear news from ge that her best fren's firstborn said hello to the world! With the mum and baby all good and well...=) with one of my most fav names somemore! hehehe...awesome. His timing was perfect for his god mother's welcomes...haha...indeed the 'el' in the name is verking...hahaha...Elohim. =)

Lastly, I'm glad the 8am overseas conference call is cancelled. (snigger)...

4.25am....so unfair...raaar....

2010-10-11T04:25:00.001+08:00

It's so unfair...it's not the end of the world...but it's irritating...

2010-10-10T22:22:00.003+08:00

I receive part of the project in corporated into the overall project flow that I did up on thurs. However, of course it would need trimming, and editing for improvement...

And i receive it at 7pm today. When the submission and presentation to the class will be at 7pm tomorrow.

To top it off, the important parts like Overview (first section), parts of the middle (application) and the ending (conclusion) we had agreed earlier should be last as we wanted to make sure that we did these parts together so that we all learned something and understood the whole project so as to be able to stand up to questioning at the presentation. With normal timelines, this would naturally be envisioned to have been done this weekend as a group.

Why I say all this is cause obviously its not done. How to do?

I had told the other team mate that I'd contact him to meet up on the above...but how to...

sigh...then now i have to think of taking half day tomorrow. Because in as much as the final report would and I HOPE be ready (since i'm doing it now) by tomorrow morning, it needs to be laid out in point form in presenation slides.

Now....I don't know about you. But yes, even if all the info is already in the report, extracting it into point form into power point takes considerable amount of time right? At least an hour or two mah!

Aiyah...I recognise it could be alot worse...ie. team mates that do zero or give trouble etc....

but...grrrr....

and now...after cooking and bathing...i have to fetch my mum to punggol...raaar...

2010-10-09T03:35:00.002+08:00

Amazing that my sis who is not here is able to spoil my night in 5 simple minutes. I hated it so much it made my skin crawl, and brought back bad memories all linked to the same stupid things. It felt almost exactly the same way as when i was 15.

2 hours later...i still feel like shit. Thanks ...everyone dreams of feeling like shit you know.

damn it seriously.

I really didnt have to know. Not tonight and for what. So you need to get it off your mind...and 'share' the load...but at least ask if it wants to be taken on. Even in my protests that it can wait...it kept going simply because...and really it's simply becasue. There is no shit reason to it really.

Pls lah, for god's sake just move on with your life, u have no excuse and jolly well know that marriage cannot be trusted at all lah...and yes...am sorry...u did go into this with your eyes open. So pls..jsut rectify it and get on. You have more than enough time and more than enough help that was available to get you through. So wake up...really...it bloody hell ain't worth it

Ya...divorced kids (who are the right age to understand) will never have a complete trust in marriage. So sterotypical I know. But I've yet to meet one. And I repeat...complete trust.

You can be blinded all you want by love...but with strong love comes strong hate when it doens't work out.

Kids from proper families, i would beleive if they are more lost than those from broken ones. You learn the necessary tools of betrayal, manipulation, abandonment, seething anger and at time violence and haev sufficient experience to be able to use them again.

Do I belive God can heal that? Of course. But it doesn't mean you lose the tools. He just takes away the desire to use them.

Sigh...i'm so pissed. Then again, when is there ever a good time to hear about such things anyway...

maybe I'm jsut pissed that once again i'm getting the brunt of it. Some form of crap remnant that comes with some form of status/ invisible arrow.

I am sorry, but it's days liek these i'm reminded how much I hate and anger I can build in me. And it makes me feel like shit. But it sjut crawls on you...

And the best way to get rid of it is to drive up to the person...and jsut beat the person to some sort of death...physical beatings lead to physical pain...which remind you that there is so much pain, you don't feel anything except the pain. And that in itself is the best state feeling.

Having written tha last para, i jsut remembered something about me that makes me feel even more shit about myself.

What?

That i'm the kind of shit...that just can't bring myself to do it to the FULLEST extent.

Yes. I do not have enough hatred in me apparently versus others. Plus the fact that God is the ultimate judge. He knwos how much i can hate this inability and I knwo it's him that will not allow me to go there...

Still...it's a shit feeling...in a Thank God moment...

Humph...

Haiz...

I'm remidned ...pple like MM's wife should live longer...times like these...your own mortality doens't matter.

Pls lah...jsut freaking get on with it.

footie blues on a late night...

2010-10-06T02:59:00.002+08:00

Another long night but am ok...bit sad footie doesn't seem to be cooperating lately. =(

lesson today was okies, alot of brain drain trying to understand so many fragments. This module is ending soon. Next Tues is presentation and project submission. I've pretty much done up 80% of my part of the project on sunday and monday night. The remaining 20% I haven't done coz not sure how much more depth is needed till the whole proj is ready. But I think tomorrow night I should still make the effort to finish up that 20% which would help me with the exams, even if we decide not to use it as part of the final grp project, it will not be a wasted 20% as it will help me revise.

At least this last bit is theory. the application pain was in the 80% =)

Ironic at this time i'm starting to worry about work too. Sigh...

Really don't know...

Ferni numero uno!! =D

2010-09-27T01:03:00.003+08:00

So hard to find a non-racing pic of da best F1 driver in da world!!!!

Congratulations Ferni! Your 3rd number one spot for the season, and so so important for the championship race. I am happy you won in my home land, coz at least you'll have good memories of SG!! LOL!

What a nail biting finish lor. Ge and I were sqwaking away in her room as we watched the final lap of the F1 race in her room. Vettel was just so so so near.....and with fernando's worn tires, anything could've happened. But...heh...i was evily chanting the "Vettel is known to be a bad overtaker!"

Races in SG so exciting...we had a loose wheel, a barrier crash (followed by another), alot of nose to wheel chippings, Alonso's hand gestures to Vettel as he beat him to the pit lane exit, Hami's fierce move that lead to an amusing sequence of banging his head against the car, tossing out his steering wheel and ripping out his water supply...., Kubi's 4 car overtake, and a big big fire fromt he lotus engine...wah... drama drama...

Yipeeedooo... 3 more races...i really wonder...not going to be easy...he's still a good number of poiunts behind webber.

So yeah!!

Today was a pretty smooth day except my 'wake up late' bit... mum celebrated her beeday early today so I was the service chauffer in the afternoon. =) Then I decked myself out in my F1 tee and headed down to a tree for a preview of the new home! hahaha...with a corn soup receipe that i need to adapt into mine! =P

=) okies...i better go sleep soon...monday monday....raaar...=)

2010-09-23T01:13:00.002+08:00

less than 5 hours to the AGM. *yawn*...reached home an hour ago and opted to watch teebee to relax..

Today wasn't too bad...ended up spending the whole day on site and night in the office. but at least we got most of the things settled.

I pray for good rest...it's going to be a long day tomorrow.

Heelooo...

2010-09-21T02:05:00.002+08:00

Today was a day of uppies and downs. For a start last night i strongly believe i have accidnetally deleted all the videos and photos in my hp camera...which is sad and i ahve been pushing the thought out of my mind. I really lost a lot of good stuff and memories..='(

This morning i couldn't wake up that early, but work was okie in the morning.Pretty much things are set, except the usual last minute things that were not compeltely unexpected. Intern first day at work. Then i went meet ge for lunchie for da first time at Terminal Toad since she left. =) *smacks lips* been a while since i had starbucks in the middle of the work day...in fact...hmm...since ge left lor...

Anyways, came back and boss's mood was okie...he had funny questions for me...but thank god we catered for it inthe event already. So no panic. =) The rest of the time was just vetting stuff so taht they can move...only some things ah...hmm...they really need to go think if what they say make sense. LOL

Then something at the tail end of the day came up that i refuse to rehash here...but that I want to Murder IRAS.

quickly scuttled home...sis was waiting for me to cook, so we ate in time for the news, and me did some reading for my course. =) after that was some work, then laundry.

I feeling pretty good now...sprange...hahaha

K lah, come tom morning, I hope I can move on to other work other than the event. Need to start shaking trees for coconuts.

HAHAHAHA....ok..i seriously dunno where that one came from..=P

Good nite!

2010-09-17T05:15:00.002+08:00

can't sleep.

God what can i do that u will let me sleep. i have less than 2 hours of sleep now. have to wake at 7.....................

2010-09-17T03:27:00.003+08:00

There is a point where one is supposed to die of exhaustion of sorts right?

...........

I presume it starts with systematic breakdowns....

I'm officially 31....

2010-09-12T03:10:00.003+08:00

Yep, me am. =) I spent my birthday on a solo treat to the movies, having a tim sum lunch with mum, resting (lots of zzzz time), tracking my F1, chatting online, attempting to study and having pizza for dinner. =)

The past year has been one of my more through filled ones. Even from the start, of my 30th birthday, my mood was bad. heh...

Then I had a long bout of my gout, with the trial of trying TCM that made it absolutely horrible. Airshow, office move, new staff, work woes...harder to wake up for church, ...more footie blues, ge leaving, and a general sense of ...!?!?!?!?

=)

big horrid stuffs, but good things were peppered in between. Else you'd probably find me in some deep deep depression. hahaha...

This God gets the glory coz somehow His make-up for me and love for sure is strong enough to just have kept my personality for keeling over the edge. But I struggle so. =)

I start my 31st year with a hope that it will be great. So what if it felt as though I wasted a year of my youth in my 30th, lessons were learned, bad habits were formed (!!?...bwahahaha)....yesh...I still consider 30s as youth years ok...I'm not self delusional...but seriously, some mindsets need changing. so what if we ache alittle more, 'Oooof' when when get out of a seat...seem to forget things...or somehow are very out of touch with the in-things these days. It doens't mean you can't have some fun. hee...

I pray for less fears and a 'da shao chu' of mindsets. I pray for a guai foot....err...ok...feet. Hee...I pray for new things that are good. Blessings to the present good things in my life. Enjoying the way I love and laugh. To put in the effort and treasure good frens and relationships better.

OMG...i just realised...I forgot it's Red's beeday too! Alamak...i gave her my beeday to be the same as her's coz she was a stray so dunno her real date...aiyooo...poor red. =S

sigh..just as well i sat next to her for half an hour just to pat her to sleep. She's a good dog when she's not tearing up gardens and running off outside. *folds arms*...dumb animal. Create work!

Oppsss...got carreid away..hahaha...

okies..time for bed. Yeah...i wonder if the US is gg to do some decade thing for 911 in 2011 eh...

I am jeano da beano, signing off and thanking you again for reading her random thoughts and bubbles. *beeeeg hugz*

decided...

2010-09-10T21:19:00.003+08:00

It's 9pm liao...pretty much did all i can for AGM for now...except one item...the rest still pending confirmations as usual.

Was almost going to start studying for coursework..but decided enuff lah..dun want to work anymore.....lol

2010-09-07T03:42:00.003+08:00

This msg is for the purple sniggering owl! -- whom i know reads my blog..haha..and now I can't jsut leave a msg on msn anymore lor...and unsafe to leave one on her blog! hehehe...

u go with the flow when things are okies...but u stand up for smthg when u know it could've been better or if unjust...or someone is boooleeeed...=)

Learn now...observe...analyse..plan...then pounce!! bwahahaha!

kidding lah..there are new things to learn all da time, sometimes horrible experinces or good ones...but u find it in u to see da good stuff in everythg okies? =) sho sit back, relax n look humble..hehe...no lah..be humble..n relax..

u have much much to give..but a whole lot more when u absorb ur terrain..=) god will help uuu! ask him for help! but not ask in --now now now -format hor..hehehe

2010-09-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

Sick and tired of working till 4am almost everyday.

=)

2010-09-06T03:57:00.004+08:00

Work this week will fer sure be a =S one.

But till 9am comes around, why bother thinking so much. hahaha...

My comptency based module's individual assignement submission is due on tues. Yep, the first piece of school work for my T&D course. I'm pretty much done, having spend many late nights working on it. Amazingly, thinking back it all happened in a week.

Late mon nite, i was researching online databases.
Tues, was the competency lesson. came home and zonked big time.
Wed, nite me rushed to the bukit merah library just to get some books and started reading as much as I could and started typing the outline on my comp.
Thur prep MC meeting and fri event. Nite was class (a very horrible one). Then i came home, lay on my bed and concussed big time.
Fri after the silly S**E dinner, I locked myself in the room from 10pm and started working more on the content till late.
Sat damn tired in the morning. but got up at 11ish and headed to TP lib which closed at 5.30pm. Once home I couldn't wait to get rid of the irritating assignment!! So worked on it somemore till late again, and realised I might be doing too much for a miserable 15 marks!
Today, I was at it again till dinner time when it was tiem to head out for a reward of a nice time and good food. Tajimaya!!! *slurps*...been a long time...=) Once home, I nawed at it again. LOL.

So here I am...abotu there lah. I've only got my intro (whihc is supposed to bring the reader thru the work) and the finsihing sentencce to my conclusion left. I ahven't tidied up the body. But I'm close. Was so hoping to finish it tonight man!! hahaha

but well, I reached the stage where I couldnt' look at it anymore. because I was no longer constructing and jsut scrolling up and down, more bothered abt my spacing! hahaha...

So yeah! I hope to finish it before work really starts in the morning...so taht at least I'll get a rest day on mon nite with no stress on the assignment.

I thank God lah, seriously if you look at my timeline, I only started a week ago, with real materials only 5 days ago!!

=) okie...time to zzzz...me pray footie gets better tomorrow. Good nite god! heh...=P

It's just the beginning....

2010-08-31T03:42:00.006+08:00

Someone asked me a queestion yesterday...and the day before..and it dawned on me for the first tiem for as long as I can remember sept no longer means anything to me. even in my most stressed time, i do remember i would at least perk up abit.

but i'm so tired already. I can't do much except to hang on best I can. No point my impeding self destruction having to affect others. we all have our own weights to carry.

Today was a tiring day. I know..i feel as though i've said this somewhere before..haha..maybe I did think about it earlier. Because i felt better over the weekend, I pushed out some stuff by pulling all nighters for 4 nights (for the peace and quiet) and slept in the day. It was worth it as it gave me some sanity for today in terms of issues.

so last night i could only sleep at 4am. and i had to wake extra early at 730am jsut to bring mum to the MRT. good too as I hoped to get to work bit earlier to print the 300 pager ref books for one of my modules and hoepfully start reading.

No chance when I got in, staff filtering in and started to talk to me.

thank God boss bought coffee at 1030am. Morning was still manageable alot of various phonecalls but nothign major. Boss was at it again and I'm sorry for her lah...anyway...Lunch happened. by mid afternoon I was starting to drain. Didn't help that my colleague told me that the ref notes are quiet useless...but i still need to read them. Anyway...no choice but haev to go library on wed nite i think...The ultimate drainer was a phone call that was a sooner or later. then had to tell my boss about it..that doens't help either...soon it was 630...time really flew by...I looked through the day work on teh small bits i could tie up....at 730...i jsut printed the ref books finally.

I left at 815...got home cooked, ate...watched some news...and fell asleep on the floor till 1130...I woke up really groggy...but scuttled to the loo to wash up ...=(

was supposed to do laundry and start on some reading...any reading...to just grasp my module...

1130 got the laundry in the washer and set up my comp. I had more office work i had to clear and there was no time tomorrow with class.

sigh...ended up spenidng so much time having to guide my colleague in his new role+ 'scolding' another. Clear up some here and there so that others could do some work in the morning.

sent boss some stuff...told him i'd give him more tomorrow by afternoon.

soon it's 330....sigh...

Now it's 410...hahaha..i hung my laundry..yay....had to move my day to monday's coz of class.

my foot starting to ache...stupid...

I started reading eh content page of my ref notes...lol...but my foot says no...

Need to pack up teh washer, bathe and sleep..tom got a 10am meeting...

i must be some stupid idiiot really...for what...it's jsut monday...imagine that...

I hate hearing myself complain...well..here i am..makes me an idiot again eh?

I miss writing about happy things...

You know...

2010-08-28T06:30:00.002+08:00

You've been typing too long on the laptop when your elbow bones aches like a bruise when you touch it...due to too many hours propped on the table. haahahahhaa...=)

2010-08-24T02:36:00.002+08:00

It's funny the kind of things you think about at night. I'm still positive this foot of mine will get better. Just that I need it to heal faster. I'm hoping that everytime I wake up, somehow I'll be well already.

Hard to explain how I feel. I think it's alot of self reproach. It's like you'e been smoking all your life and at some point, you're coughing your lungs out and gasping for air, but you can only look at yourself.

Today footie has reached a puffier than normal state. I hope he'll just listen and let the meds work. Pray this is the last stage.

I got class on tomorrow and haven't done any reading up or revising at all. One would think that since i'm stuck home and bed ridden you'd do more.but pain really makes a difference...hahaha..I'm too optimistic lah, i think if i clsoe my eyes for 5mins..i'd wake up and it'll be all better.

God, thanks for the company. I trust you'll see me through this again. I thank you for the good blessings for today.

2010-08-15T02:09:00.001+08:00

Believe.

In continuation...

2010-08-11T01:33:00.004+08:00

I thought having responded before 10am this morning was sufficient.

At 11pm today when mum came back from her singing session, she asked me if I was going to work tomorrow (wed), I replied calmly -- it depends on the foot.

At 1am she comes into my room, standing hands akimbo beside me she said in a stern voice: " OK, I need a confirmation right now if you are going to work tomorrow so that I know what time to wake up."

..............

I calmly replied in a quiet tone:" I do not know, so my safest answer is to tell you 'No, I will not be going to work.'..."

She stormed out of the room.

Minutes later she returned and said. "I will be working on Thursday and Friday as well, so seeing your leg like this, there is no point for me to come back, so I'll just stay in Punggol the next few days."

I said ok, no probs.

I'm used to this. You'd think most would try to be around more or something in the given situation. Would you beg? Or plea? to what purpose?

This is the mini version of an example of why whatever choices I make, I must live with the full consequences of it or whatever failure that comes with it. Can't count on family.

Today's twist was unexpected. Didn't expect a declaration. Hats off to mum.

(On another note, i'd like to thank sis for her help today. Clearing up the dishes and driving me and her dog out to buy prata for our dinner. -- of course it was all for the purpose of letting the queen dog go for daily car ride. Ah dui....and carrying up a flask of water to my room.)

There are times...such as this...

2010-08-10T02:00:00.004+08:00

...that I really wanna kill my mum...

Already I can't walk as it is. And she asks me tonight, (Mon) if I'll be going to work on Wednesday. How in the world will I know?!

Then she asks me if I'll be going to work tomorrow, tues. I told her, i can only tell in the morning when I wake up and see the condition of my foot.

Hello, if I can potter around tonight already, I will not just stay in the room and remain tortured lor.

So apprently, I must now tell her on tuesday Morning by 10am, if I will be going to work on wednesday. Simply coz she needs to go back to her punggol place and needs to knwo whether to pack in advnace.

My god,..it's jsut one day...can take cab or not.

Wouldn't it make SUPER logical sense that if I can go to work on tuesday morning, I already can give her the super important will-die-if-take-cab ride on wednesday already!?!!!

How in the world will i accurately know by Tues morning BEFORE 10am if I will be well enough to go to work on wednesday?????????? Can i tell by some Crystal ball that at 1500h on tuesday afternoon I will be doing cartwheels at home or something???

It's as though I've volunteered to be in this predicament and I have an apprent 'schedule' I can follow and can confirm.

Makes me feel like crap everytime I can't walk coz daily you make me feel as though I am DELIBERATELY NOT going to work.

Who wants to feel this way???...You think i opted to be handicapped?!

You make me feel more useless with each passing day.

I only wanted to have some fun..='(

2010-08-09T04:37:00.000+08:00

...now i can't walk again...

Unforgettable - 2Euro scotch tape.

2010-08-07T01:15:00.001+08:00

I was quite tired after reaching the hotel -- Holiday Inn Schonefeld Airport. (I later found out there were only 3 hotels near that airport). and mine was digustingly the furthest from it. (aka. not within walking distance. But 1 min drive.)

After checking in and making sure they can accomodate the auto-check in for the rest of the mission team, it was only about hmmm...11am local time. I was hungry and thirsty. Needed to go out explore how to get around and where to get the basics.

The hotel had a shuttle to the schonofeld airport (which is the hub for the bus terminal and train station)...but it ran at the oddest hours. I had to squint at some silly A4 sized paper and understand the timings with block out dates. I asked the recep if they had a copy of it. ---No! =S

Wah lieu...thank God I smartened up and took a photo of it. Just as well easier to refer to when I'm out and about.

Next since it was a sunday and it's considered an ulu place, I found out that I had to request for the shuttle service out of the hotel. (ie. there's hardly any guest to make it worth the regular trip.) The recep was a little shocked when I enquired. She said:" Oh, you can request for it." Me:"Can I go now?"....lady:"Now?! Ok, let me see..." ..(*scuttles to back room to find the driver*) I was quite afraid of the trip back really. I mean, the driver couldn't speak a word of English, and I was trying to ask him in the bus, how I was going to ensure I managed to get a ride back when I was done. I mean, do I have to wait for the scheduled time according to the sheet of paper or rely on thier ad-hoc ways?

Somehow, I managed to figure out I was supposed to find some signboard (which is the designated drop off/ pick up) and wait for the shuttle...if it's 5mins late from the supposed time of arrival. Call the hotel. (ie. we're not that efficient or come out when we want to.) Ah dui....

hahaha...anyway, pic above shows the 1970s look of the airport. (yes, inside looks like 1970s with the mosiac small square tile flooring and no lifts either.) Still, it was close to summer for them so you can see them all just sprawling on the open field reading, having picnics and chatting, soaking up the sun.

It's a good 400m walk from airport to train station. And I trekked up and down four times just to compare prices of snacks and drinks between the miserable number of shops/ snack counters between them. You can count less than 10. LOL!! At each trek, even tho the walkway was decently crowded, i did a mini detour just to avoid this strange normal looking man, who had this 'very free' look and kept approaching and talking randomly to passer-bys. Scary...

I eventually made my choice of shop and made this shopkeeper so happy! (He looked italian). Prior to my arrival, he was sitting bored outside his shop (with virtually no human traffic) and chatting with a friend. He was nice, asked me why I was in this part of town and surprised by my number of purchases, since he started packing up my choices after only 2 items and keyed it into the cashier, thinking that it was all he'd get for the day. hahaha...

Really helpful and tried to explain to me what the items were. Eis Kaffee --- Ice coffee....Eis tee-- Ice tea...=) Wasser -- water...

I also got my dinner/ late lunch from another shop at the train station. Some kebab sandwich from a middle eastern eatery. (see the aluminium foil behind the biscuits) + a slice of pizza.

I tell you...i was quite worried how my kebab sandwich would turn out lor....since this schonefled area is so ulu, they don't expect tourists, so the whole menu was in german. My God...there was alot of pointing up at a wall (hoping he understood which pic i pointed at since they were not numbered)....then when the owner asked me more questions on choice of meat/ condiments/ stuffing and i retuned him the =S look, you should've seen his face contort to try to find the basic english words for me! hahaha

I wondered the whole time whether i'd find it edible. What was that weird greenish sauce he added? Did he even understand I wanted a take away? I had no clue to what I had agreed/ not agreed to and the final price he was going to charge me.

*sniffles*

Its tiring but in cases like this, you just have to keep a smile, friendly face, stand out of the way of the locals (who just waltz in and ramble an order) and keep alert. Have to make sure you don't offend anyone lor.

Thankfully the man was nice and I believe he gave me alittle more than the usual stuffing, seeing how clueless and hungry I was. =) God is good. =)

So yes, My mini purchase of all the above is a grand total of *drum roll* = 50 euros! which is about S$75...*faints*..I felt very poor straight after...=(

Just 2 packets each of ice tea, milk, water, plain biscuits and a coca cola + dinner!!

Next day, I set off late morning to ILA. It was one day before the show (monday), and it so reminded me of Avalon where there's no transport at all. So I 'requested' (hehehehe)...for my hotel shuttle to the airport, (to save some moolah on distance) then took a cab. Thank God I didn't try to walk. It was a good 8km away.

The cab driver whom I rode with to my hotel the day before just pointed in a general direction and said it wasn't far off. But i didn't trust their version of 'nearby' one lor..hahaha...besides he did not say it was within walking distance.

I spent alot of time moving between the Exhibitor's Centre and Hall 11 (which was where our booth was.) Everytime I had an issue, I had to trudge there. It's like...hmmm...walking between Wheelock and Wisma. Doesn't help me not in comfy boots and it's gravel/ raw road.

Above you see the booth next to us...so on lor the taiwanese. But realised they sold it to two taiwan companies. Still they came in full force, one comepnay having a team of 6 people. =) So fun. They were laughing and chatting away while cutting and pasting their displays. Me felt lonely setting up...

And here's our booth! Yes, they spell the country name wrong lor. Many of the europeans were trying to figure out which languange the mistake was made in. The germans said that it's Singapor in german....so....was it french?, Spanish? =)

I had to get help to put up the posters. Glad I planned well and brought all the materials I needed. Except I had to hunt for the only stationary shop to buy scotch tape. really can faint at the prices! hahaha...The shop was like a container truck run by 3 aunties! Very local...who were clueless about what i meant by scotch tape, or even tape...LOL...

I had to look and point...and when I heard a roll of masking tape costing 6 euros, I asked them if there was anything cheaper. After showing me 2 other versions of tape. I settled for the 2Euro one --which is the small roll, yellowish transparent tape that you can buy for 50 cents back home lor...S$4 for that...yes. it was the cheapest...kekeke...

Basic deocr for the SG booth! took me about 2-3 hours, waiting around for them to send the contractor to help. As with other shows, they always say they'll get it done and hope you'll just go away. I gave up once the lights were up, but country word not changed. It was already 4pm plus, and I may have to wait till the next day lor!

Trekked near the exhibition hall. We were the International Suppliers Centre - Hall 11...and yes, there WERE 10 other halls, scattered throughout. I didnt even walk to Hall 1 to 3 during the show coz it was just too far.

Took photos here and there. See the cars just drive haphazardly around the planes...so liberal, unlike the overdone security at our local show lor...

I found these roles of grass cute. Interesting hor? They are real leh! They used them to 'tile' the indoor cafe of the adjacent hall for the garden look. =)

SG flag!! hee...all the foreign countries taking part in the ISC!

The standard photo of "here I am!"....I realised this is the only pic of me I took in the show ground (...that terrible lor! LOL!)

Weather was warm. Went back to the hotel to shower and put down stuff, before heading out to Berlin center to explore. Solo travel so must be wise in what i'm carrying. Especially since it's long train trips in the outskirts. Once again, ulu train station, so no helpful signs/ people. So took me one hour to figure out how to buy the right ticket and get on the right train.

Thankfully, the day's were long in Germany at this time. Sunset was at 1030pm. So even at 530pm, it was still like 2pm! Can stay out longer!
Above station is Ostkruez is was like the interchange from schonefeld line to the berlin center. Thank God again, that ge and I figured out how german train lines work. So i read the map alot faster and knew which was the right one to board. Heeee....

This station was surrounded by constuction and looked very make shift. Very dark at night, which you'll see in my return trip pics.

While waiting to transfer at the station, this hostel opposite was called "1st floor hostel"...hmmm...so what's on 2nd floor ah? =P ....notice how skinny the building is tooo!!!

TXL =)

2010-08-02T03:43:00.002+08:00

(Dear all, sorry it took me a long while to put up ...long overdue pics of my trip!! ..hope ya like reading it! I will try to finish up best I can! =)

My first A380 flight! So exciting! I was to depart on the early morning 1am flight on 6 June, Sunday. But before I even boarded the plane, much drama happened the few days before.

For a start, I fell sick. Very sick. It's been along time since I had such a bout of flu and loss of voice. So much so that when I was got home from work in the last few days, I could only bring myself to eat meds and hope to sleep it off. But it didn't work.

On friday night, I was supposed to pack. My final day (Since i'm technically leaving saturday night). However, I could barely breathe right and just wanted to rest. So i pumped myself with meds, prayed and zonked.

I awoke early at 7 am, and moved non-stop for the rest of the day. Boss called me sometime in the morning to make sure I was in good health to travel. I was feeling better and hoped the projected chiong day would not keeel me!
> 7 to 11am, pull out and decide on clothes + take stock of what I need to buy.
> 11am to 1pm, head to parkway to pick up items.
>1 to 2pm, eat lunch.
>2pm to 4pm, go back office and print out necessary
>5pm to 8pm. Pack.
>8 to 10pm. Can't really remember but it's mostly online stuff to make sure I got $$$ on hand. Double checks. Buy travel insurance.
>10pm -- Ge starts msning "why you still online?!"..lol...I leave with sis to drop off car at office. Then I came home showered and she drove me to the airport.

Thank God i did early check in, so I was quite set. When I reached the lounge to await boarding. I was pooped. What a long day. It had been so rushed, I even forgot to tell my cgl I was going overseas! hahaha...
I chose an upper deck seat which was cool! Because you're on economy but you get to board via the first/ biz class gangway. Picked window seat for the reknowned extra space on the side (it's a storage space), as shown in the photo. Krisworld featured Alice in Wonderland -- but i didn't watch it at all.

I squeezed in about 4-5 movies shows throughout the flight. Lots to choose from and the console was easy to navigate. I spent most of the flight wondering what the knob on the top left was for. LOL. Yanked on it abit...and decided not to be too curious..it's a long flight you know!!!

I barely slept on the flight. The guy on my right took up quite abit of elbow room, plus with the gap between the wall and seat due to the extra storage, i couldn't do my "lean on the wall" to sleep.

I have to say that the seat was disappointingly ok. Nothing extra comfortable about it. Leg room felt alot less (compared to my 777 flight home). But with the upper deck, service was defintely faster and I felt taken care of as the staff were dedicated to your section. Barely had to wait for your turn to go to the loo. Oooo...and of course, the food and beverage selection was better on the A380.

A 13 hour non-stop from Singapore to Zurich. I wonder if this is the Swiss Alps eh? I love this pic. This is my second trip to Europe. 1st one covered Frankfurt and Paris. So I've never been to Zurich before too.

It was a 4 1/2 hour transit. I got lost initially trying to find my transit gate. It's best to know where it is first before planning to rest/ explore. (Learned this from past travel experiences, as gates can be really really far/ in another terminal. Just because the sign arrows you in the direction. It doens't mean it's a 15min walk away.)

I read the wrong info and did a whole circle. When in fact, my transit gate was very near my inital arrival area! I window shopped at the transit area. Pretty tempted to buy one of the nici products and the swatch watches. Was confused by the prices as they were in swissrfranc. But after some calculations, realised it wasn't any cheaper. I couldn't explore much for long becasue my backpack was really heavy with the laptop.

So I plonked myself down at the comfy transit area (above). There were electrical points near all the seats so you could tinker with your lappie if you had one but no internet, so no fun for me. I thank God for some wisdom to have stored some 'portable' food from the flight. Becasue the most of the makan cafes/ fast food, look like they took swiss franc only and not worth converting the euros.

Yes...I took a spoon too. Thank God. Helped me eat the cheese you know! LOL! (I returned it on my return flight lah!) I very happily munched away and read my JD robb book.. =) Then slept un-glam style----> one arm draped on the bag, mouth wide open and head tilted back - for about an hour.

These are pics I took enroute to my departure gate. The choc shop selling toblerone had these giat ones about one metre long lor! (bottom shelf!)

I also passed many smoking lounges 'sponsored' by Camel. Here was where you could take your puff and kill your lungs in the safety of fellow puffers. I was quite intrigued with it's blatant - Camel Smoking Lounge name, and equally amused by the next line that read "Tobacco Seriously Damages Health." -- seriously?!?...

The plane from Zurich to Berlin was a Lufthansa flight. Much smaller A320. Took ages to take off. It seemed to be flexing it's wings and flaps. So i got a shot too...First time I've seen it risen so high on the ground. Engine was real noisy during the tests.

On board, this was a snack only flight. So don't expect the hot towel service like SQ. What I adored the most was that in the spirit of the upcoming World Cup, they gave out these cute cute cute soccer balls, which were really a soild ball of milk chocolate inside! Yums....I took more for ge actually, to support her beanut...Bwahahaha....(inside joke, sorry.)

The plane I was on was really small, if I thought I had a hard time fitting into the seat, the two americans on my left were worse off due to their gangly legs. They had this american on holiday look about them, and both wore berms! How comfy... =) Definitely on holiday.

Reaching Berlin, once again you are reminded of good ol' home airport's efficiency. It took a very long time for them to open the doors. So everyone (except me of course..hehe..) all stood up cramped at the isle in half bend postures ready to go.

Proof of how long it took was that they had started and finished loading up our luggage onto the truck. I'm quite increduled that they really use manual labour of just two men to carry ALL the luggage lor! I could see it from my window and was excited when I spotted my luggage!!! heeee...

See the red bag is mine + the black tube holder on the top with the fragiel sticker too! heee...what are the chances that it was right under my nose!
Here we are!!! Berlin Tegal Airport! Airport code: TXL! The main international airport of the capital of the Wursts! =)

Above pic is the main area with F&B, a supermarket and some shopping. This is where you get to the exit towards the trains and bus terminals.

Tegal is laid out such that a few pentagons buidlings cluster together( with the middle of the cluster the main area). Inside the pentagon are just check in rows and arrival/ departure gates with car rental booths. When you exit the departure gate, you can immediately board a cab. But I did not and walked all around the terminals just to find this mian area becasue it was the ONLY PLACE THAT HAD AN INFO COUNTER, with a free map of the city...chuh...
I finally decided to give myself a treat before trekking any further. hehehehe...Starbucks! Caramel Macchiato!! It was hard to get to the cafe. It was on level two. 3 flights of stairs with no lift --- how to haul luggage?!?...but for the sake of the cuppa I did! 3 up then 3 down...Knee pain..=(

On da cab to Schonefeld Airport where the Berlin Airshow is. All the way to the other side of berlin from west to east. Took a pic of the cab rates! S$8 when boarding ...faints!

It's late...

2010-07-26T02:27:00.001+08:00

but God i pray for Faith Hope and Love for all of us...=)

2010-07-16T02:40:00.002+08:00

One of those days....where u wish u can forget fast...

tonite huddled in with deelish chu qian yi ding with egg + watched die hard for a good 3 hours...bruce willis to da rescue!

She made me coin the phrase 'Molested Chicken'...

2010-07-07T01:16:00.003+08:00

Had intended to put this up on facebook and tag the molester...keke...but I also decided *snigger*...that thou shall love thy dear fren...

Super tempting to put up tho...Bwahahaha

Wails...

2010-07-05T22:40:00.002+08:00

It's July again...Blooie's basics per year

Road tax $617
Insurance $1,880
Loan $5,400

*beep Beep*

2010-07-04T02:40:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I used to read sidney sheldon when I was in sec school. I'm struggling to read one of his old bestsellers now...sheesh...and I find myself flipping pages impatiently or falling asleep after 3 pages. The writing style is dry and predictable. Way too many flashbacks with cheesy characters.

I think i've been spoiled by JD robb and dan brown. heh.

Soccer on now, final match of the quarters Spain vs Paraguay...

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2010-07-03T03:29:00.005+08:00

Hmm, it's been awhile since I blogged, especially about work. Much has happened but I dont' feel like talking about it now.

Ok, maybe I should, just the main headlines that ge is leaving our org real soon. She told me weeks back even before my Berlin trip. But i didn't say anything on me blog just to be safe.

I appreciate that she told me early even though its been an emo balance of being sad she's going, but at the same time, that I support her decision and will want the best for her. And i know in me, as >< as I feel, there is a celebration that her hard work has paid off. =) I did pray she would do well for her interview after she left work early that day. Even if it meant they'd offer her. =) What else could I wish for except that she'll always shine in anything she takes on, even the interview. =)

mmm...random thot: even she teach me this >< expression lor..hahaha..

Well, there's more to say, but I can leave it for now. =)

It's late, brain is half gone..LOL

World cup is still on, with Uruguay playing Ghana at 1-1 at the 60th minute, as I'm blogging.

I still wanna do my trip blog posts which may take some time, but at least I've loaded the photos onto my comp for a start. hee...

K lah, what I really wanted to share was this photo I took today while boss was in my room. He can be quite random and like to play with the toys in me and ge's room. This is one of his moments that I thought was perfectly captured.

He decided to play with the spongebob that is on the chair while talking to me and my collague about serious stuff..hahaha...and he started putting on spongbob his own glasses..hahaha

I had to take the photo..it was so funny. Boss got caught compltely unawares when I took the shot..hahaha...he probably realised he's in the shot too.He deliberately centered the glasses to rest on the nose for my hp camera.

He looks like he's talking to spongebob and explaining some theory to him..WAHAHAHA

Threads

2010-06-27T15:11:00.006+08:00

I read a few forum threads. For years there have been threads out there that constantly debate and argue about my church's way of doing things, the leadership and it's members. With the recent investigations. I wasn't surprised that a different kind of fuel was added to the furore.

I read how people have 'renamed' and name called my pastor. So lame but sad.

There was even a online video comprising several minutes of our CNY service where pst said that he would like to receive a big ang pow too. Yes, the poster highlighted that my extravagantly rich pst wants more! Aiyo...so out of context. Pst was just trying to relate to his flock and get into the spirit of the season.

Haiz...As i read some of them, I hope they do not come from other christians. Not that I'm saying that everyone should automatically accept another's leadership, style or way of running things. But really, there's no need to up the ante with negative remarks. It does nothign to help the christian community whenever there'a probe, questioning, or shadow that is cast on a church.

Forums have written off that all members of my church, are blind, hopeless, brainless and have lost our senses.

I know I do not fully support the way some other churches do things either. But I would not go all out and write an article or start something that would hurt our community.

Already other churches have started to react, some even to the media too. It brought to light somethings. But at the end of the day, when it whittles down to coffee-shop talk, it is summarised to a few lay man terms: "Seemi christian? only want your money only lah..join wat ang moh religion. become christian must be perfect ah...later my friends all laugh at me."

Wherever you have chosen to attend church, you would be impacted because new salvations would be shaken and those we've always meaning to reach out to would only distance themselves further.

We are a community and hopefully a family (as what God had hoped we will be in His word.)

Would one war so much if they asked themselves a simple question: "Would you still spit and spat, if in all irony, someone/ a friend from a church you detested led your parents to Christ?"

Yes. Something perhaps you prayed for or always had a hard time communicating with your parents on, without ending with a fight or tension?

What do you first think of when your parents come to you and say that they understand finally the love of god and jesus in their lives? Or to see them attend thier first service because they want to be there to know god?

=)

Anyway, I'm not affected by the forums. They can say and debate for years and still no end point. My church will always be in the limelight, and always having to fight and persevere on..it is something I've accepted simply becasue of what we do.

Know of a better way to pray for an entire flock, run a church, be a role model, support good causes, be accountable, take care of your family and answer to God daily, etc -- please stand up.

the media is desperate.

2010-06-23T00:12:00.004+08:00

I am amused how desperate the media is on their updates with regards to the church probe. While away in Europe, I had the chance to get hold of the internet and did simple google searches and these were what online news updates on the investigations were every two days: "XX number called up for investigations", "Pst seen coming and going at X:XXpm without speaking to congregation." "X more called up to assist in investigation" " Wife landed in SG, in station from Xam to Xpm, came out wearing black clothes and black shades."

Duh....if you read the whole article it has zero substance. they are jsut trying to squeeze water out of a stone and keep the talking point alive so that it will pique the interest of the reader. I admit, it does work. Many a time, I am reading on such simlar 'bait lines' for other stories.

Still this is ridiculous.

And after awhile, people get tired of hearing empty vessels. I'm not here to lay judgement whether it is real or confirm any truths. However, in my 2 week experience of overseas coverage of BBC and CNN...the latter really overdid it on the coverage of the oil slick on the gulf. Yes, I am saddened seeing the animals and state of the ecological system. But seriously, tehre are only that many angles you can cover on a story before a person gets immune. And this is where the intended impact of the story dies out.

Everyday, they talked to reasechers, some scientific doctor, an economist, spouting the same things on how horrible it is, how nothing is being done, is the oil company purposely not acting (same speaculation from all angles), how devastating it is...goodness... i know already. One round of such interviews is sufficient. But the same thing everyday is ...ahem...

I found myself muttering "what's new" by day 4!! And that's bad...coz the poor animals are dying. Did you see the pelicans? ='( They say the only way to get the oil off them is to scrub them constantly with detergent!!!

Haiz. worse still, thier natural protectic oils are being scrubbed off at the same time. =( poor birds...they must be thinking --" one day the bastard humans should just nuke themselves!"

oopps...got carried away. hahaha...Sorry, when you see those videos it jsut makes you ..raaar...

so yes, back to the desperate media. Get a life.

To share share...

2010-06-07T03:57:00.002+08:00

Wante dto put up some pics for you to see what i've been up to the past 24 hours, esp the last 4, when i went to hunt for food. LOL! spent almost 50 on basic drinks.

But don't know why, when i insert my SD card into my lappie. it asks to reformat!!!!

When i put th card back in my camera, it reads with no problem. I tried my laptop slot with another brand new empty SD card. It also asked to reformat. When I accepted, it say it failed to do so...duh...

so abit stumped. Intended to blog now and again when i can on the trip...haiyo...very xian..why lidat?...

Maybe try again tomorrow bah, perhaps need to restart my comp.

It's been a long day, just realised i effectively haven't bathed for more thatn 24 hours..hehehe...

Caught alot of intermittent sleep. I would haev to say one of the bet i got were the half hour x2 segments during the zurich transit. (5 hour transit window.) I had no swiss franc with me...nor was it worth the euro conversion to buy food then. Thank God I kept some basics like crackers, cheese and yogurt from the SQ flight. =)

Though most of the time in transit, can't walk walk much to see the shops coz my backpack too heavy and bulky!

But all is well lah, i'm checked in, safe, and managed to get some food and drinks. =) Also, i got internet running, so can share share with you!

Myups, plus thank god, my flu okie liao, am still bit coarse, but it jsut remnants. Footie behaved in the flight and through the day. He's abit achish die to the stiff postion in the plane. But he's good. =)

its 10pm here but the sky looks like in singapore at 7pm. Long days in summer? (It was still bright and sunny at 8pm lor)

I have national treasure showing on tv now. I'ts all in german! lol...better than nothing lah, just watch the action. Familiar story line anyway. =)

aigooo....so sad can't share the pics...really have a couple of interesting ones lor. Oh well, maybe daddy just want me to do other things tonight....like bathe!

Hahahha...i refuse to bathe now..since it's only 10pm. i know once i bathe, slink into bed I'm out like a bulb coz now it's 4am SG time too +tired from travel. So must bear with it for another half hour to hour more then can sleep proper. =)

I actually haven't booked much of my post-show activities. have some idea, but can look into it tomorrow bah. I dont' trust my brain now..lol.

Okie, time to go bathe.. thanks for reading! heeeee...i'm so boh...

2010-06-01T21:22:00.001+08:00

Sad ....and tired...

what a combo...

long veeekend

2010-05-29T03:08:00.003+08:00

TICKETS

Hmmm...due to the public holiday and some technicalities, i'm do not have my confirmed tickets to my europe trip. Just pray all will be well on monday.

Yesterday and today, i did up draft schedules for my own portion of the trip. Found a good priced brand new hotel in a a prime part of copenhagen. (right next to the marriots and ascotts) but at half a price! hehehe...Haven't booked the rooms coz i need to at least confirm my main flights, buy tickets for the intercity flights then the rooms. Haiyo...so complicated.

Only haven't figured out which hotel to stay in amsterdam yet. Online reviews kinda all look abit =S but i want one near the central station coz i dun wanna lug my bags too far. Also, i plan to go see the world's largest flower auction at the crack of dawn ---6am! so the bus starts from the station...hehehe...

I've decided to give belgium a miss, after a better look at the schedule. I only have 3 free days, of which already one will be spent on the train from london to amsterdam. Only one option available for a sunday and it's from 8am to 4pm. By the time i'm settled, i need to poke my head out for the nightlife. =P maybe check out the late night museums..

That chunnel trip dunno how much it is, but estimates tell me its abotu S$350! flight is $170...how ironic.

My two interconnet flights sbout be about $170 each. one from berlin to lon, and amsterdam to copen.

MOOLAH SPENDING

Today made two trips to parkway with big sis.

ended up---completely unplanned, getting some airsterilizer the size of a tissue box. (supposed to be real good) cozt me $292. HAIZ....

sis shopping for one coz of her dog's skin and old health. For me i considered for health reasons, of my footie and the bad dust state of my room...hopefully it will help me zzz better and give my body good vibes for footie's sake.=)

I also bought today coz the guy was willing to give 10% discount for 2 units.

There goes my hp $$$ lor....aigooo, i need to get a proper hp before my trip.

Anyway, still hunting, and will still buy lah, just a more broke June month, having to pay for income tax, parking fine, and if i'm not worng Blooie's insurance will be up soon -- with road tax...raaar.

2nd trip to parkway was later tonight, when i realised forgot to buy spare batt for mum's camera in tiem for her trip (she leaving 0300h sunday) and need an 8 hour charge mah. So sis drive, i did the rushing. The cam has two batts already. Just that the 1st oen due for retirement lah.. it will be good for her trip..she going alaska and canada!

VISA

spent some time checking out which countries we need visas for. Just to make sure in case i decide to do something mad like dance between borders..hahaha...all is well for the general europe side...can save some moolah, unlike aussie need visa. humph.

WORLD CUP

my collague reminded me that i'll be in europe during world cup and asked me about eh time differnce! would i miss out?

Apparently it will start in the midst of the trip. And there is no time diff between south africa and europe! so it would be live matches, from europe time of sometimes, 4pm, 8.30pm and the occasional 1pm.

I looked to my sis last night and said:" you think it will be safe to travel during that time??? I mean, what if the germans riot?!"...my sis said.-- germans to do riot...AHHAHAHAHA...

But you knwo what i mean, i'm going to soccer crazy countries of england, germany and holland...ah dui. what if the team loses...but then, again, action should be fun at the pubs, i wonder if i'll have the guts to go watch eh and be part of the local trend. =P

Over there, soccer in pubs = to SG kopishop uncles with their tiger beers kind of culture.

FLOWERS

I'm not a huge fan of flowers, but they are lovely when in the thousands...and i read it's all a blooming in europe in June. let's hope eh...then the gardens will be nice..=) big garden squares set against historical buildings..woohooo...

Oh yay...it will be the first tiem i bring my new camera overseas!!!

MOBILE PHONE

I considered the corby pro the past 36 hours. Until, i read that my phone provider will be the first in the world to offer the latest samsung that i'd been drooling over. the only bad thing abt it is that it's pure touch screen. But it will be one my boss will likely admit is more chio than his phone...bwahahahha...

but but but....it's only avail in shops from 4 JUNE. *faints* I leave on the 5th June..dunno what time yet.

which then my brain leads back to.....

...TICKETS

I wanna sit A380 from london to sg can or not!?..sniffs...haiz...complicated. gotta check how difference the price is going to be.

am on some KLM/ airfrance combo. and i'll be in paris for 3 hours! HAH! (lame celebration --- it's only transit at the charlles de gaulle lah..=P)

okie okie...time to go..thirsty....

2010-05-24T01:26:00.002+08:00

Argh...why the smile you links still down?!...grr...will i forever be stuck on episode 36 part 7!!! I refuse to skeeep...so close to the end liao!!!

I love the show neh...I'm so glad the first korean show i ever watched was Smile,You. It was worth every minute. It make me laugh and cry so many times i can't remember. =D

me thinks the lead lady is damn pretty lor. Lee Min Jung. The role just suited her lah, from acting as a spoilt brat to the adorable and essentially strong girl. The show's character is very admirable.

Anyway...can't believe she came to SG before, and looks so sweet at the airport signing autographs.Heh.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yV3cm4pckXk

She seems like a nice person, hope she'll be happy and not one of those sad story celebs.

Thank you...

2010-05-23T00:49:00.002+08:00

...Dr Goh Keng Swee...

God blessed us by sending you. Enjoy the rest of eternity with Him.

half my face...

2010-05-22T01:22:00.002+08:00

looks like a leper....eeeewwww....

dumb virus..first time kenna. Humph...

Me pray me will get better and can sleep well. no brain freeze pain!

2010-05-18T02:01:00.001+08:00

When I don't react to such news, i dunno if it's good or bad. jaded or just ...haiz..speechless.

my lymph node hurts and is growing. ='(

Tired.

new shoes, laundry...and cute stickers.

OK, not making sense. Nites.

Yipeeedooo

2010-05-15T07:06:00.003+08:00

It's 7.06am on a saturday! so rare right? That's becasue i fell asleep whiel reading my new matthew reilly book. Hee...yipeedooo...and i jsut spent almost an hour at the bowl becasue I coudln't stop reading it. =)

Am here to share about a good day -- yesterday. Well, not that i'm jumping for joy or something. Strange feelings I'm having which i akin to emotional swings. Perhaps with this round having no cramps it has decided to go mental with me. Hahahaha...

Yesterday, we got books from the library, particularly the last of the series. Though getting lost on the way - but 3 cheers for ge's driving. =) We got news that $$$ has been approved pending final action and should hear from them next week. we're officially GST registered toos, with them sending a letter that everything was in order and no need to give more docs. Did a half hour brisk walk at the gym, since i'd already lugged my stuff. Ge's hp did a near drop into the bowl. Thank god for quick reflexes. Pins are doing good in theri tank and adored by some staff whom I know will at least play with them once in a while. The dumb doberman has been bad this week, constantly digging holes in the garden (which means more $$ spent fixing it back up) she is however happy and continues to eat non-stop.

so yeah, all in all, it's been a good day.=)

Ok, i've got to go though i wanted to add in more. Simply becasue the book is summoning me...hee...

I pray for a good weekend, specially for you all who are reading this!

2010-05-04T01:19:00.001+08:00

Just felt like typing something here.

There. Done. =P

Pray I have a good rest.

After many weekends of vexing..

2010-04-27T21:47:00.002+08:00

My terrapin tank is ready! Yeah! Me moved them into thier new home about two weeks back. But had to take them out regualrly, because I still hadn't figured out how to do a staircase for them.

Thank God for the perfectly shaped driftwood (the only piece that size and shape at the shop). The Pins can now climb up to their resting ledge. =) I saw a smilar tank at the shop...$30! when I got mine at $10..heh..what a steal...

Anyway, all they now need is a little tidying up of the tank because some of the set up were just trials and not done proper.

Was happy when i came in this morning. They were perched on top of each other relaxing, plus me got the lib books. =) So they have adapted to thier new tank. Next step now is to make sure they eat, then eventually with some creativity, decor the tank a lil' so that it looks nice in the office.

I think the Pins give everyone a little entertainment at work. I guess, seeing two small fellas takes your mind off stuff...I hope the Pins won't be too cold, because they can't talk lor...

Humph , come to think of it, I should jsut give them a mini broom and mop --> they DIY cleaning! =P

First...

2010-04-20T05:37:00.004+08:00

....dont' ask me why I'm awake at this insane hour...sheesh...later sure ahev trouble waking up..

just now ge talked about studying, and i realsied that i'm adversed to studying again. Hahaha...I never thought of myself as such. Always thought I'd go study some further somehow. Maybe it's been too long. Or just the pessimissm took over. Whatever happened to the joy of doing something different, amazement of discovery, realiseing new potentials, having only to worry about friends, relationships, projects, eating and sleeping...

Wait a min...that's provided you're doing it full time with a fairy god mother sponsoring all expenses! hahaha...

Having Blooie made a diff, his basics wiped out several things. Though many can argue that i can sell him anytime lah. But he definitely had a bite outta my potential savings.

So...being in "productive and please while you're balancing work-life- take part time courses to skill up- and have 3 kids if you can afford it" dear country called Singapore.......We can all do the above right..

True, it's defintely possible and have seen mothers with job, and commitments do it. With much tears actually. And let's be truly honest. Not top honours success all the time.

Apart from bearing the consequences...i just don't like studying...grrr..sniff, my studying joy ended when i was in Pri 3...Hahahaha...k lah, have to admit, i did like physics alot in sec 3 and 4. Aiyooo, the thought of having to deal with slackers in any team projects just make me shudder. Remember the caboodle of them in Uni!!!

=)

Now govt giving moolah to subsidise courses leh...esp for my case got good chance for decent courses. Haiz..so shoudl really think about it lor. All the above is flesh talking lah. Realistically, soon you throw a stone you hit a MBA holder. Already it's the case for degrees.

Mmm...can't imagine..3 days a week, 7.30pm to 10.30 pm in class, maybe saturday in class too. All other free days to do projects/ research. Using annual leave to take exams. Oh, and still need to study for exams...dui...gosh...probably need to retake modules if fail also right...ARGH....

Already met many who've put their part time studies on hold, coz not getting anywhere. Quick quick...where are those freaking sucess stories!!! hahaha...

you think too much lah...*slaps self*

Whoever reads this has rights to slap me awake. hahaha

go kway-zeee

2010-04-16T01:19:00.001+08:00

hate my days now...

2010-04-15T02:03:00.000+08:00

An up and down day again. How does one live this way. Each new day, i hope things can amd will change...and somehow without fail..well, it all fails.

The feelings of useless to the point of pointless and non-existence came by again. Dunno what's the point of me...I feel like an idiot.A pathetic snail.

One moment i feel as though i could do anything and in a split second i feel like a peanut.

I dont' feel like eating cause..well, what's the point of eating? Is there a need to? Why go home, why sleep, why play, why do anything. Why do things to lift your spirits at all, when ...well,....there's no good way to end that line..hah.

I've let myself down, i've let the world down. i've let myself down again. A simple way to put it is a useless piece of s**t.

I'm not sorry for myself...just fed up with myself.

Time to go to bed for the 'new day'...

2010-04-08T01:08:00.005+08:00

I never heard of the govts slogan on CBF until recently, and I am extrememly amused.That they used CBF instead of productivity lor...goodness...so..erm..layman lor...hahaha...didn't someone reading the script pick it up!?!?

Reading articles online and laughing away upon learning that NASA's motto was CBF, in the early 1990's which led to the twin mars disasters of '99...and NASA's recognistion to scrap that stupid motto in 2000. Hahahaha...

Today i learned that blooie's cost price in teh market now is $82K to $97K, up from the prev $59K to 63K...kwah... and the used car market for those around blooie's age is almost hsi cost price too! it's like my car never depreciated..hahaha

Seems other drivers also experience blooie's heavy body roll on turns too...phew...

I alos just watched this clip of singapore in 1957 that left me =O it's so old...goodness...zero skyscrapers. And the way it portray the ang mohs...kekeke...and Singapore airport! marine parade was non existant lor...it took me a long while to recognise City hall mrt area..hahaha..becasue the only thing still there is the war memorial!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nw7toyYrqjs&feature=fvw

This channel is so interesting...got film of china in 1920s lor...these are really trasures and am glad they manage to digitalise it. The ones in teh 20s are like the charlie chaplin style...action then a balck screen with white words to narrate...coools...

10 caramel maccs...

2010-04-06T01:41:00.005+08:00

Can it be only monday? Yes it can...

I just filed my taxes. There's this portion for life insurance and I can't seem to ding my documentation to support it. Haiz. so i left it blank lor, the premium ain't much lah.. like 5 to 10 caramel machiatos. But i made the effort since, some deduction is better than none. But gave up after searching the standard areas. Just wanted to get it over and done with.

Another day...another short night. So quickly it's 2am now...feeling tired, but can't sleep. Enjoyed watching an episode of a kdrama online while eating dinner earlier.Then had a couple of things to do...

Changes happening in the office...which i'm too tired to detail now..

Changes happening to me too, which i give the same ans as above...I should be changing lah, the fact i feel this way...

It would be nice...actually,..i dont' know what would be nice...it's just a good phrase to hear. Don't u think?

I'm now thinking of what to leave on while i go to sleep. Usually just a short 20 min video of frasier/ some familar comedy...so that the voices in the background can help me to zzz..it's quite soothing...it's the only way i've been able to sleep on nights. Weird how I don't need that for napping. Tho technically I'm tired now...ok..i really dont' make sense anymore. hahhaha..

Rant time is over...

time to go...new day has begun. start by zzzzing....

Move

2010-04-05T00:23:00.003+08:00

Just spent 2 hours settling mum into her 3/7 day week apartment in Punggol. Drove her there with her barang, unpacked, set up the room, did some orientation, then drove home.=)

She's renting the place from a friend, and only need to cover the electricity. Basics for a hdb flat are there and it's fully furnished. Seems the friend let's relatives from m'sia stay there when they come visit.

Not too bad lah, lcd tv with dvd player, couch, all rooms have a bed, ironing board, washing needs, water boiler...This person likes the traditional feel and bought the old style kopitiam round table with four chairs for the living area. Bedroom floors were paquet, so it's comfy.

Just that the floor was real dusty so the major cleaning was there, plus set up the ironing board, toilet necessities, washed some stuff for use too.

So mum will be there for 3 days, weekly, coz it's nearer her school and she saves time travelling-- why do i have a feeling I have to drive her there every sunday. hmmm...

And the feeding dog probelm is still not solved lor...best...she told me about the move on Friday. (heard of the intent end of last year, but no confimration whether it'd materialise since it meant having to move and spending some moolah.)

Anyway, as i walked through the void deck, it reminded me so much of hostel. The dead quiet still air, with just crickets in a distance, and the prominent sounds are the shuffling of your flip flops and the rustle of plastic bags (in hall, you probably just came back from the super market or da baoed some supper from outside.)

Punggol like NTU -- ulu.....hahaha..

Race 2...Button wins...urgh...

2010-03-28T15:46:00.006+08:00

Todays' last 12 laps was exciting!

Button was way in front (12 secs ahead) at 1 position becasue of strategic moves by the engineers, giving him the lead. You can see my disdain for Button. When he does well, he's happy. When not doing well, you hear him be-moan about that the car is lousy -- ya, the same car that help you win the previous race..Duh...

So the reamaining line up was Kubica (renault), Massa and alonso, these 3 having 0.5 to 1 sec gaps between.

Between Massa and Alonso, I'm not being biased, but I have seen Alonso able to overtake Massa many times before...so..hehehe...he was trying.

BUT...

With 8 laps remaining, Hamilton started creeping closer behind on 5th postion (behind alonso), followed by Webber (red bull)

Initially, the time gap between the old rivals, Hamilton and Alonso was 9 seconds and it was cut down to 0.7 secs!!!

Radio chatter was screaming into hamilton's earpiece that the Ferrari's strategy may be failing them as they have to hold out with thier current wheels, which is wearing out fast. Pitting for the Ferraris at this stage was not an option. --> Pressure and overtake!!

Alonso da best lah...the strategy at this point paid off. For the team, he held off Hamilton and Webber, allowing the gap between him and Massa to increase, so that even if hamilton was to overtake, he wouldn't have sufficient oppotunities to snatch 3rd place from Massa, even with Massa's weak tyres. (Points in the top 3 postion as significantly higher)

At a 0.5sec gap, The Ferrari Team Radio told Alonso, "It's point-5 now, it's point-5.."

Alonso replied."OK, OK,..I don't want to know, I don't want to know!"

AHAHAHHAHA....it's true mah, here you are focussing on staving off the opponent, telling me how much he's catching up ain't helping man!

From there, alonso was great, keeping the eyeball on hamilton, who tried to peek out from the lineup of Alonso, Ham and Webber, in order to overtake, but failign each time..*evil laugh*

With two laps to go, Hamilton made his grand move.

Approaching a sharp right turn, he overtook Alonso on the left. Alonso didnt' fall back in line -- the usual method, as you should take the outer circle at the turn.

So they turned almost side by side - Ham on the outside, Alonso on the inside.

Now if you do your visualisations, with your two hands parallel then turning right, the inner car's back will threaten the outter car.

This is the point where they often say is the guts part of F1 and the split second decision. You have to be confident and know your car well, and take the risk.

Alonso, with a slight jerk, swung near to Ham's rigth nose, his back left wheel, skimming close to Ham's fromt rigth wheels.This sudden move is critical.

Several terrible things could have happened --1) since Alonso was going with the G force, his sudden move to swing into ham's lane to cut him at the turn, could mean, he'll swing all the way out of the track into the wall! Taking his car out of teh race completely.

2) A collision of wheels, which meant either or no side would survive and be taken out of the track.

Ham panicked and slowed only enough to let the ferrari pass at the turn, but still strategically, He cut right at the last moment--- hoping that if Alonso is still swinging out into left, he can speed up by overtaking on the right...

Awww...but Alonso was smarter and knew what Ham was thinking, being ahead, all he had to do was turn his car right alittle, cutting into Ham's new drive path.

Muahaha...Ham was squashed! he couldn't go ahead anymore and could only turn right harder into and awkward postion in order to preserve the car and let the Ferrari pass.

hehehe...then hor, the Red bull nipped into Ham's car...and they both swung out of the race..hehehehe

Red bull's fault lah...he shouldn't go that near with these two in front who 'chut pattern'. But maybe he was also thinking that if the two cars took each other out of the track with thier moves, he could slip by!

Split second decisions man....split second...

Anyway, red bull lost a nose, meant having to pit and redo. hamilton was fine, lost some spots but still in the top ten...

hahaha...And Alonso sneaked away..kekeke...last two laps leh...

This ensured that the entire Ferrari team keep critical points. *evil laughter*

This is where I think Alonso has grown up as a competitve driver. All F1 drivers are very competitve. You should hear them when they talk, they are a bloodthirty bunch, they want to Win. But he has matured. It's not just about overtaking Massa and securing the 3rd postion (ie. the chance to stand on the podium as top 3). But about staving off the opposition, and even if it meant taking your own car out, at least the Team still secures crucial points, under your team mate's hat.

=)

Good grief, can't believe I yak so long about this..engrossed. =P

oh, and alonso got clipped by button at the flag off.spinning him to 22 position..n he fought back 2 4th!..muahaha

The silly things me do with me cam...=P

2010-03-19T01:29:00.005+08:00

Been so long since i put up photos. So take some time and do chirpy things!=)

Every CNY, I can't help but do my dracula and flit around the house. Hehe...I love madarin oranges! I did a single tooth dracula shot....
Then this one is slightly blurred,..hahaha...but i think i look like a happy walrus! =P *waves finger at self*...play with food!

Coming up, some photos I took during CNy visit. This year no hp camera so had to conscienciuosly carry the digital cam around =)

This is day two at my uncle's home. He's my dad's younger brother and they live in Potong Pasir area, jsut opposite Saint Andrew's village! Usually i spend day two at Ah ma's place again. But this year we're invited up coz they recently renovated the place since the younger son got married and moved in.

This is cloudy looking earnestly at my sister for food. Yep, the queen got to go visiting. Too bad this year no burberry top/ cheongsam! ( I think she abit too round liao, due to old age..hee)

In the background is my cousin Mabel. Heh, as you can see, our physical structure runs in this part of the fam!! Hahaha...she's older than me but younger than my two big sisters. I think sh'es a rabbit year...1975..she's into IT and lotsa programming and gaming. Was the only one among us all who had the chance to study overseas. She did her Dip here then degree in UK. I think she's still doing ad-hoc work for DSTA.

That's uncle on the right with my sister at the bottom right...ahahah...TVs are crucial at CNY to pass the time. =) We talk alot about football, he's a big Man U fan too. =) In the past when sis bothered, we'd make the trip to his place to catch the crucial matches coz he had cable. Since sis drove, can always get home after a match...Can't rememebr why one day it just stopped...maybe it was coz sis lazy liao..

Anyway, I feel he's a good and simple man, humble and easily happy. He leaves you alone the whole time and woudl be engrossed in reading the paper, staring at the tv and before you knwo it, he's fallen asleep on his easy chair..hahaha.

This is Ah ma, playing Gin Rummy! Hahaha...look at her so focussed. She looks forward to playing every few weeks. It's like a highlight to her, because it's the only big activity/ event with uncle and auntie go over.

Yipes! why the photo upside down one...Raaarrr...i too lazy to change..hehehe...but this is the clan playing with Ah ma lor...on the top in pink in Big Auntie, the eldest sister and sibling on my dad's side. She's very fierce and gave full time chinese tuition to the neighbourhood kids. You can imagine I was the fortunate one to be spared the torture after both my sisters went through the trauma, my parents decided otherwise for me..hehehe... bottom in red is my mum! And the last lady is the lady of the house!

She's the head nurse in KK for several years already. Probably over a decade. She power k, been a nurse since young...and still going strong! =) respect lah...she also a good cook! And ironically the only one not overweight in the fam..HAHAHAHA...

2010-03-12T01:56:00.002+08:00

I don't even know who I am anymore...I've lost it all...

Hall mates

2010-03-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

It's been some time since I've blogged at an early hour. =) before i ramble on, let me send out a few notes from my blog! Heee...

Ah Yin: Justin is blessed to have a loving mum like you. Hope you've managed to balance getting used to work life again. Pray for a daily dose of energy and super human work speed from God! Hahaha...hope to see you soon!

Yun: Moving fast hor, engaged then flat confirm so fast! Back to back blessings! LOL! Happy for you! =)Things are falling into place! Indeed God is good!

=)

Next update is that bowl will be getting married in..wah...13 days time. So fast. I better go work harder on the music! It will be at HortPark. Concept will be quite interesting. Very unliek teh traditional wedding dinners. Anyway, doens't matter lah, like what I always told her. It's your wedding! hahaha

Looks like I'll probably see a small handful of my hall mates there (she told me who she invited lah)..which should make for some good catch up time. Though...hmm...be prepared for the mummy conversations! LOL...OK lah, on hindsight...2 of 4 fall in that category. I can only wonder how the convo will be like. But at least I not so outdated. *phew*

You see, each of them have not seen each other in close to 4 to 5 years! YEP! (About there lah)

Not like saying my record is any better, but got some contact ya...Hmm...let's see

1) Joyce (Mum 1) - last chat for 2 hours in Feb 09! Since then the occassional and rare online msn.

2) Beeps (mum 2) - lotsa late night msn convos. (but haven't seen her for 4 years!)

3) Lychee - met her a couple of times since she back from the states last year.

4) Geakers - meet once/ twice a year. Still remember her as my mech engineering 'da jie'..super independent!

Ok ok...all this wedding talk has made me panic over the music...better get cracking...I think i've sussed out 5 good songs so far...=)

The God I know...

2010-02-22T22:46:00.004+08:00

Today I bore witness to something that warmed my heart so. It's been some time, I have to admit, since I felt the kind of presence I did so today from a chat, and I treasured it. Recently it has been from afar. But today I was reminded of how good He is and His love for each of us...and He is near.

As I listened I could only smile and Thank God that at the end of the day, his smallest and lightest touch sends waves through our lives. In fact, it was so nice, I didn't know what to say..hahaha...

Seeing her tears as she blurted out memories of feelings of being lost when waking up daily with a heavy and burdened heart. Digging deep and finding a brand new type of Faith that took care of things and carried her through. It was such a simply put yet powerful testimony. No fancy build up, no elaborate picture was decribed. No flowery words used.

Just reaching an end point where there's nothing left but to say: Here I am, I don't know how. But I pray...and ask....

She added that it was one of the most impactful experiences for her in the past year and that she met God in a new way.=)

And you know what? That to me is the best part. That it isnt' some man influenced deal, training or favour....but the most impactful experience was that of one with our heavenly father.

Which for any of my friends is the happiest I can be for them, and I'd only want more for them. Because these personal testimonies that strengthen them are the same that will pull them through when there's no one around.

I'm tearing as I type this too..coz it's joy and a strong strong reminder of who He is, who He has promised to be to us, and yes...He is... I had a song humming at the back of my mind since I started this post...

When the stage is bare tonight
There’s no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There’s no pretense
I’m on my knees

The God I know
Righteous and Holy
The God I know
Faithful and true
The God I know
My tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of the City
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me
As You are, so are we

I cry buckets when I sing the chorus each time...heh.

My dearest friend, I'm so happy for you. =) Thank you for being there for me k...can't say enuff of how blessed me is to have you lah..=P

2010-02-17T01:05:00.003+08:00

Being home these days is growing more to not be of comfort anymore. It's like you have to account for every action. If this is the way it's heading I wonder how i'm gg to keep living here.

You're told everythign in an indirect manner which is so pressurising. We have enough of such things outside, why have it at home.

And you have to ask everything more than once. Like you're begging. And no, it's not cause the person is THAT distracted or is the surroundings noisy. It's just plain rude.

I'm not even going to bring up what happened today. But the day before, I was scooping ice cream for both of us with one spoon. She was making tea for both of us and had taken two spoons to use. One for each cup. The kitchen is quiet. Knowing how senseless it is to wash that many spoons once we finihs with our tea and ice cream, and ALSO that she is so freaking picky she must only use THOSE KIND OF SPOONS (other spoons in the drawer are considered weird. Though she's freaking used them before years ago.)...we do not have many of those particular spoons, and i've already mentally accounted for 3 in my above description.

I wanted to go out and continue my tv show. She was still making the tea and hogging both spoons. Since I didn't want to PRESSURE her in her tea making process. (God forbid)...So i said, "Later you use one of the spoons for tea for your ice cream k...i take this one can?"

Silence.

I repeated.

Silence.

Fed up, i went to the drawer. Took a spoon for my own bowl, and tossed the one used for scopping into hers and left the kitchen.

Honestly, nothing negative was in the air before that.

Now even though the one i took from the drawer was the same preferred type, why did i bother to even toss the used spoon for scooping into her bowl? Coz she freaking will not use unrinsed spoons for her food. Yes. So irritating.

At that point, i dont' really care. I'll just use the damned spoon.No matter how possibly unclean the spoon is even if it came from the drawer. So pissed.

She is one person who deems that anything others have washed is never as clean as how she has washed it. For mum, it happens often coz she's old and not so thorough. For me, accidents happen and you miss that oily spot at the bottom of the pot.

Spare me the perfection lah. You make mistakes too. But no, your mistakes are more justified than others.

You must be thinking, then let her wash her won stuff lah. Can. Can be done. But there are some common things that will still be used. How would you feel if you have just washed something with soap and sponge and placed it in the dry rack. And in the same moment, while you're still hovering at the sink. A hand reaches over, takes it off the rack. RE-WASHES it in front of you with soap and sponge, and proceeds to use it immediately, without even checking if it's really THAT dirty?

Yes, such behavior makes you want to smack the person right? Pick an argument or something. Pity mum who faces that ALL the time, and me on the occassion.

If you say something, you're deemed as the one causing the ruckus or starting the fight. Afterall, she quietly took the freaking thing and re-washed it with no comments.

So what do you do? Say something or let it rest?

Be quiet and you encourage it. Say something and be the asshole.

I was just downstairs for an hour , and I had about 5 similar experiences as the above. Now you understand my first para?

Now i come up to my room and it's all stuffed up inside me. Like a big conflict 24/7.

I realised I've grown more defensive and angry due to these stupid things and it shows at work. I feel like a walking porcupine and I hate myself for it.Raaar...

Haiz...God what to do...what to do...

New bedsheet!

2010-02-13T23:59:00.003+08:00

One of me Xmas pressies is a bedsheet, so CNY can use orh..=) It came with a jigsaw, so may as well play with it!

Now i'm sneezing like mad due to the dust in my room coz when i change sheets, means the windows and curtains get a cleaning too..*Ah-chooo*

So here it is all done up...I just noticed it got the words 'Chop Chop' printed all over. I guess to Ang mohs it's the sound of the helocopters...but in SG...hahaha...it means chop chop do things now now now!!! I think the Choo Choo Train below is cute!!! =P

Moooddyy

2010-02-09T01:10:00.004+08:00

The day started off well today, though it did cost me about $360! Bought Blooie for his 20K km servicing and went for 1 1/2 hr full body massage. It's been so long since I went for one near my home, I didnt even realise they have moved over to Frankel for over a year!

It felt good, but quite pain actually. And now suffering from some blue-black feeling. Hahaha...But that's coz I though I could take the force lah. =) Got some of my fav noodles again and came home for a zzz in the late afternoon.

But come night hor, somehow, I felt like a slug. Lost the drive to clear my room. Maybe coz i feel time is running out and i should scale back on my ambitious quest. Also, there's been so much moving and packing the past week. Antoher round at home feels abit =S. But I was guai and cleared my watch/ dresser section. Not as complete as I'd have wanted it to be. But at least its done. =) Laundry too!

Hee...

Ah well, am in a grumps mood too. Being home more than usual the past 48 hours, has brought back the sad facts that somethings at home have not changed...same double standards...Raaarrr....the end of the break is neigh! extra mooody

But let's not be ungrateful, and remember to thank god for his blessings and favour thoughout. Things could always be alot worse. =) he is good to us.

I've got Las Vegas on the tv as a background entertainment while doing up this post. It happened to be showing when I turned it on. I'm a closet las Vegas watcher. What I like about the show is that you don't need to follow prior episodes to be entertained. (like CSI lah)...and it's quite funny and interesting story lines. =) Abit crazy one lah. Today's episode is a genuine mummy that has gone missing (supposed to exhibit int he casino) and is worth $400mil. So they're up to silly tricks to get it back. Of course, it helps that Josh Duhamel is cute tooz. =P

Ok ok...time to wind down and sleep it's almost 2am. wonky internet the whole time doing this post has extended it to an hour jsut to type it out. =)

Good nite God!

Jerk

2010-02-07T18:30:00.004+08:00

I encountered an irritating jerk today, and i wish the gf the best of luck man.

This morning I bought a newspaper and looked forward to settling into a delicious bowl of may fav 'oodles just outside my place. Yum yum! Being that it was about 11am, it wasn't as crowded, so i took a small table with 3 chars, me on one, and my paper on anohter. In the midst of eating and reading, I noticed a couple hovering. They looked like they were looking for seats and i reckoned, being close to 12 now, the place shuld be pretty packed.

So I offered " Would you like to share" and indicated with a circular motion to the table, and started clearing away my paper from one of the chairs and moving to the side.

The gf went. "Oh,.." and turned to the bf for agreement or whatever.

Gues what the jerk said?

"Share? does that mean we get to share your food as well?" and he had this smart alecky sarcastic look on his face.

Becasue i was in the midst of clearing to a side, i was completely not ready for such a remark. WHAT AN ASS. I just moved moved everything to the side and said " Like that ah. No way."....and moved to the side like they were the plague.

I think even the gf was a little stumped and said "no lah, not the food" and added "Thank you" and took a seat.

the guy walked off to buy food.

While pretending to read, I decided that I shall not be bitter for such assholes. I had felt compassionate really, and just didnt need to be so called, begged or asked if "can share table"...As if I own the table. Also, why bother to offer and disturb my peacful reading, when i could spread my paper on teh table and now had to fold it and tuck it in a corner of the table to read and eat.

Humph...jerk.

I tink the gf felt quite uncomfy in the time he went off to buy food, but I jsut acted busy. In my heart at that time, I felt like just saying. " No, don't want to share" and toss my paper back on the chair. Humph.

Listening to parts of their convo, I found out she was a uni student. Probably final year. hated that she was half the time, constantly asking for his opinion on some questin whether you would choose to be miserably rich or miserably poor. Frankly, as the convo went, his opinions kept changing. One moment he said, just stick to what you beleive in, the next he said follow the crowd because that's the way to go. LOL.

It was a moment i was thankful I didnt have a stupid bf in my life to contend with and stroke his ego thoughout a meal, when jsut moments ago, he jsut embarassed you in front of a complete stranger and left you hanging there, to face the tension resulting from your stupid act.

When he finihed EVERYTHING from his plate, he told the gf. Not nice one. Weird.

Anyway, when they left, he said a quick thank you, and i grunted a 'sure' only glancing up from my paper.

What a jerk. God help him.

i though i met hirrid people at the booth yesterday. This is frankly worse. Do i feel irked?..of course. But not enough to say i'll never do it again. Why spoil the world over one jerk's behavior?

Should've hope he'd choke on his food...MUAHAHAHAHA....haiz....

2010-01-30T01:54:00.002+08:00

It's the weekend..yay...can rest for a day. Saturday. I pray everyone gets good rest for the day.

I'm awake watching dvd now. A strange series called Better off Ted that lasted 2 seasons. I'ts not laugh out loud funny. But it keeps you hooked to find out what more is happening in the oddest way..haha..

today i threw a tantrum at work. *hides face*..thinking back I dunno what came over me. Moi angry about the move. Haiz...but i hope i'm ok now. I need somehting to keeel...heh..in the middle of it, i felt angry at myself for feeling that way more than anything,,that I couldn't control myself. Do people actually act this way?..hahaha

Ge poked me along to let it go. She da best lah...if it weren't for her at work today, i would probably have torn down a door! =P

Just as well, our printer gave me reason to wanna kill him! hahaha...fake promises and deliveries lor. This is basic untrustworthiness lor. Teweeeble! Not only that, they had to stay in the office to wait for one of the delvieries at 9pm lor..Humph.

Super tired now. The fact I can't remember much of what happened today...Will go...nite nites!

2010-01-29T02:13:00.003+08:00

I think my office has gone nuts. Well, these are mad times.

I officially feel now we have no sense of day or night. So what if it's 8pm? or 9 or 10....and today coz we went out to eat, we hit 11...woohooo...far from the record. But i doubt we'll hit it this time round. I feel it's because of the weather as well.

Been so dry and hot. Thirst is a big thing!

Pray we'll all be in good health.

Today ge went to pack the golf bags in this horrid weather, and i'm sure in a small suffocating storeroom (typcial golf stores)...she survived all sticky and feeling *blah*

eeeps...to think i gave her a hug in the office less than an hour later..eeeeeekkk...ahhahaha

Oh well, so many things happening in the office now, it's like we're all doing our own stuff. Deliveries to the office. One team breifing students and organising the goodie bag packign for the career day. One team settling the golf tourney....then some settling the exhibition opening....some chasing for passes....some researching on new offices....some negotiating on prices...and yes...ONE clearing the office! hahaha...

Today's lunch we tried out this makan place at simei called 18 chefs, doing pasta and baked rice. Nice! sphagetti was cooked well! will go back! =)

Frankly Don't know what i'm doing or why i'm doing things.It's been dead stressful sleep these days and a very hard time waking up. I feel as though a bulldozer has run over me each morning! lol...

Even dinner makes no sense! hahaha...e.g I just ate antoehr full dinner at 1.30am thanks to mum. I was too dazed to even think about whether I should be eating or not. It was just there, so eat, wash up, keep. This is called doing the necessary.

K K...am just tired. Dunno tired about what also.

new Lappies!!

2010-01-27T02:44:00.002+08:00

Today I'm officially blogging from my new office laptop. Heh. Just bought it yesterday! My laptop is overdue for a change. I've used it since 2006 leh! It was aFujitsu 6420 that was one of the slimmest and tops in it's class back then, with fingerprint log in too! Cost a whooping $4,500 for a business edition.

Went to parkway with ge to choose the laptop. Bought 2 and ge made enough whines to make the guy rethink his freebies. On top of everything he gave, he did give a surprising $200 discount off the total bill! Not bad leh. I didnt know these guys at such shops could give such discounts. I thought prices were fixed as is one. All he can do is play withe the add ons. =)

Ge's lappie is coming to be almsot 2 years old. Even though not as old as mine, given the *ahem* incredible number of e-mails and docs she hammers out of that laptop, before and after work hours (includind fueling her online vid watching). It has lived a long and fruitful life.

God was good lah.

I think he knew that our comps were going to die since friday. LOL starting with Ge's comp charger dying on thursday night. On friday, my outlook was showing signs of fatigue. (13,340 mails in inbox). Over the weekend, god gave me grace to be able to go out and hunt for the laptops conveniently, leading me to the decent specs one fast. On monday morning, my Outlook could not function. After i typed a mail. i had to wait almost 10 seconds before the 'Send' button would respond.

So yes, Monday afternoon we shopped and bought the lappies. I could get mine first and ge's had to be delivered the next day. And whoever said laptops cannot 'feel', my old faithful decided to give up on me in a drastic way the following day (ie. today.) You see, i still had to use my old comp as the main mails etc are still there and i was still doing the set ups for my new one.The monent i reached the office. Guess what.....my charger died too! OMG.

Thank god one of my collagues is using a laptop of a similar model. I had to sit beside her and swap plugs at intervals.

Considering this is the week before airshow. I've been unable to do much the pst two days because of my lappie predicament. (Frankly I dunno whether to laugh or cry about it.)

But tomorrow i really haev to put my axe to the grind and pick things up where i left off fast. And God i pray for grace to be upon us in the things we do. So many things we are in the mercy of someone else's time line/ confirmation. We can't push as they are the only source....yet...Gotta have faith.

Anyway, thanks for giving us our lappies God, and providing, it's fun...camera function and all. I hope everything will be compatible!!

Another thing happened today. I'm too tired to recap the saga for you. In a single sentence: We've been told to leave our office building by 1 april 2010. *sigh*

I had such a mixture of emotions when i first heard it. Initially I couldn't believe it. Thinking we had only lost our parking. But no we lost our tenancy too.

I had about 2 hours of driving around to digest the info (had to run a couple of errands)...and was feeling frustrated and sad at the same time.it's still sinking in. the shock of the news.

I'm gg to miss our office space. We always got good praise for it. And it was somehow comfortable even though we didn't have many windows and a super noisy aircon. Location was really good too.

i always thought we've leave when we were ready to. you know like part of the Aero park in a nice colonial buidling..hahaha...

Well, now we need to find a good home for ourselves. Yes, it is a home. We spend at least a half of our weeks here, and we tasted goodness and bitterness within the same walls too. A good place where we can build new aspirations and milestones for our org. And i pray that He'll guide us in the right choices and the right place, where he would want us to be. =) That we do pick the place that he has planned for us. =)

Help us not to worry about how it's going to be done. Where the $$ is going to come from to do it. How will we adjust and move. How well are we able to do it. Whether we will like the new place or not, and if all of us are able to adapt fast. Would we still be able to get training classes in. Will we be far from our working partners. Is it a convenient and good place to be. Will we get along with our neighbours. how will we move all our stuff!?!

Hahaha...I hope you'll help us see it thorugh your eyes and not ours. By faith we can believe!

=)

Okies....time to go sleep...carreid away again..see lah.

But thanks God for listening. It's been great.=)

pray pray...

2010-01-25T01:18:00.003+08:00

The final week before Airshow week.

So many things to be done. But more importantly, so many things that needs God's favour and grace in all of it. Pray that he'll go before us to fight the battles that we can't.

Pray for protection for our health and mental strength, and that all of us will work well together. That His presence will be with us all the way!

Give us good rest with every minute that we sleep and strong bodies. Healthy stomachs, feet, backs and throats! Let us not be hindered!

In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

buy with me want??

2010-01-22T02:28:00.002+08:00

was supposed to try to sleep early...end up as usual...do this here and there...I tore myself away at 1-ish lah, but ended up looking at the property brochure for the new place literally outside my gate.

I haev already picked out the best apartments liao...LOL..knowing my area well, i know what to avoid..hee...

k lah, better not talk so much, else sleep later. Need to watch some comedy before I zzz tho...else..feel robbed..lol..

ttyl!

2010-01-18T01:08:00.002+08:00

Today just passed so fast.

Service, lunch and a quick pop into the John Little sale, i left at 330pm lor...came home napped till 7, ate, packed up one clothes cupboard, trip to salvation army and that's it!

Waiting for sis to bathe finish now. Feeling quite tired now. Tomorrow's a new week.

Yest I had a late night dinner/supper with my CGL at macs. Talked about some stuff. Oh yeah..and she told me about the new buidling thing sionce it was announced in Sat service. Anyway, she talked about 2010, and she hopes it'll be good. =)

my focus now is on my footie and I hope he grows strong fast. Of course, being busy with aishow is one big thing too. Towards teh end of 2009, I was quite angst...the holiday period felt apprehensive for me. I felt as though time was ticking out for me. I don't know why. Anyway, i decided to trust God all over again for the year ahead. And take back again Jer 29:11. there are some battles better left fought by Him.

Ok, i should go. eyes are really closing. shower, wind down and zonk..before 2am i hope.

Nites!

joke,,,

2010-01-17T02:53:00.002+08:00

Late friday afternoon, boss was in his office having a meeting with 3 staff. It was not the kind I could not interupt. Anyway, there was a reason why I had to interupt, so i stood at the doorway.

Then just before I turned to leave, Boss gave me a knowing look and asked me "So ok with the 8K?"

I wanted to answer -- If I had known what the question was refering to.

I must have had this static look on my face coz one of them burst out laughing.

Then I said:" Boss which 8K? 8K at present mean alot of things to me leh. 8K for a boothlet, 8K is how much we owe xxxx, 8K is the number of publications to reduce to..."

HAHAHAHA...boss was amused too...

yawns

2010-01-12T01:37:00.002+08:00

Work week 2 of the year has just ended it's first day. Hmmm...Funny, i wonder if it's a good sign to be so aware of it. LOL.

so many bits and pieces happening. Haiz. And just when we thought one was settled, only found out it's partial. *gulp*

I was just showering when i started thinking about prayer and the power of it. It's been so long since I've had these kinds of thoughts move into my conscious. It is a simple act of faith. Anyone can do it.

The best thing about it is that you don't have to put it in so many words or be eloquent in speech. Just have heart. =) Talk to God as you do a friend. A close friend. coz you'll be sincere. i know you rarely hear Him talk back. But jsut take it that he's a good listener k?...hahaha

I always envisioned angels jotting down everything I say and *rolling their eyes* at my silly mistakes or having a "not-again" look..hahaha..pity the angel who gets me when i fall asleep halfway..lol...but they will still do thier duty and bring up the prayers to Him. =) becasue Angels bring up our prayers mah...

ok ok...dont' drift too far..else i'd go no where. I guess say here and there, I just wanna tell god I appreciate his patience with us. =)

Feeling comfy here, just sitting back and wriggling my toes with the cold air blasting in my face. Can tomorrow not come? hahahaha...God give us strength and wisdom coupled with immense favour, please...on all the stuff we can't work on can you please send your angels to work on them and I pray that your grace will cover it all. For everything we touch, that it leads to goodness and in accordnace with your plan. I trust in you that you will protect and stand up for us. Amen!

Ok, the fact I'm rambling prayer on the blog means the brain is 82% gone..hee..

I should gooo...

Oh and ge is back from her tweep with her family. Yipeeedoo..., Ge's back!! heh....though I rather she stay far away as possible from the =S of work..haha...=) I wonder how many times she turned into an icicle in Korea. hahaha..=D

wedneday...

2010-01-06T21:16:00.002+08:00

What a tiring day...it's a domino effect the past few days. Usually you can scrap us off the ground on Thurs or Fri.

Thank God things worked out at the end for one of them. And I pray tomorrow in their morning meeting they will trash things out and everything will be in our favour. We will not be in that meeting. But I pray God you'll send an angel to oversee it.

At the end was quite frustrating, but i did laugh at the end after sitting down, just because I resigned to the fact that boss was in that mood. So freakin' irritating for the simple terminology of a 'balloon'..i got fed up and asked what he wanted me to call them? so that henceforth i will use that term jsut to shut him up. But becasue teh otehrs had yet to feel the extent of the irritation, they listened in to his crap...and i figured..jsut let him lah..it doens't matter what i say... though one of them alos got tired of it.

so i jsut sat there and let him waste time. preciosu brainstorming time. Nothing productive or helpful, and he ropes in everyone to the crap. i should'e jsut goen back to my laptop. But I was in teh middle of a discussion.

aiyah...talk abotu it also xian..had enuff..

God..please sjut help us k...thank uuuuuuuu...

Frist work day of 2010

2010-01-05T00:24:00.003+08:00

Changed my blog header for the new year to Mr Bump..hee...cute hor, I actually bought my sis a mini backpack (kids one) for her to use when she go swimming! heh...yep, it is exactly egg shaped like this with the hands and legs sticking out. =)

Couldn't resist not getting, coz i knew she'd like it, just a matter of whether she'd use it..hee...she told me at the pool today some kid was telling his mum that he wanted the bag! hahahaha...

He looks terrified! like in the middle of falling down..LOL

It's 12 plus liao, showered and settled down, ended up watching the ending of Kong the movie, which i tweeted about how much i hated the show and pitied the poor monkey..haiz...

oh well! It's a show lah..I know...=)

Today was the first day back to work for the new year...was ok, so much to do with so little time as usual. And still a whole lot more...went for a meeting on the afternoon. Sometimes i'm just too nice, can't stand such people, but I guess they think they have to do such things to get what they want. I'll just be fine with you, but you can forget about getting any future respect from me lor. You do not twist arms in this way and corner people like that. it's an overall small matter, but i guess must bmeet all kinds of people in life right, and learn how to handle them.

Woman is fortunate I have patience and did not blow up. At least i went in prepared. humph...oh ya, and such guilt trips DO NOT work on me,...I never owe anyone one without my willing consent! *fumes*

Anyway, the fumes dissipated long ago...just well. still poofy about it! hee

Came home quite drained coz of the episode. even though it was only 7pm when i got home. Dinner then after that i just took it easy. No work, just a peek at the mails that came in later. Can't kill myself off on the first day...

Footie having a mind of his own as usual. This mornign woke up so stiff...then better in the afternoon...am forcing it to work and support myself proper. strengthening exercises!

Ge and my CGL is in seoul! what a coincidence, Ge there with her sisters and bro-in-law for a holeeday, and anna is there with the church! She going up the prayer mountain neh! And bringing up all our requests!

But hor...considering she so scared of cold, i think the snow storm no gootch for her...lidat wouldn't it be colder up the mountain?!...heh...poor anna...hope the trip will still be fruitful ya...

Okie, time to go be a good girl, gulg my water for footie then go pray...fighting the lazy bone! hahaha...

Recount

2009-12-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

Antoher tired day for Jeano...zzzz..now sitting here waiting to reach midnight++ so that can bring in the dogs for tying up and tuck into bed.

This morning, woke at 10 and still feeling achish all over. I dunno what's wrong in terms of my sleep lately, having thse vivid dreams that are a little scary and makes me very conscious, and aware that i'm frowning in my sleep actually. I fell asleep at 2.30am in front of my lappie last night. Which is reasonable hour in Jeano books lah.

Pooped, pee, brush teeth, changed, asked sis how she doing this morning, back tracked and fed da Pins. Loaded up mum's stuff into car. Drove to her old east school, to give nephew's report book for appeal. Headed to redhill to move out mum's stuff coz she's leaving the current school to be re-posted next year. Loaded up on petrol at SPC, redhill. Parked, had lunch at the Redhill market, bought broom, mop, scrubs and candy (this one for office)..plodded back up the multi-storey to get the car (and mum didnt make sense when she made me carry all that up to level 5 to load in the car while she waited at the ground level exit. =S

Sis called, asked if i could be home before 3.30pm when they close. She needed a ride to the docs outside our home to get her MC. I figured. OK.

Next stop, Ion. Parked at Shaw again coz we took a wrong turn. Hunted for the LV shop...turn out the access is from Outside Ion! =S chose, the bag, made exchange and waited for all the double checks.

Said bye to mum, and only reached back my car at 3pm! Sis said she will go herself even though I was heading home. Got home, headed out on foot to the docs. Met sis in carpark, drove her car back. Unloaded mum's gazillion things again into the house. Contemplated movie, but had to coordinate with Duck, who was still napping!....had to take a breather, and cook sister's dinner (basic lah)...

Bought tix online, showered, fed dogs, clear bowls, pick poop, turn off sis' dinner, look for Cloudy -- coax her downt o eat dinner, drive out, pick up Duck, grab dinner, queue for tix and popocorn. After show, had time at the cold storage, so picked up some belated Xmas present. Bought some hot pies for sis supper. Drop off Duck, ended up talking to her in the car under her flat. Reached home at 1045pm. Cleared up leftover dinner, washed up, gave Red her daily apple, stocked the fridge, clean the home tortise, put in a fresh tub of water+Kang Kong+ peel a prawn...and came upstairs...

O__O

Today was peppered with sms and calls from 2nd sis that usually does not happen on lor..=S

Yawn...oh well...

I am alive..LOL

Now it's 12am++

Time to go back down and tuck in the dogs, come up and shower...what a day...ZZZzzz

Classic Christmas...is childhood memories....

2009-12-28T00:11:00.006+08:00

OOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooo...YAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!

I remembered and found my Disney Christmas show!! Man I loved this so much, it was like over and hour of pure christmas magic! I used to have one video tape of it when i was young. Recorded from Tv...!!

I would just leave it on..and laze in bed in an aircon room (the only few specials days, I won't get scolded for leaving the aircon on in the morning)..hee...they showed it in SG when i was 3!!

they don't make good ol' christmas cartoons like this no more...what a classic!

Can't imagine...I believed it all...all that happiness, all that joy..*beeeg smile*

This is just one part. 10 mins!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sk2AI0zPr3w&NR=1

Ge ah, this was broadcast in Christmas 1982 -- When you were born! Amazing ain't it? It's almost as old as you! =)

2009-12-27T22:50:00.002+08:00

Yest I was in vivo for dinner after the full afternoon doing bowl's wedding photo shoot.Whiel shopping for bandages for sis in guardian, i spotted the BK advert -- that they now have Angus beef burgers...*slurp*..made me think of the black angus dinner i had the day before on christmas day dinner..heee...Nothign like a good medium steak neh...*yums*...Lamb chops also can...drizzled with the right sauce...succulent and juicy...*smacks lips*

I apologise for making you salivate..hee...

Singaproe Idol finals is on TV now..final minutes..as usual dragging the suspense. I'm guessing the girl will win.

OMG...the guy won...I have nothing to say...she was so popular I thought she would win. LOL...and, possibly Singaporeans are tired of another male idol.

Last year when another guy won who was a Malay, (this is not racist)...the good thing was it showed, Singapore generally is racially harmonious. Bad thing is, SG Chinese can't sing ..LOL (finals was a chinese and malay male)

Now...anotehr one..HAHAHAHA...not a chinese competitor this time, but..she's hmmm...can't make out, probably half chinese?..hehehe...

Win lor...3 SG idol competitions -- and this?!..hahahha...*still speechless*

Congrats to the Suria channel, more talent! Go conquer the region guys! the chinese speaking countries can wait wait long long..hahahaha

Ok ok,...back to the intended post, woke up this morning aching all over, i had slept like a log but with vivid dreams. Aches came about from the tense driving session yest, because of the heavy rain and poor visibility with bad traffic. if there were traffic demons, they were against me man!!

It was an early mornign today, brought sis to see the sinseh in Upp Paya Lebar. Such places the earlier you go the better, because the crowd grows exponentially with time. Sis footie was real swollen, looked like mine, it was rounded and shiny! =P

Anyway, the doc said she had to go for Xray in case it was a fracture on the foot, so she used a marker and made some 'X' and 'O' with arrows....HAHAHA, when my sis came out, I said her foot look like a large piece of meat in the supermarket, being marked for cutting/ labelled for processing..hahahaha..like those round ham...LOL

I'm so evil, but she had to agree..heee...anyway, she in alot of pain. so she taking killers, this evening I did the groceries and dropped off my nephew's present finally. Drove big sis car (3rd time in my life) for all this, coz the cloudy had to tag along for her drive..Sis stayed in the car while i twaddled.

She's in worse shape than me lah...and she refuses to use the crutches coz uncomfy and awkward..MUahahahha...now she know why i dun like to use..hee...

so yeap...tired-er than ever man..tml antoehr day of errands..yipes..mum and nephew matters..haiz...

Anyways, time to go settle in liao..wonder what I shall watch tonite..hmmm...

so far...

2009-12-27T02:11:00.002+08:00

I'm reaching the halfway point of this long holiday break. Strangely, even though I haven't planned for any programme since the eve, I've been out for long hours since then, the past 3 days.

Footie's been holding up. In fact, not getting much worse. However, he aint' getting progressively better either.

Sis' recent fall was on the road to recovery on the knee...but little did she know, she sprained her toes (so we're guessin here) during the fall as well. So with her programme of runnign around since the eve too, christmas day was the last straw and her right foot gave up. It's puffy, and swollen like mine. -- and she still walking around lor...

So she was home the entire day. (except to bring her dog out for her drive...win lor...)

Anyway, coz she' in a worse state, I'm trying to do more, even though both of us are effectively penguins at home. Nothing major, just buying home food and heat plasters etc.

Probably coz it's late, but i sat here awhiel and wondered why footie is taking so long to receover. Like I said, almost reaching the hlafway mark of the hols and he's still behaving liek that...

='( ...kwhy....

haiz...ok..enough stupid thoughts..time to go settle into bed. early morning bring sis to see doc...or service...hmmm...oh heck...

Anyway, past fews days has been gootch, even with footie like that, I'm pretty much happy...

Pwessies I've given out all so far been positive, heee...fortunate lah...not everyone has a gift this year coz i couldn't find one bah...If i see something I know they'd love I'd get for sure..hee...=)

Tired...bed bed..calling to meee...

I'm not insanely nuts about snoopy..but...with pictures like this..who can resist?!..haha..

2009-12-20T15:44:00.001+08:00